2 years ago i had an abortion when i was 20 i was 6 weeks and was basically homeless at the time, the father didnt want any part in it and wasnt going to help my mom was living far from me and my dad was evil about the whole situation and wouldnt let me stay there pregnant. I felt all alone no job barely a place to stay and no support, i really didnt want to go through with it but my aunt told me it would probably br best in my situation so i went and had it and cried the whole way back. This is the worst pain EVER felt, i feel so guilty and have attempted suicide before i get vey depressed and am on prozac now to cope. When i see a baby around the age mine would be i get sad thinking about my baby:((( i blame myself alot for what i did, i pray to God for forgiveness and repent also. I love babies and children and my now fiance and i cant wait to be a mom/dad and do it the right way but it seems God is punishing me for my actions and that i ruined my chance for good:((( just dont know what to do. I love my baby i never got to meet and i hope i can be myself again one day