I'm a lebanese girl of 21 years old my parents pass away but my mummy not from long time i had a boyfriend who was my first love i loved him from my bottom of my heart we stay together 3 years but when my mummy pass away i discover that he doesn't love me back he use me and broke my virginity. After he did that i didn't receive any call form him so i decide to do operation to get my virginity back so i did it a month ago and i get hurt too much at night i cry a lot cause my heart is broken sometimes i think to suicide cause no one deserve my heart even my love. Plus im scared to enter in a new relationship with a man cause im thinking that all of them think about their penis . And always when i wake up i have pain in my heart and sometimes i wake up there is tears in my eyes too.
please if someone can help me support me