Im 16 going on 17 yrs old. I first smoked marijuana when my cousin introduced me to it in front of a movie theatre before we went to go and see a comedy. I remember not feeling it at first and then by the time i got inside the movie theatre i was smiling from ear to ear like a little kid at an amusement park. i loved it it was great. I kept doing it after that and even introduced one of my bestfriends to it. She later on told me that she had to stop after our excessive use of it (which eventually tore us apart) because she was getting a mental illness that is known in her family history(schizophrenia). By this time i didnt think of marijuana as a drug, or a drug that could have changes on your brain chemistry at all for that matter, i just thought she was being paranoid. so she stopped, i continued. I started smoking around other people, and i noticed i was very antisocial towards them. i didnt talk or do the funny things i use to when me and my bestfriend smoked together. i became very anxious when i smoked and quiet, its like i was dying to say something and had something to say but the words wouldnt come out and if they did theyd come out in a weird, almost backwards form. people would ask me if i was mad the entire time. Im not anti social when im not high, i push my self to talk to people. I have horrible anxiety though and depersonalized. Sometimes my depersonalization is worse than other times, but i feel like im living in this bubble like im still here in the world but im not "here". Its like im writing a biography about myself but im not me. my thoughts stem from other thoughts and by the end of the day my mind is worn out and i usually have a migraine. i dont feel the world like i use to and the energy of the sun.i miss that so much. For the past 3 months ive been depressed and listening to radiohead everyday which sinks these emotions in even more. i could give a **** less about the anxiety anymore ill learn to deal with it. what i want to get rid of is this hazy depersonalization i want to be one with the world like i use to. I knew i felt weird after doing it soo much in a short period of time i started to feel "out of place" like 3rd person looking in, but i ignored it. now its full blown and everyday is half dream , half life. if you can relate or respond thanks
Ive been feeling the same symptoms for 2 years .Ive had all the scans and tests and nobody knows whats wrong with me. I feel hopeless...scared.
I had it too! There is cure! And it's easy! Don't take meds for this. Just face your fears. Live life. Don't listen to voice in your headz but to people you love. And have fun with your friends despite the feeling. Most important one-live for other people. It will leave you very quickly. 100 %. Don't stay in negative mood.
Dude I know the medical and non medical ways to fix this issue you're having.. Frankly I'm suffering from the same issue.. If you're interested just drop me a message and I'll go deep into details. Your mind has basically been speeded up from thc exposure and there's so much to explain. Don't worry no ones alone here :)