I am 59 and JUST NOW REALIZING that this is most likely my problem.
Thank you for what you shared.
How are you now?
I am suffering greatly. I have no life. Depression is overwhelming.
My mother just died.
Trying to gather solutions
Bless you all courageous people
I have just read your post and I hope that you are getting help. What you say breaks my heart because I am a mother, (my daughtetr has BPD). I am not an expert so I can't say whether you have BPD. You sound like you have depression and anxiety though. Remember that it is NOT your fault that your parents don't get on. You are not a w****. I bet you are an amazingly intelligent beautiful soul with empathy and kindness. But you need to talk to someone, as someonesmom said. Talk to a school counsellor, an aunty, a parent of a friend--anybody you can trust. Or try to find a community counselling service. I don't know whether you are in the US, but here in Australia, what you tell a counsellor/therapist is confidential, unless you talk about suicide, then a school counsellor has to talk to the parents. You are not a bad person, you just need help. Be kind to yourself--talk to yourself as if you were talking to your best friend who'd just told you all her problems.
I am trying to help a loved one with BP - do you have the EFT Script ?
Have you gotten help yet for this? I know this posting was a long time ago. I am not a counselor, but someone who reads this and is sad by what was typed. I am a woman...married and suffering with someone who has this condition for 13 years now. Please email me if you need to talk without judgement.
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Good luck...
You do not have clinical depression if a potato cures it.
Sweetie...You described a lot of yourself in my 14 yr old daughter and she was recently diagnosed with this BPD...I strongly suggest you get help...let your mom and or dad have you assessed and admitted into a facility so you can get the help you need. My daughter was diagnosed with anxiety, depression and BPD. I hate how much pain you are in, i just want to wrap my arms around ya and keep you safe from others and from yourself. Yes it does sound like you have it, but i am not a doctor of any kind so i cant diagnose you. Please seek help regardless of the fear others have for you. Because the things you are feeling as far as fear really are more in your head then reality. I hope this helps you. God love you.
There is no "cure" for BPD, its a mental disorder. there are no medicines, no quick fixes. Of course it always comes back, its not herpes, its inside her thinking patterns. You can't cure it, you can only learn to control it somewhat. this is something she will live with for the rest of her life, which can be very normal if she gets the proper care. i know this because i too suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, she needs psychoactive therapy, not medications. for more information, try this website. http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder/index.shtml
Hi Muhlissa,
I too have BPD, but it is something you kind of outgrow the older you get. Have you tried taming some of those issues we have inside our minds with exercise? It gives me the seratonin that I need and keeps my head on straighter and more focused. I know it is hard, but know this you are not alone. You have got to know you wouldn't be here on this earth if it weren't for God who created all. Jesus loves you much, and you just have no idea how much. I am touched by your story. You hang in there, I too felt lost at times, but know many people love you. Three years ago, I sat in ICU with my husband who tried to end his life, and he came out of a coma and is alive today. This changed how I felt all together about hurting myself. Just saying when you feel all alone, you aren't, reach out. It is a lonely world out there, but thanks to all these type websites where we all have eachother to lift our souls up. -Sarah