First let me say that reading everyones posts helped me maintain my sanity for a couple hours. Just another thing to do to keep my mind busy. I have been hooked on Vics, percs, any pain pills made me feel like superman and could do anything on those. I ran out and a friend was like try this orange pill same thing as pain pills but you wont go through the withdrawals and it gives you energy. YEAH RIGHT. Worst mistake of my life. I have been buying subs off the streets for over 5 years. Seems like everyone I know is taking them. I ran out after 5 years around christmas time and let me tell you the horror started fast. I think its about day 6 or 7 for me and just like everyone else my shins are trying to crawl out of my skin. I stretch and it seems like it gets a little better. I cry all the time about stupid little things like commercials yeah and I consider myself a tough guy but this withdrawal turns you into a little crying baby. Diarrhea non stop. Can't even drink anything cause it seems like it goes straight to my a*s lol kind of detailed sorry. Eating is forced you gotta eat and eat 3 times a day I know its hard but you have to force yourself. My kidneys hurt non stop I think its from the lack of water and sleep. Your body heals itself while you sleep but dont get me started on not sleeping. Feel like bouncing my head off the walls when I lay down to TRY to fall asleep. I see why people kill themselves while going through this c**p I have thought about it also but not gonna go out like that. I took a bath this morning and let me tell you I thought it was the greatest thing ever felt so relaxed. Cant stop moving people probably think I am a meth head but I just can't get comfortable. I have told no one about this besides you guys on here. I think if I had someone who I could talk to or a place to go and talk about what I am going through it would help a lot.
I must say though I feel way better this morning as good as you can feel with about 3 to 4 hours combined sleep. I sleep for a half hour wake up for an hour and sleep for another half hour it really sucks. That is the worst of it though is not sleeping for me. I know I would get better if I could get a full nights sleep but it seems like I have another week of that. I think I should take sleeping pills but dont know if its a good idea any advice on that. I take Immodium AD for the diahhrea and it helps, Take advil for the aches and pains and that helps also feel tired though most of the day til I get ready to try to fall asleep seems like I get lots of energy around 5pm. WEll I want to say thanks for the hope and advice from everyone. I hope it is all down hill from here. Lets hope anyways. I think we should all start a Anti-Suboxen campaign cause that stuff is poison no matter how you look at it. Thanks Pray to god if it helps you get through another hour.