well in my mind set im basically still a little girl. Even though the law says that i can now legally have sex I think that I made the wort mistake of my life. I feel so depressed and like a cheap piece of meat. I feel used and hurt and it's the worst feeling in the world. So my so called boyfriend basically manipulated me to have sex with him because he was leaving and I can't put all the blame on him because we both agreed to it. It really hurt when we had sex though I begged him to stop and he wouldn't he just continued when it was over I thanked the lord. As if that wasn't enough he didn't believe me when I said I was a virgin he basically called me a liar. On top of that i have to nag him top speak to me. I now feel depressed and suicidal I have no one to speak to about this if I tell any of my friends they will run and tell the whole world! I really don't know what to do except put on a fake smile for the world so no one suspects the internal conflicts im going through as a sixteen year old girl
Dear Nacotour
I am so sorry about what you have had to endure, and what you are going through. You deserve someone better than him!
I can appreciate something of how you must be feeling. There were unfair pressures put on you. He is no friend. He virtually raped you! You said "when it was over I thanked the lord" So why not now "ask the Lord" for help? What are your religious persuasions?
"I think that I made the wort mistake of my life" You cannot change that, but you can recover from it.
"I feel used and hurt and it's the worst feeling in the world." You were used, so you naturally feel hurt.
"my so called boyfriend basically manipulated me to have sex with him" That is tantamount to rape. Did you use protection? When did it happen? How old is he? Where are you from?
"i have to nag him top speak to me" It's possibly better if you didn't nag. Taking a break from him would probably help all round.
"if I tell any of my friends they will run and tell the whole world!" Then they are not real friends! Where do your parents fit into all this?
- Realise you made a mistake. But determine not to repeat it.
- Realise you were put under undue pressure. It was not all your fault!
- Accept the consequences (physically, emotionally, spiritually), hard though that may be (is!)
- Thank God that you have come through so far.
- Talk to those you can trust.
- You are not alone! Others have suffered likewise
Hope these brief comments and questions help as a start. If you want to talk more, please ask. Privately if that helps.
Take Care.
Dear Nacotour
I'm glad I could help. If I can be more help, just ask - particularly if you get depressed about it again.