Can't you just take anti-inflammatory's? Otherwise you're allowing the addiction to take over. The stomach pains and diarrhoea is most likely the cause of the withdrawals. The doctor shouldn't have gave you co-codomol to help with the pain. Did you tell the doctor that you where coming off them? Or did you say to him/her you had muscle problems? Then they would give you the painkillers. Trust me I e been where you are and made up any excuse to get them. It's a nightmare.
Lol I asked him before I went up if it was withdrawal and he said xx I've taken the mild side of co codomol instead of the 30 and to be honest I didn't want to take them so I sure as he'll won't be back to full amount I don't want them any more xxx
Hi Folks,
Horrible sleep last night. That was even after taking 2 x 8/500mg CC. Fell asleep around 1.30am and woke up at 5am - tossed and turned for the next hour and just got up. Feeling ok this morning, i know that as the day goes on, this will likely change. Still have some 8/500mg left over, decided im going to use these for the next couple of nights to attempt to help with the sleeping - even as a placebo. Im hopeful that after a couple of nights, my addiction levels will be so low, i can stop them altogether. Yesterday was my first full day off the 30/500 in 4 years. Boy was it hard. I could've ripped my skin off and tore myself limb from limb. Feeling itchy today, headaches not so bad but body still stiff and sore.
Bit by bit, getting there
Horrible sleep last night. That was even after taking 2 x 8/500mg CC. Fell asleep around 1.30am and woke up at 5am - tossed and turned for the next hour and just got up. Feeling ok this morning, i know that as the day goes on, this will likely change. Still have some 8/500mg left over, decided im going to use these for the next couple of nights to attempt to help with the sleeping - even as a placebo. Im hopeful that after a couple of nights, my addiction levels will be so low, i can stop them altogether. Yesterday was my first full day off the 30/500 in 4 years. Boy was it hard. I could've ripped my skin off and tore myself limb from limb. Feeling itchy today, headaches not so bad but body still stiff and sore.
Bit by bit, getting there
We'll done swest hang in ther!!! I'm still the same with sleepin issues but for sum strange reason I just don't feel tired in day!!!
Quick update. Never managed to get kalms (totally forgot). Had about 2 hours sleep and now I want to claw my skin off. Really really agitated. Had 2 X 8/500 before bed again, but just not doing anything. I'm going to go outside for a cigarette and hopefully it calms me down again and I can get another couple of hours sleep.
So that's me on my 5th day now. No cocodamol last night, had some propanadol due to anxeity (split with partner last week) had the best sleep since Tuesday. Stomachs a bit worse than yesterday, but id say day 3 was the worst - the night prior was the night on 1000 screams.
I reckon i managed more hours sleep last night than the previous 3 nights combined. Feeling positive today!
I reckon i managed more hours sleep last night than the previous 3 nights combined. Feeling positive today!
After a history of childhood abuse sexual mental physical which started when I was 7 ending when I 13ish for years I had this boxed up and put away nicely.
In 1995 I had a near death accident since then I have been on 2 co-codamol & 1 ibuprofen 400mg 4-6 times a day for 21yrs( and was worried that the head aches were addiction induced. Just over two weeks ago I took up the didgeridoo when it sound nice to me I smile when it comes out like a wet fart I laugh with joy upside is only on one dose before bed and soon that be gone too! downside of the 95 accident is that I now have PTSD my boxed full of nasty stuff has become dented making it now COMPLEX PTSD and the nasty stuff coming out, quite suddenly at times so now on anti depressants mirtazapine45mgClomnazepam 2mg, Vensir 150mg and lots of therapy, one to one and group. I understand my mental problems have accrued over the years like interest so it'll be a long journey I have a supportive wife and family and now a therapist who I can relate to and trust in both one to one and group sessions. so its an uphill journey of little steps but I am more-ish hopeful
In 1995 I had a near death accident since then I have been on 2 co-codamol & 1 ibuprofen 400mg 4-6 times a day for 21yrs( and was worried that the head aches were addiction induced. Just over two weeks ago I took up the didgeridoo when it sound nice to me I smile when it comes out like a wet fart I laugh with joy upside is only on one dose before bed and soon that be gone too! downside of the 95 accident is that I now have PTSD my boxed full of nasty stuff has become dented making it now COMPLEX PTSD and the nasty stuff coming out, quite suddenly at times so now on anti depressants mirtazapine45mgClomnazepam 2mg, Vensir 150mg and lots of therapy, one to one and group. I understand my mental problems have accrued over the years like interest so it'll be a long journey I have a supportive wife and family and now a therapist who I can relate to and trust in both one to one and group sessions. so its an uphill journey of little steps but I am more-ish hopeful
Awww your story touches my heart you clearly are a very strong oerso because your here telling the story xx god bless x xxx luv and hugs xx
So, I am now on day free of complete codeine free. I had been taking 8/500 at night to help me sleep.
Since stopping that, sleeping has been terrible, literally an hour and a half then I'm up all night.
I have been running to the toilet so much and now had blood when i wipe. It is sore but i can feel myself feeling better today. No sweats, stomach cramps not as bad and not at the toilet as much. I am hoping that i am through the worst of it now.
Since stopping that, sleeping has been terrible, literally an hour and a half then I'm up all night.
I have been running to the toilet so much and now had blood when i wipe. It is sore but i can feel myself feeling better today. No sweats, stomach cramps not as bad and not at the toilet as much. I am hoping that i am through the worst of it now.
Well, that has been me completely off the codeine for over a week now. Body is starting to go back to normal. Sleep is still a bit of an issue, but getting better. It was hard but anyone attempting to do it - know that it can be done. It will be hard for the first few days, but then you will see improvements every day.
My moods can be up and down, but that could be due to the fact of my break-up too. Good luck everyone!
My moods can be up and down, but that could be due to the fact of my break-up too. Good luck everyone!
Hi all, here is my story;
3.5 years ago, I realised I could buy tramadol online and did so from February 2013 to July 2014. Overall, I bought 1,800 tablets during this time. It was roughly 100 a month which I would take 3 times a week. During this time, I also started using kratom on my days without tramadol. Once tramadol was reclassified, I moved to just kratom and the occasional codeine extraction.
However, in January 2015, I also started buying dihydrocodeine and have been buying it ever since, on average, taking around 150 30mg pills a month (usually 15 tabs every 3 days). Again using Kratom on my off days.
In march, I decided to stop everything and go cold turkey but the kratom withdrawals were so severe, I only managed 1 day and relented.
Since March, I have been buying dihydrocodiene every three weeks, using it all in about 10 days and then spending the remaining 11 days using OTC. meds, even extracting at work.
I feel utterly ashamed of myself. I was using tramadol during the birth of my first son (June 2013), OTC meds and kratom on my wedding day (September 2014) and dhc on the birth of my second son (August 2016).
We went away for 3 weeks last year and it was hell. I tried to space out my useage but had 4 days of being really ill and could wait to get home again to use.
Here is my recent usage
Last Monday (10th oct) - 300mg dhc
Tuesday - 300mg dhc
Wednesday - 180mg dhc and 160mg codeine
Thursday - 240mg codeine
Friday - 240 mg codeine
Saturday - 180mg tramadol
Sunday - 180mg tramadol
Monday - 80mg dhc and 320mg codeine
I have been clean since.
I can't tell my wife. 7 years ago, I started taking OTC meds, 72 X 200/12.8 ibuprofen/codeine tables for 2 months and coming off it screwed me big time and my wife said she'd leave me if I ever did it again.
I can't go to the doctors as I'm worried they'll report me to social services.
What can I proactively do to stay clean and how long will it take?
I'm scared and sad, crying all the time. I just want to be a good dad and a good husband.
Here is my use;
1,800 tramadol between February 2013 and July 2014
Kratom September 2013 - March 2016
3,300 dhc Jan 2015 - October 2016
Plus £100s of OTC meds
Here is my diary
Day 2
Restless legs and arms are dreadful on day 2 - much worse than day 1 - hoping this will soon subside
Physically, feel OK, bit of loose poo and general fatigue but that won't defeat me kicking this
Going to try and go through the day without the Valium until this evening but don't think I'll manage
I want to be a good dad and husband. My anxiety is almost entirely related to my drug use. This is no life. I have such an incredible life with my family and I'm at risk of throwing it away with them leaving me or through killing myself. I can do this. I WILL do this.
Be strong
Day 3
Good nights sleep last night, had night nurse at about 10 and went to bed straight away, fell asleep sometime around 11. Woke at 1 and panicked that I would stay away but must have gone back pretty quickly. Same thing happened at 3 and 5 and I was finally awake at 7.
Had a normal poo this morning, was soft but not runny, had some cramps yesterday evening but not too bad.
The absolute worst is the restlessness in my arms and legs, thought it was getting better yesterday but still bad today so no luck there. If it wasn't for the legs, this would be easy.
Feel very fatigued and low energy but dosed up massively on berocca, floradix, h-5tp, l-theanine, l-tyrosine ibuprofen and my anti-biotic.
Was able to spend 20 mins with my wife and kids and generally feel pretty content with how things are going. Legs still need to be moved constantly but I'm less worried about that as I feel it will soon pass.
Really, just want to get myself back to feeling normal without drugs inside me and know everyday will be better than the last from here on our.
Made a hard but right decision yesterday and asked my friend not to come over with tramadol. I'm worried it will start the withdrawal again or make me want to go and get something. I need a week of nothing in my system and I hope I'll feel back to my old self.
Going to shower soon and go for a walk.
Went for a walk and got loads of herbal pills. Feel pretty rough. RLS is the real killer, seems to be at its peak. Hoping today is the worst day and things start to get better from tomorrow. Also feel really cold in my joints. Can't concentrate on much. Really thought things were looking up and it was just the tiredness which I can deal with. The RLS is a killer.
I will 100% stick with this as I never want to go through this again. Even if it takes me 6 months to feel normal, I will as I want a life again and not to panic when leaving the house that I need drugs or will crash.
3.5 years ago, I realised I could buy tramadol online and did so from February 2013 to July 2014. Overall, I bought 1,800 tablets during this time. It was roughly 100 a month which I would take 3 times a week. During this time, I also started using kratom on my days without tramadol. Once tramadol was reclassified, I moved to just kratom and the occasional codeine extraction.
However, in January 2015, I also started buying dihydrocodeine and have been buying it ever since, on average, taking around 150 30mg pills a month (usually 15 tabs every 3 days). Again using Kratom on my off days.
In march, I decided to stop everything and go cold turkey but the kratom withdrawals were so severe, I only managed 1 day and relented.
Since March, I have been buying dihydrocodiene every three weeks, using it all in about 10 days and then spending the remaining 11 days using OTC. meds, even extracting at work.
I feel utterly ashamed of myself. I was using tramadol during the birth of my first son (June 2013), OTC meds and kratom on my wedding day (September 2014) and dhc on the birth of my second son (August 2016).
We went away for 3 weeks last year and it was hell. I tried to space out my useage but had 4 days of being really ill and could wait to get home again to use.
Here is my recent usage
Last Monday (10th oct) - 300mg dhc
Tuesday - 300mg dhc
Wednesday - 180mg dhc and 160mg codeine
Thursday - 240mg codeine
Friday - 240 mg codeine
Saturday - 180mg tramadol
Sunday - 180mg tramadol
Monday - 80mg dhc and 320mg codeine
I have been clean since.
I can't tell my wife. 7 years ago, I started taking OTC meds, 72 X 200/12.8 ibuprofen/codeine tables for 2 months and coming off it screwed me big time and my wife said she'd leave me if I ever did it again.
I can't go to the doctors as I'm worried they'll report me to social services.
What can I proactively do to stay clean and how long will it take?
I'm scared and sad, crying all the time. I just want to be a good dad and a good husband.
Here is my use;
1,800 tramadol between February 2013 and July 2014
Kratom September 2013 - March 2016
3,300 dhc Jan 2015 - October 2016
Plus £100s of OTC meds
Here is my diary
Day 2
Restless legs and arms are dreadful on day 2 - much worse than day 1 - hoping this will soon subside
Physically, feel OK, bit of loose poo and general fatigue but that won't defeat me kicking this
Going to try and go through the day without the Valium until this evening but don't think I'll manage
I want to be a good dad and husband. My anxiety is almost entirely related to my drug use. This is no life. I have such an incredible life with my family and I'm at risk of throwing it away with them leaving me or through killing myself. I can do this. I WILL do this.
Be strong
Day 3
Good nights sleep last night, had night nurse at about 10 and went to bed straight away, fell asleep sometime around 11. Woke at 1 and panicked that I would stay away but must have gone back pretty quickly. Same thing happened at 3 and 5 and I was finally awake at 7.
Had a normal poo this morning, was soft but not runny, had some cramps yesterday evening but not too bad.
The absolute worst is the restlessness in my arms and legs, thought it was getting better yesterday but still bad today so no luck there. If it wasn't for the legs, this would be easy.
Feel very fatigued and low energy but dosed up massively on berocca, floradix, h-5tp, l-theanine, l-tyrosine ibuprofen and my anti-biotic.
Was able to spend 20 mins with my wife and kids and generally feel pretty content with how things are going. Legs still need to be moved constantly but I'm less worried about that as I feel it will soon pass.
Really, just want to get myself back to feeling normal without drugs inside me and know everyday will be better than the last from here on our.
Made a hard but right decision yesterday and asked my friend not to come over with tramadol. I'm worried it will start the withdrawal again or make me want to go and get something. I need a week of nothing in my system and I hope I'll feel back to my old self.
Going to shower soon and go for a walk.
Went for a walk and got loads of herbal pills. Feel pretty rough. RLS is the real killer, seems to be at its peak. Hoping today is the worst day and things start to get better from tomorrow. Also feel really cold in my joints. Can't concentrate on much. Really thought things were looking up and it was just the tiredness which I can deal with. The RLS is a killer.
I will 100% stick with this as I never want to go through this again. Even if it takes me 6 months to feel normal, I will as I want a life again and not to panic when leaving the house that I need drugs or will crash.
I'm just going to keep replying to my posts as it feels good to talk, even if it's simply just shouting into the wind. Hopefully someone will read this and it will help. I hope so
So, after a bad few hours where I felt like my legs muscles were trying to detach from my bones, my chest felt very right and I thought I would pass out, I had a really hot bath and read a bit of an amazing book (his bloody project). When I got out my wife and two kids were back and we sat and watched a film and the RLS seemed to get better. It's now coming in waves, will be bad for 20 minutes and then fine for another 20. It's manageable. Maybe it will get worse, I don't know, but I know I can handle it.
I'm feeling really positive for pretty much the first time and know that this life is behind me.
I've read people talk of boredom and cravings and this worries me. I've been so used, for 3.5 years, to feeling high in the evening that it didn't matter what I did, I'd get the same feeling no matter what it was but I am so looking forward to going out with my kids and enjoying their company. I'd either have to take pills to go out with them or not take them and feel like death and not enjoy it.
The first day I can take them out and not feel I need drugs and just enjoy their company will make me cry for joy. The feeling of being able to go on holiday and not worry about if I have enough drugs. Just knowing I'll enjoy the company of my wife and kids fills my heart with such happiness I'm so determined to kick this.
I've been a functioning drug addict for 3.5 years. My life will soon be mine again.
If you're reading this on day 1, 2, 3 or more, please keep going. we can do this. I have nobody to share my pain with but these words on the page. Keep a diary, write what you can and be kind to yourself.
Final thought before my next update, I looked in the mirror after my bath and. Where I have seen a fool for so long, someone who has angered and annoyed me, I saw a man who wants to be a better husband and father. The man I want to be. The man I will be.
So, after a bad few hours where I felt like my legs muscles were trying to detach from my bones, my chest felt very right and I thought I would pass out, I had a really hot bath and read a bit of an amazing book (his bloody project). When I got out my wife and two kids were back and we sat and watched a film and the RLS seemed to get better. It's now coming in waves, will be bad for 20 minutes and then fine for another 20. It's manageable. Maybe it will get worse, I don't know, but I know I can handle it.
I'm feeling really positive for pretty much the first time and know that this life is behind me.
I've read people talk of boredom and cravings and this worries me. I've been so used, for 3.5 years, to feeling high in the evening that it didn't matter what I did, I'd get the same feeling no matter what it was but I am so looking forward to going out with my kids and enjoying their company. I'd either have to take pills to go out with them or not take them and feel like death and not enjoy it.
The first day I can take them out and not feel I need drugs and just enjoy their company will make me cry for joy. The feeling of being able to go on holiday and not worry about if I have enough drugs. Just knowing I'll enjoy the company of my wife and kids fills my heart with such happiness I'm so determined to kick this.
I've been a functioning drug addict for 3.5 years. My life will soon be mine again.
If you're reading this on day 1, 2, 3 or more, please keep going. we can do this. I have nobody to share my pain with but these words on the page. Keep a diary, write what you can and be kind to yourself.
Final thought before my next update, I looked in the mirror after my bath and. Where I have seen a fool for so long, someone who has angered and annoyed me, I saw a man who wants to be a better husband and father. The man I want to be. The man I will be.
Morning of day 4, took night nurse at 9.30 and was out for the count at 10. Woke up at 2 but fell straight back asleep but have been awake since 5 feeling pretty restless and tired. My RLS is still pretty bad but practically the only symptom I now have (bar tiredness). Am about to dose up on vitamins etc and will hopefully feel better after exercise.
Ok, wow. Realise I only shared how I was feeling an hour or so ago but the most incredible thing just happened. For the first time in 5 days, I felt well enough to take my son to nursery in the car. This is normally an ordeal for me, I put him in front of the tv on an iPad and listen to the radio desperately waiting to get home to take my drugs (wouldn't take them before driving him there). So, basically, it's been a chore. This morning, 30 minutes after I'd taken my vitamins and amino acids, we got in the car and Bowie came on. I turned it up loud and my son and I danced in our seats, me singing (screaming, really, I'm not a good singer) along and him laughing his head off. I dropped him off with a smile on my face and feel so full of energy I might burst. I don't know if to the opiate fog clearing or the concoction of vitamins I took this morning but, my lord, I feel good. I felt better in those 5 minutes than I have in 3 years.
For anyone going through this, please stick with it. It will be horrible for a few days and you'll be desperate to get a fix but it will pass. You'll worry you'll be the rare person who experiences these symptoms for months rather than days, you won't be. That's your mind trying to get your to relapse. If I can do it. So can you! If it helps, here is what I took this morning on an empty stomach when I woke up:
2ml ginseng
1 maca 500g
1reishi 250g
1 vit b complex
1 dl-phenylalanine 500g
1 tribulus terrestris 250g
Potassium 400g
5-htp 400g
Berocca
Floradix
It may seem like a lot and I'm sure not all of it is helpful but I feel so much better.
Stay strong and good luck
End of day 4 and feel great. Had lunch out with my wife, couple of beers. We told stories and laughed and played with out son. Came back knackered but feeling so positive. Figure I'll be tired and feel sh*t at work next week but I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I will NEVER purchase opiates again. Ever. Ever