Trying too decide if I need a shrink or something. I am 48 years old I got married In Aug. Up until we got married I had never had sex. Watched P**n about it. We had sex for the first time when we got married but I am having a hard time getting going. To Abstain from sex I have only looked at sex as something you do for appropriation of a child not something you do for fun. Being an over the road truck driver I am gone for a month at a time. And for me too have sex when I get home I have go the entire month with out Masturbating To be able to have sex when I get home as we want too have a child. But after that first time I can't get in the mood again the rest of the time I am home. I keep thinking about how icky and messy sex is. I am not sure how to talk too her about this she knows something isn't right I don't know what too do.