Hi all, I am going to be very honest so please no posts saying what a bad person/ mother/ wife I am - I already feel enough guilt. I have smoked since I was 17 and I just turned 29. Every year for the past 5 years I have tried to quit on my birthday (and other times throughout the year) and it never happens. I have two young kids and stopped for 6 months with the first and only 2 months with the second. The guilt of smoking while pregnant and breastfeeding is overwhelming yet I continue to smoke. I feel like my entire life revolves around smoking, that I am being held captive by my bad habit. I have always justified my smoking becuase I feel like my life is in good shape - I have a great husband (who also smokes of course), fabulous children who are very smart, kind, and respectful, I graduated college, I have a great job, a nice house, etc etc. But the truth is that I am not living up to my full potential- I am a great mother but I am not the mother I could be if I wasnt so concerned with getting high. I know all areas of my life would improve if I quit smoking but for some reason I just cannot make that leap towards sobriety. I too have become very paranoid and anxious when I smoke - it is not fun like it used to be. I often wonder how I ended up in this difficult situation but here I am. As with everyday, today is hopefully my first day in my quest to stop forever. There is no doubt in my mind that this is what I want but there is doubt that I will be able to stay firm with my decision. If there are other mothers out there dealing with this same situation I would love to hear how you feel. Thanks all and good luck to me and you!
helloooooooo. i just came accross this site and people i need some serious help................ lets just say my weed habit has left me COMPLETELY BROKE AND BACKED UP BILLS AND RENT. i am sooooo depressed and on the 27th i will seek help in my depression. i don't know what to do.....if i don't smoke i barely eat and definetly cannot sleep. it's like i'll stop smoking weed for 2 days feel great then i get the urge again and if i don't have the weed i am sooo annoyed and very irritated.. as i write this i am crying because i want to stop but feel sooooooooo bored without weed......... what can i do? someone PLEASE HELP
So i guess my story starts about 3 years ago(when i was 15, i'm 18 now). My little brother and I broke into my parents safe and discovered their bud. We both tried some for the first time and from then on we have smoked almost everyday since. My entire family is very open about weed and we frequently pitch in to get some or get it for each other.
Growing up I have always been extremely athletic, smart, and shy. Weed has done nothing but hinder the first two and increase my social anxiety. I was on my schools varsity wrestling and track team as a freshman, but I wanted nothing to do with sports when I started smoking. I used to have that natural competitive edge in sports and school...and I want that back.
Over the last 3 years I have run into a wide variety of drug addictions, none of which have been as challenging as weed. I have had problems with weed, alcohol, amphetamines, and pain killers. I haven't touched amphetamines for almost 2 years, and alcohol/painkillers for about 6 months now. I CAN'T QUIT WEED!!! I have quit b4, for 2 months about a year ago, but I relapsed when I was drunk. Since then I've gone through cycles of trying to quit, then relapsing, and sitting in a cloud of smoke for a week or so b4 realizing I have a problem again. I know that in order to quit I'm going to need a plan:
FIRST the hardest part for me is having some sort of support system...I live in a environment with ppl who smoke regularly...and constantly ask if i want to come smoke. All of my nonsmoking friends have moved away for college and I suck at making new friends.
SECOND i'm going to need to keep busy because I have a lot of free time. I'm borrowing a large collection of movies to watch from my uncle. I already workout a lot but I plan on switching to strictly cardio because it helps me detox faster.
THIRD is food. EVERYTHING tastes like cardboard for a couple weeks. I have no problem drinking things it's just the chewing part. To battle this I'm going to use a variety of meal replacements(supplements/vitamins/protein shakes) that you mix with water and drink.
There are many aspects i know i have overlooked. Before jumping into detox I want to have a good plan set. I know from experience that if i just jump into detox, randomly thinking i'm going to quit, I will rebound twice as hard. Any advise/tips would be wonderful. I hope that posting on this forum and talking to others about it as I go will help me have some sort of support system.
thanks,
i'll keep you posted
-Billy
Growing up I have always been extremely athletic, smart, and shy. Weed has done nothing but hinder the first two and increase my social anxiety. I was on my schools varsity wrestling and track team as a freshman, but I wanted nothing to do with sports when I started smoking. I used to have that natural competitive edge in sports and school...and I want that back.
Over the last 3 years I have run into a wide variety of drug addictions, none of which have been as challenging as weed. I have had problems with weed, alcohol, amphetamines, and pain killers. I haven't touched amphetamines for almost 2 years, and alcohol/painkillers for about 6 months now. I CAN'T QUIT WEED!!! I have quit b4, for 2 months about a year ago, but I relapsed when I was drunk. Since then I've gone through cycles of trying to quit, then relapsing, and sitting in a cloud of smoke for a week or so b4 realizing I have a problem again. I know that in order to quit I'm going to need a plan:
FIRST the hardest part for me is having some sort of support system...I live in a environment with ppl who smoke regularly...and constantly ask if i want to come smoke. All of my nonsmoking friends have moved away for college and I suck at making new friends.
SECOND i'm going to need to keep busy because I have a lot of free time. I'm borrowing a large collection of movies to watch from my uncle. I already workout a lot but I plan on switching to strictly cardio because it helps me detox faster.
THIRD is food. EVERYTHING tastes like cardboard for a couple weeks. I have no problem drinking things it's just the chewing part. To battle this I'm going to use a variety of meal replacements(supplements/vitamins/protein shakes) that you mix with water and drink.
There are many aspects i know i have overlooked. Before jumping into detox I want to have a good plan set. I know from experience that if i just jump into detox, randomly thinking i'm going to quit, I will rebound twice as hard. Any advise/tips would be wonderful. I hope that posting on this forum and talking to others about it as I go will help me have some sort of support system.
thanks,
i'll keep you posted
-Billy
Hello Im 43 years old and Ive been smoking everyday , every 3-4 yours for the last 13 years . And smoke at least 1 or 2 times a day 10 years before that. I need to quit smoking so bad . Money is not the issue . But I Terrified , My wife smoke to She was able to quit for a while but I didnt stop and it only to 1 stressful day 6 month later and shes smoking with me . Its my fault . Now she want to Quit She is in school full time On the deans list at the a Great College . and I know she would do so much better if she was clean . Like I said I must Quit I need help or Direction in Helping me Quit . Im about to order Easy Quit Marijuana Audio Program. and was wondering if anyone can tell me if it works . I desperate Im willing to try anything that will help me quit. HELP
Hi, everybody i've been a regular pot smoker for the a year and i had stop smoking it suddenly for about two weeks and i've got some side effects that is my skin is turning red on my legs and i get pain all over my body please help.
This post has helped me quite a bit. It is christmas eve, and I have tears on my face and im avoiding my family. I have many other health concerns, and I'm not sure how much longer I can go on. I have stomach problems, and a brain tumor, and im always feeling iffy. Seeing all of your strength, is helping me, but I cant help myself from tearing up right now, im so tired from all my struggles, I know others have it way worse, but im.. scared. Even tho others go through this, my heart races and my mind races, I feel like i cant escape, I fret my job. Im going to keep trying. Thanks for the help.
Poster on Christmas Eve, peace be with you!
Ive been smoking for a few years daily. I'm alright with it but have to quit for a drug test, I feel like it may be hard.
Ill say prayers for you and wish you well,
Good luck
Ive been smoking for a few years daily. I'm alright with it but have to quit for a drug test, I feel like it may be hard.
Ill say prayers for you and wish you well,
Good luck
i was smoking 11 to 12 joints a day for 6 years which alot of people will find is alot and i went from doing that to taking nothing ive not had a joint or a cigarette for 12 days now and i feel awful the withdrawal symptoms i have experienced are really really bad anxiety,shortness of breath,severe muscle pains all over my body,headaches,loss of appetite,loss of sleep,nightmares,constantly gassed up stomach and a short temper but i feel like im getting over the worst of it now.....Your post as helped alot as i now know that its not just me going through these feelings and that there is no serious health problems which ive been worrying about and obviously this as not helped the anxiety and panic attacks ive been suffering with which ive never suffered with before.I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel and im determined to beat this horrible addiction which as cost me a girlfriend and family over the years im very very gratefull for ur post signalship as it as showed me that im not the only 1 going through this..... so a BIG THANKYOU and i hope you can get through this.
I started smoking when I was 18 and I am now 35 (almost 36). I've smoked 364 days a year (yeah Xmas was the only day I wouldn't smoke).
Until the age of 34, I worked in an office. I never felt the need to smoke through the day although at 4PM, smoking a joint was the only thing on my mind.
At the age of 34, I started a home-based business. All the work was done on the Internet and the nature of my business didn't require me to speak to customers a lot, emailing them was enough. So that meant I could smoke pot all day long! I started smoking earlier in the afternoon, then smoking at lunch break and finally I started my day of work with a joint at 8AM. I was up to the point where I smoked at least 3 joints a day and easily up to 6! That's 1 to 2 grams per day! I even took a few hits of pot oil throughout the day.
Then at some point, I started waking up at night around 3am or 4am and I couldn't get asleep until I got a few hits. Still, my business was very successful, I made more money than I ever did, I was invincible and spending on weed was not an issue at all.
But now I've got a beautiful 2 years old daughter and I realized how lucky I was to have a successful business and such a good life. At 35, smoking pot all day long didn't make sense anymore. The party years were now over.
One night I flushed my pot down the toilet. OMG all I thought was "what have I done? quick, let's buy some more!". The first few days were awful. I couldn't concentrate on my job, all I was thinking of was smoking pot. I slept 2-3 hours a night, I just couldn't fall asleep. And when I did, all I had was nightmares, one after the other. Throughout the day, I felt like beating the sh*t out of everybody.
After nearly a week, the craving for pot is not as bad throughout the day but I still have a hell of a time getting asleep. One thing that helps me is to watch movies, play video games, go outside and just being active before going to sleep. This way I don't spend the last few hours of the day thinking about smoking pot just before going to bed.
Hopefully I won't pickup where I left and start smoking again. At this point, aside from the occasional cravings, I really have no intent of going back.
Until the age of 34, I worked in an office. I never felt the need to smoke through the day although at 4PM, smoking a joint was the only thing on my mind.
At the age of 34, I started a home-based business. All the work was done on the Internet and the nature of my business didn't require me to speak to customers a lot, emailing them was enough. So that meant I could smoke pot all day long! I started smoking earlier in the afternoon, then smoking at lunch break and finally I started my day of work with a joint at 8AM. I was up to the point where I smoked at least 3 joints a day and easily up to 6! That's 1 to 2 grams per day! I even took a few hits of pot oil throughout the day.
Then at some point, I started waking up at night around 3am or 4am and I couldn't get asleep until I got a few hits. Still, my business was very successful, I made more money than I ever did, I was invincible and spending on weed was not an issue at all.
But now I've got a beautiful 2 years old daughter and I realized how lucky I was to have a successful business and such a good life. At 35, smoking pot all day long didn't make sense anymore. The party years were now over.
One night I flushed my pot down the toilet. OMG all I thought was "what have I done? quick, let's buy some more!". The first few days were awful. I couldn't concentrate on my job, all I was thinking of was smoking pot. I slept 2-3 hours a night, I just couldn't fall asleep. And when I did, all I had was nightmares, one after the other. Throughout the day, I felt like beating the sh*t out of everybody.
After nearly a week, the craving for pot is not as bad throughout the day but I still have a hell of a time getting asleep. One thing that helps me is to watch movies, play video games, go outside and just being active before going to sleep. This way I don't spend the last few hours of the day thinking about smoking pot just before going to bed.
Hopefully I won't pickup where I left and start smoking again. At this point, aside from the occasional cravings, I really have no intent of going back.
Hi all, I have never posted anything online, this will be a first. Just want to start off by saying this site has helped me a lot.
I'm 25 year old male living in Sunny california. I work for a huge international company, I have a great career that pays well for my
age. One down side (some people might think its a up side) is that i have to travel all the time for work.
I have been smoking everyday for about 9-10 years, except when i was on probation (you guessed it for WEED/moved lots of weight).
I usually smoke out of my bong. when i was in college i would smoke non-stop before class, on my way to class, after class, all day everyday. I tried quitting several times and always relapsed. Recently i told my self im an addict. I cant sleep or eat without it. I feel like a slave to weed. i hate the feeling of being controlled and thats what i feel with weed, it controls my mind. I use to be extremely motivated and had goals that i wanted to reach. Not as motivated or hungry for success anymore, i feel like long as i have my chronic and bong im ok, but im at a point in my life where i have to cross the line and quit. in order for me to reach my full potential and live a happy life i need to QUIT. I know it will be hard but this is what I WANT to do for me, my fiance and my family.
I'm trying to slowly cut down. smoke only on mon,wed, fri. Today is the first day i havent smoked. I took some calms forte and benedryl to calm my nerves. The biggest problem for me with quitting is that i cant sleep. I'll keep posting my progress.
Bless you all and stay strong
"PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY"
I'm 25 year old male living in Sunny california. I work for a huge international company, I have a great career that pays well for my
age. One down side (some people might think its a up side) is that i have to travel all the time for work.
I have been smoking everyday for about 9-10 years, except when i was on probation (you guessed it for WEED/moved lots of weight).
I usually smoke out of my bong. when i was in college i would smoke non-stop before class, on my way to class, after class, all day everyday. I tried quitting several times and always relapsed. Recently i told my self im an addict. I cant sleep or eat without it. I feel like a slave to weed. i hate the feeling of being controlled and thats what i feel with weed, it controls my mind. I use to be extremely motivated and had goals that i wanted to reach. Not as motivated or hungry for success anymore, i feel like long as i have my chronic and bong im ok, but im at a point in my life where i have to cross the line and quit. in order for me to reach my full potential and live a happy life i need to QUIT. I know it will be hard but this is what I WANT to do for me, my fiance and my family.
I'm trying to slowly cut down. smoke only on mon,wed, fri. Today is the first day i havent smoked. I took some calms forte and benedryl to calm my nerves. The biggest problem for me with quitting is that i cant sleep. I'll keep posting my progress.
Bless you all and stay strong
"PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY"
Hmmmm...all of these posts I am easily able to relate to. I am almost 25 and more than ready to quite smoking weed. It is everyday, many times a day, even more on the weekend. It is awful when I wake up in the morning and my eyes are hazy and my stomach in knots. I started waiting until I return home and will not smoke a thing in the morning before I leave for work. It has made a huge difference, although I am almost tempted each morning to take "just one hit." I want to stop smoking, I have homework that needs to be accomplished, and sewing projects to complete, but instead I lie on the couch and wait for inspiration or motivation to hit me. My house isn't as clean as it once was. Sweeping only happens once a week, laundry once a month, clothes aren't put away for two months at a time, my don't even wake up to get "ready" anymore. I wake up as late as possible and get dressed quickly and run out the door, looking a complete mess!!! I really do not know how to "just stop," as my boyfriend puts it, but we have it all the time. It is constantly available and he believes I can "just stop." HOW!?!?!?!?! Best to luck to each and everyone of us.
Blessed be... ;-)
Blessed be... ;-)
Hi, I'm on my second quit pot. The first time I was successful because I decided a full year was required before I could compare my headspace properly. whenever I found an excuse to justify going back to smoking I told myself the reasons, "I'm more crative, fun, etc." I remembered that I had the choice to try pot again in one year. If
I lasted the year, and then stayed clean for three more months. I was in no hurry to return to smoking, but went on holiday with a friend, got stoned on second hand smoke in a car and decided what the heck. It took over two years to quit again.
I really appreciate the comments in the first article. I am unable to sleep well, my stomach is pretty riotous,
I have more faith because I did this once, and every few months, at the three months, six months, and twelve month stage, I was able to see a real change in my head space.
The best was at twelve months, discovering that I could really really relax, like there was a place in my mind that was so very quiet and peaceful.
The thought that help me fight the temptation was remembering how many times I'd smoke pot and immediately feel disappoiinted that I was stoned again.
I lasted the year, and then stayed clean for three more months. I was in no hurry to return to smoking, but went on holiday with a friend, got stoned on second hand smoke in a car and decided what the heck. It took over two years to quit again.
I really appreciate the comments in the first article. I am unable to sleep well, my stomach is pretty riotous,
I have more faith because I did this once, and every few months, at the three months, six months, and twelve month stage, I was able to see a real change in my head space.
The best was at twelve months, discovering that I could really really relax, like there was a place in my mind that was so very quiet and peaceful.
The thought that help me fight the temptation was remembering how many times I'd smoke pot and immediately feel disappoiinted that I was stoned again.
Hi All
I was so glad to stumble on this post, i've been trawling the internet for some good advice that doesn't just revolve around a ten step about going for a walk or reading a book if you are feeling the craving...who in real life actually can do that so easily?
This was right down to the business. I guess i have realised after reading a lot from smokers that pot seems to be one of those things that slowly creeps up on you and suddenly it's been years and going a day without it seems absurd. It most certainly is a habit that gets generated out of a want for the drug rather than a need or chemical craving.
I started smoking pot in high school it was a rare but fun occasion that gelled better with me that the typical boozing most of my peers went through into the university years. See i have a lot of alcoholics in my family but personally i overdid it in high school and the thought of feeling that out of control of my body panics me more than anything. Pot became an easy social crutch that i could rely on and know i could have a good (inhibriated) time with my friends without the hangover or saying things i'd rather not.
Gradually through a theatre course at uni everyone around me was smoking cigarettes and seeing as i was already acustomed to the activity that addiction also began. These days i smoke spliffs, the habit is no longer the high i get out of pot but the making and rolling ...the routine of coming home and having one on the deck after work.
It's been about 4 or 5 years now and i know it has significantly impact my social skills. I had a few traumatic events over the past few years, a very painful breakup and a best friends suicide. Pot the became even more of a crutch to stop myself from panicing or feeling too much of anything, i got addicted to feeling numb and i have never really gotten out of it. I struggled with depression in the years following.I realise now these events, although didn't cause my addiction, fuelled my need to continue to keep something in my life regular. Now a-days i see myself being vulnerable to panic attacks at the thought of not having it.
I feel tremendously disappointed in myself. I want to travel the world soon and I don't want my trip to be ruined by my psychological addiction to this thing. I need to figure out a new comfort, or how to fill this whole that pot has filled my life with. I don't know what i'm scared of really.
I definitely call myself an artist and i have a million and one ideas floating around my brain but i have since lost my confidence in my ability to act on these ideas. I think pot at first stimulated that part of my brain but now almost the opposite has happened. Anyway, i will take these wise words. I think cutting down and monitoring closely how you do that is a really good first step and this is something I will do after reading this, I am likely to experience some anxiety but for others out there, there are natural alternative medicines to help you through this tough time. If you are like me and suffer from anxiety, instead of going to your doc and asking for something like valium, go to your local health store and see if you can source some Valarian root. It's similar in the way that is calms any nerves down and I have used this in the past when i have felt an attack coming on. You just need a few drops in some water but i would recommend you talk to sales staff about dosage depending on what they supply.
Please everyone post with how you are going, i think this could be a great support post-y page!
Kia Kaha
T-J
I was so glad to stumble on this post, i've been trawling the internet for some good advice that doesn't just revolve around a ten step about going for a walk or reading a book if you are feeling the craving...who in real life actually can do that so easily?
This was right down to the business. I guess i have realised after reading a lot from smokers that pot seems to be one of those things that slowly creeps up on you and suddenly it's been years and going a day without it seems absurd. It most certainly is a habit that gets generated out of a want for the drug rather than a need or chemical craving.
I started smoking pot in high school it was a rare but fun occasion that gelled better with me that the typical boozing most of my peers went through into the university years. See i have a lot of alcoholics in my family but personally i overdid it in high school and the thought of feeling that out of control of my body panics me more than anything. Pot became an easy social crutch that i could rely on and know i could have a good (inhibriated) time with my friends without the hangover or saying things i'd rather not.
Gradually through a theatre course at uni everyone around me was smoking cigarettes and seeing as i was already acustomed to the activity that addiction also began. These days i smoke spliffs, the habit is no longer the high i get out of pot but the making and rolling ...the routine of coming home and having one on the deck after work.
It's been about 4 or 5 years now and i know it has significantly impact my social skills. I had a few traumatic events over the past few years, a very painful breakup and a best friends suicide. Pot the became even more of a crutch to stop myself from panicing or feeling too much of anything, i got addicted to feeling numb and i have never really gotten out of it. I struggled with depression in the years following.I realise now these events, although didn't cause my addiction, fuelled my need to continue to keep something in my life regular. Now a-days i see myself being vulnerable to panic attacks at the thought of not having it.
I feel tremendously disappointed in myself. I want to travel the world soon and I don't want my trip to be ruined by my psychological addiction to this thing. I need to figure out a new comfort, or how to fill this whole that pot has filled my life with. I don't know what i'm scared of really.
I definitely call myself an artist and i have a million and one ideas floating around my brain but i have since lost my confidence in my ability to act on these ideas. I think pot at first stimulated that part of my brain but now almost the opposite has happened. Anyway, i will take these wise words. I think cutting down and monitoring closely how you do that is a really good first step and this is something I will do after reading this, I am likely to experience some anxiety but for others out there, there are natural alternative medicines to help you through this tough time. If you are like me and suffer from anxiety, instead of going to your doc and asking for something like valium, go to your local health store and see if you can source some Valarian root. It's similar in the way that is calms any nerves down and I have used this in the past when i have felt an attack coming on. You just need a few drops in some water but i would recommend you talk to sales staff about dosage depending on what they supply.
Please everyone post with how you are going, i think this could be a great support post-y page!
Kia Kaha
T-J
I am a reality tv editor, being in a creative field I am obviously surrounded by marijuana and other drugs. I have been smoking marijuana since I was 18, and I am now 26. (I do no smoke ciggs or consume much alcohol) I have a mmj medical prescription so I am legally prescribed, but I know deep down the amount I consume is just too much. Between my boyfriend and I we go through 1 oz. a week, meaning we smoke 1/2oz each every 5-7days.
There is really a big misconception and a lot of "stereo-typing" when it comes to why people use MaryJ. The comments that it's more just to "get high" couldn't be farther from the truth for long-term users. (for me it's like my morning coffee, gives me a zing, gets me out of bed and to work on time with a smile on my face, on days I'd sooner call-off otherwise.) I have had comments at my work when people hear I smoke heavily of shock because no one has a clue I am "high"...but that's because I don't smoke to get blasted and laze on the couch I use to function.
How it starts - Sure like anything else it starts off with curiosity and the desire to have a good time/escape life's woes, but when people are heavily medicating with anything it's because of deeper issues wether it's stress, pain, whatever. , The mental and emotional addiction is very real and as time goes on it becomes increasingly more difficult to feel "ok" without the use of MJ.
I don't want to get xanax or a prescription drug, replacing one bad habit with another is not the answer (even for a small amount of time) when those drugs CAN become physically addictive. (I grew up with a mom that has bi-polar disorder and manic depression and honestly i do believe Marijuana is the lesser of the evils when it comes down to manufactured medications).
I have attempted to stop smoking several times, the longest being a 2month hiatus which was done cold turkey back in 2006. I enjoyed it maybe occasionally, but overall I found myself just upset and wanting to drink or do something else. If I'm just replacing one bad thing with another that's worse, why even quit at all? However I would obviously love in a perfect world to be this happy healthy go-getter that is clean and loves to exercise and embrace life. The idea kinda makes me laugh inside right now though, as I just don't think I am wired that way.
Anyways these are just my thoughts and ramblings, thanks to everyone who shared theirs.
There is really a big misconception and a lot of "stereo-typing" when it comes to why people use MaryJ. The comments that it's more just to "get high" couldn't be farther from the truth for long-term users. (for me it's like my morning coffee, gives me a zing, gets me out of bed and to work on time with a smile on my face, on days I'd sooner call-off otherwise.) I have had comments at my work when people hear I smoke heavily of shock because no one has a clue I am "high"...but that's because I don't smoke to get blasted and laze on the couch I use to function.
How it starts - Sure like anything else it starts off with curiosity and the desire to have a good time/escape life's woes, but when people are heavily medicating with anything it's because of deeper issues wether it's stress, pain, whatever. , The mental and emotional addiction is very real and as time goes on it becomes increasingly more difficult to feel "ok" without the use of MJ.
I don't want to get xanax or a prescription drug, replacing one bad habit with another is not the answer (even for a small amount of time) when those drugs CAN become physically addictive. (I grew up with a mom that has bi-polar disorder and manic depression and honestly i do believe Marijuana is the lesser of the evils when it comes down to manufactured medications).
I have attempted to stop smoking several times, the longest being a 2month hiatus which was done cold turkey back in 2006. I enjoyed it maybe occasionally, but overall I found myself just upset and wanting to drink or do something else. If I'm just replacing one bad thing with another that's worse, why even quit at all? However I would obviously love in a perfect world to be this happy healthy go-getter that is clean and loves to exercise and embrace life. The idea kinda makes me laugh inside right now though, as I just don't think I am wired that way.
Anyways these are just my thoughts and ramblings, thanks to everyone who shared theirs.
hi everyone, im now 23 years old and ive been stoned for the past ten years,im a heavy smoker 1to 2 grams of skunk a day.
now ive stopped smoking for almost three weeks, it is very hard. my emotions are hitting me so hard, ive acctualy never known how it is to not be stoned exept when i was a child. ive noticed that i dont have words for alot of things i want to say, and feel.
im now in austrailia on holliday, but i live in amsterdam. im going back home in 5 days. AMSTERDAM!!
i know i must be really strong not to fall back into my old habit. but i cant. cuz then the past couple of weeks would all have been for nothing. I wish power for anyone that wants to or is trying to stop.
and im really happy for sites like these, they give me strength and let me know im not the only one,
peace
now ive stopped smoking for almost three weeks, it is very hard. my emotions are hitting me so hard, ive acctualy never known how it is to not be stoned exept when i was a child. ive noticed that i dont have words for alot of things i want to say, and feel.
im now in austrailia on holliday, but i live in amsterdam. im going back home in 5 days. AMSTERDAM!!
i know i must be really strong not to fall back into my old habit. but i cant. cuz then the past couple of weeks would all have been for nothing. I wish power for anyone that wants to or is trying to stop.
and im really happy for sites like these, they give me strength and let me know im not the only one,
peace