heres my story 12 years ago my fiance passed away he was the love of my life.Unfurtunately he had indroduced me to xanex and herion. After he passed of a drug overdose while visiting friends in St Thomas.I didnt give a sh*t about anything and just wanted to kill myself or the horrible feeling i couldnt get rid of.Before long i hooked up with other addicts and before long i was a full blown addict /dealer.its now 12 years later i few tips tp the methodone clinic,suboxone clinic,beufinophine clinic and now back to a methodone clinic. I'm tired of this addiction!i now have a 7 year old and a fiance. i'm ready to be done with this for good.
I'm in a methodone clinic now and rapidly detoxing 2 mg a day.By the way was also taking half a 40 OP everyday that i work. Today i'm at 10 mg(no 40 op's) and feeling alweful.My knees are swelled up and body in pain.I cant stop vomiting and taking imodium for well you know.I am determined to be done with this for good this time but,i'm scared as hell and dont know if i have it in me.I'm going to start the Thomas Recipe tomorow with hopes of it helping.Does anyway else have any advice on anything else i can take or do to make this easier?I also work 10 hour tough shifts and im the only boss right now so i CANNOT take any time off!EERRR!so frustrated PLEASE HELP!
I know this was a month ago, but I wanted to respond. I was a heroin addict for 5 yrs. I got pregnant on 09 and used my whole pregnancy, my on was born at 27 weeks. I still used and used. I was prescribed suboxone, but I rarely took them only when I was broke and had no way if getting h. I sold them for heroin money. I also made runs for a bunch of different people and basically survived off other peoples addictions. my boyfriend got clean may 2012 I continued to use while he stayed sober around me. I highly doubt he would of stayed much linger, but I didn't care. that summer was bad up my habit was at its all time worse. when I was sick 3 subs would make me feel a tad better! my son has delays and needed my care , I barely was there with him. my cousin lived with my during that summer she used as well and watched him 90 percent of the time. i was miserable, depressed it was horrible. I got 2 days clean and ended up using I was so upset at myself. two days clean is very hard to do and I was starting to feel a little better. once I used I knew I would have to detox all over again. I cried in my front porch to my boyfriend about how I wanted to get clean. well for 2 weeks I partied it up having a wake up every morning and lots of dope for the day. finally end if summer I had no money and decided to detox. in woke up at 6 am sooooo sick I still remember to this day. I laid in bed miserable, sweating, sick. I took some xannax and slept the whole day even with my cousin offering me dope I still said no. I continued taking subs and smoking weed that helped a lot. it was not easy, but if you want it enough you'll stick it out. tomorrow I will have 11 months, 1 year next month. I never imagined I would be clean in my wildest dreams. I am so happy with my life I'll never give back. I rarely even smoke weed anymore just on the subs. life is so much better. now I can be the mother my son needs me to be. my family sees how much happier I am and I even started working out to lose weight and relieve stress. sorry just wanted to share my story, good luck you can do it.