I think Bambi has been gone nearly 10 years.
I don't know any of you guys and only you can answer this, but for any of the people looking at this is it possible you're asexual or on the Asexual spectrum. Asexuality is someone who experiences little to no sexual attraction. The few Asexual people I have met have mentioned feeling like they were broken before just understanding thy they were different.
Asexuality isn't finite and is different for everyone. It may look like being grossed by the act if sex, being unable to find your self sexually stimulated, or being generally disinterested in sex. (it's different for everyone). One other common lable on the asexual spectrum is demisexual. Demisexual is experiencing little to no sexual attraction without an emotional connection formed first. One way this can look is seeing strangers doing only turns you on a little, but thinking about someone you have a crush on turns you on a lot. Another is normal porn not turning you on, but a sex scene with a character you're invested in does. (but it's different for everyone)
There are also corresponding demiromantic and aromatic for the romantic relationship counterparts. Aromantic being that you feel little to know romantic connection. This could look like having little to no interest in dating or finding showings of love such giving flowers to be trubbles some. (however this is different for everyone). Demiromantic being you feel little to no romantic connection before the connection of an emotional relationship. Demi romantic may look like always having crushes on your friends or not understanding the appeal to dating someone you hardly know. (it's diffrent for everyone )
Aromatic and asexual DO NOT HAVE to go together. You can be one without the other. You can love an s.o. and have no interest in sex. Or you can have no interest in a relationship but love sex.
If you think any of this applies to you I encourage you look more into it and remember there is nothing wrong with you.