The pain never goes away

I'm 21 an had my 1st abortion at the age of 16 I wanted the baby with my boyfriend an was happy when I found out my mum found out she was so strict an pushy an made me get rid of my child she brain washed me into thinking I was making the right choise I ur young go to college so I listened to her I got caught again a year an a half later with my second boyfriend but thought it wouldn't last I didn't love him like I thought I would so I got rid of his baby I stayed with that second boyfriend 5 years after that an the relationship was never the same after I killed his child he could never forgive me by the time I was ready to have his baby he left me for someone else everyday I think about my little angels an regret what I did so much the morel to this story is dont let anyone talk u into getting one its your choise but if u are an emotional person u will suffer years to cum it's a horrible life changing thing make sure u think for a while b4 you choose if I could go back my two baby's would b here with me in my arms right now xxx