I smoked some weed one time and had a major panic attack the first one of my life thought i was going to have a heart attack and die my heart beating out of my chest so fast and hard, legs shaking uncontrollably my hands and then arms went completely numb, had to call my brother to take me to the ER. But by the time he got there the panic had passed mostly thank god.
Since then every single time i smoke weed even a little bit I have major anxiety and I pace around like a madman for 40 minutes lifting arm weights i am so anxious and restless, sometimes get pain in my chest and my legs shake and feel a bit like i cant breathe, after about 40 minutes it passes tho and i feel great. I have my appetite back, my libido back, and i feel relaxed and can sleep deeply oh how i miss that type of sleep it feels so good.
I had to quit because of the panic but the problem is now I feel severe depression and mid level anxiety all the time I realize that smoking weed was my favorite thing to do in life and I feel like now I cant enjoy anything I used to and I cant relax and enjoy anything cant watch tv or play games anymore i am anxious always and cant focus on external things I cant seem to ever get relaxed enough to get quality sleep and I have also completely lost my appetite but I force myself to eat because when i dont anxiety gets worse from the low blood sugar but food does not taste good
also i have resorted to drinking in the morning. i feel very disturbed when i wake up and want to smoke weed so bad but i fear the panic so much
with no weed to relieve my stress i smoke ALOT of cigarrettes too and i have been wheezing lately because of this also coughing up speckled tar mucus. Alot of times I feel like i am not breathing correctly maybe because anxiety or maybe from smoking it is a feeling like I am breathing but no oxygen is getting absorbed. lots of deep breaths and sighs. exercise seems to help alot with this but the feeling comes back about 30 minutes after.
ive also had issues with my digestion since quitting weed it is terribly upset always makes gassy noises all the time and i feel malaise
its odd the panic after smoking weed always happens the first time in the day that i smoke it if i smoke it again after that i usually am fine
the massive adrenaline release after smoking weed worries me greatly like there maybe something wrong with my adrenal glands or heart or lungs
it seems crazy to me now that people smoke weed in public there is no way i could do that now even smoking with my friends which i used to do all the time is pretty much out of the question now but i am around them and they are smoking weed constantly and i smell it it smells SO good my brain is telling me i want to smoke it so bad but the fear of panic holds me back
im seriously thinking of smoking weed and just suffering through the panic so i can feel somewhat good later because without it I do not ever feel good and I feel like life sucks. The truth is I'm not sure I want to live without weed. but the panic is undescribable terror i cant think of anything worse. sometimes it is not so bad tho well its always bad but sometimes worse than others. now i am of course filled with apprehension of the panic every time i smoke weed and that cannot be helping.
also now every time i drink and then smoke weed my heart beats out of my chest and it is beating so hard it actually pushes air out of my throat its like a mini burp with every beat and the beats are so forceful and LOUD and FAST i am SURE my heart will fail at any moment and i will die.
I been a 16 year smoker and my whole life revolved around weed I sold it and that is how I made all my friends and I used to smoke a ton of it all the time. I remember when I would run out and me and my friends would finally find a bag and how happy and exited I would be god I miss that
i havent been able to hold a job now for a couple years, before the weed used to relax me and keep me even-keeled and i was able to focus on my job, but now i am pretty much an emotional wreck all the time and i cant interact with the public or co-workers in that state. now i get SSI because i cant work and i have alot of money but no amount of money can help me it seems...
im at the point now where im really paranoid about my breathing and i'm thinking that may have alot to do with my panic i breathe shallow and fast ive read some articles about overbreathing and how it causes anxiety which causes more rapid breathing which causes more anxiety and on and on well maybe im just paranoid or maybe not. all i know is exercise makes me breathe correctly for a while and that lessens my anxiety. Im going to stop smoking cigarettes as well although i am skeptical that will help much as its probably more anxiety and i have quit before and not much changed exept i had MORE anxiety. but im so worried about my breathing now that i feel like i have to quit cigarrettes to eliminate the possibility it could be messing up my breathing. plus as i said before i cough up stuff and starting to wheeze
its pretty obvious all i do is worry. but give me some weed and a while later my worry will be gone i will feel good and healthy and breathing perfectly. a while after smoking weed my family and friends always tell me they see i big difference in me like i am much happier and much nicer to everyone.
this has tied my soul in a knot, all i want is to feel good and happy sometimes... otherwise what is the point in living
i want to be able to smoke weed again without the panic
thank you for taking the time to read my long assed post haha.... any advice please
You said any advice, so...
I believe that God created us to need and want him. If we were created this way then anything we try to replace this need with with only cause problems. My advice is to turn to God every time you have a need, instead of chosing something that is unhealthy. You wouldn't put something other then gas in your car to make it run, would you? May God bless you and keep you.
as far as you saying that weed is unheathy i totally disagree after smoking i feel 1000 percent more heathly physically and mentally and spiritually.
i realize i have bad anxiety issues and i have been sober for months and it does not improve it gets worse usually. my doctor has put me on valium which helps but not nearly as much as weed and i think it makes my depression worse at times and i realize i am becoming dependent on it and it is creating bad withdrawl symptoms when i dont take it or run out
i realize i am just trading one drug for others in order to deal with my anxiety and depression and i feel like this is what everyone does so worshipping god is your drug of choice certainly more healthy than most other drugs
problem is these drugs i am substituting for weed (alcohol, valium) are taking me to a dark place i can tell, i feel like i am gonna die if i continue down this road. if i could just smoke weed again i could feel so much better and healthier and it is so much more effective, and i could enjoy my life
i often experience epiphanies on weed and these help me so much with my life. i often wonder if others who dont smoke weed ever truly have any joy or peacefulness in their life or if life just a long suffering chore for them, just a rat race with the end result being death everything i have seen points to that being true and it fills me with sadness
there are good things in life which i guess others live for there is love, the natural high you get from exercise, games and music, and sunlight, freinds, rivers and mountains... but i feel so incredibly stressed out all the time i cant enjoy these things and it makes me not want to live
i just go on and on dont i i apologise but these things are disturbing me greatly and i think maybe its therapeutic for me to type these things down but maybe i should just keep it to myself
I had similiar experiences after smoking weed for several years. I stopped smoking it regularely mainly because I didn't have extra cash and I noticed that I was angry/stressed alot and felt better when I smoked weed. Then I started to get paranoid when I smoked weed, it wasn't helping the stress anymore, and I quit. After time went by I started having panic attacks that had nothing to do with smoking weed and that freaked me out. I understand what you are saying when you wonder if people who don't smoke weed accually enjoy life etc. There is no easy answer for you, but I can tell you what has worked for me. I started to read the Bible. Then I decided that I couldn't live like I was living anymore. I prayed to Jesus that He would help me like He has helped so many other people. I was encouraged to seek counselling to discover the roots of the pain in my life that caused me to smoke weed, and drink. I learned that I had been using weed to medicate myself because I was unhappy. (I am giving you the simple version) I have learned new ways to deal with pain in my life now and I can tell you the truth, that I feel joy and hope now. I enjoy my family, I have good friends, a job I enjoy and best of all I enjoy peace of mind :) so the person who originally offerred you advice is on the right track. Try relaxation techniques for anxiety and may the God who gave me back my life be your source of healing as well.
Peace.