I keep feeling very sad and just start crying for no reason. But now im worried because I have started seeing cars going fast and thinking 'I could just lean forward and woosh...' I've lost several people im close to this year and being 14 it is quite difficult to deal with when my family weren't as close to them... But am I slightly suicidal because I keep imagining dying...
Hello kaya,
what you're having are suicidal thoughts and this alone is a reason you talk to a professional - either your family doctor or counselor. You obviously have to deal with a lot of things, and even the puberty on its own comes with strong emotional swings caused by all the changes your body is going through. For some teens it can be hard enough to deal with just that, and given the situation you're in, it might help you to talk to someone impartial and who won't judge you. Even though you might feel your family is more distant and that they don't understand you, they still are the people closest to you and most of us underestimates how much they actually do care about us
Wish you all the best,
Nicole