I'm a bit relieved after reading a couple posts in here, that there actually ARE women out there who have similar feelings/fears as me...I have not only always been afraid of getting pregnant...but pregnancy actually disgusts me. Seeing pregnant women, seeing ultra sounds, hearing descriptions of the entire process...every part of the process just makes me feel disgusted and repelled. And as I am getting older (I'm 25), I start to get comments and little pressures from family members and my boyfriends family, as it is expected that every woman wants to have children apparently.
As someone else said, I have a very big aversion to invasive examinations, in so much as I have panic attacks when I have to have them. This is the same with almost all doctor visits. I recently got my tonsils out and it was an extremely emotional and traumatic experience (though worth it health wise in the end). The thought of people cutting into my body while I was unconscious just about makes me want to vomit. I can't even put into words the level of fear I felt going into that surgery.
In addition to all THAT, I have never felt a single stitch of maternal instinct within myself. I've never fantasized about having children. I didn't like playing with dolls when I was younger, and was disgusted even as a child by those dolls that simulated life-life experiences (i.e. eating and peeing/pooping, WHY would you want a doll like that?!?). This is not to say I don't like children or have any negative feelings toward them. My boyfriend has many nieces and nephews and i like them a lot, enjoy seeing them at family get togethers, and see the humor in the things they say. But I have absolutely no desire to coddle them, mother them, or want children of my own.
As someone else said, I have a very big aversion to invasive examinations, in so much as I have panic attacks when I have to have them. This is the same with almost all doctor visits. I recently got my tonsils out and it was an extremely emotional and traumatic experience (though worth it health wise in the end). The thought of people cutting into my body while I was unconscious just about makes me want to vomit. I can't even put into words the level of fear I felt going into that surgery.
In addition to all THAT, I have never felt a single stitch of maternal instinct within myself. I've never fantasized about having children. I didn't like playing with dolls when I was younger, and was disgusted even as a child by those dolls that simulated life-life experiences (i.e. eating and peeing/pooping, WHY would you want a doll like that?!?). This is not to say I don't like children or have any negative feelings toward them. My boyfriend has many nieces and nephews and i like them a lot, enjoy seeing them at family get togethers, and see the humor in the things they say. But I have absolutely no desire to coddle them, mother them, or want children of my own.