so from a young age i never thought about being with a girl i had guy crushes i fantasized about having sex and i even imagined myself getting married to a man. i love that romantic image of a guy with a girl i wish i would have that and i would also o crazy when i would see a hot guy and its strong chest and abs. i have a boyfriend and until a few months ago i was crazy in love with him. but one day out of the bloom i started thinking maybe im a lesbian except the normal once and a while wondering maybe im a lesbian or the oh i just thought that way maybe i am i never even imagined anything with a girl. but it has been a little doubt i guess when i would see a naked girl. like i would wonder am i attracted do i like that. like yes dont get me wrong i find the women body very pretty and i do stare at girls more than guys, but until now i always thought i was comparing myself and when i found a girl pretty well i just wanted to be like her and have that same prettyness. but now i dont know anymore and its scaring me. i cry all the time i even doubt my feelings for my boyfriend and then i cry even more becasue i dont want to be without him i love his presence his smile everything hes always there for me i wouldnt want it any other way so why am i sooo doubting myself. i dont know what to do one day i think i am the next i think its impossible i cant sleeep its always in my thoughts and i need help im so confused because before this all started i thought having a sexual relationship wiht a girl was really weird and i could never see myself doing it but now i could doesnt mean i want to but i could. its creating a lot of anxiety and i want it to stop i cant take it anymore. pkease someone help me understand
It really is completely normal for people your age to want to try as many things as possible and to see what is right for them. And one of the most common thing is to want to see if you are attracted and how much to the same sex. It literally is something you have to go through in your development. I know these feelings are tough to cope with but you will come to accept that just as a part of you because it really seems to me you are in love with your boyfriend. Just the way you described what you like about him is enough. So, it is all normal and it will pass.
well, you didn't say how old you are, but I'm 22 and a guy and you sound like a female version of me. lol. I'm not sure it's enough to be a mental health concern, really, but I definitely do have that tendency towards obsessive thoughts, like "maybe I'm in denial and I'm also in denial that I'm really homophobic, because if I admit to myself I'm homophobic then I'll have to admit it's because I'm actually gay..." LOL.
HOCD (well, OCD in general) has a fairly high treatment success rate, so even if you did have enough distress about this to get professional help it's not usually too difficult to treat.
I think it's usually men who suffer from this, and to an extent I think most straight guys do these days because society is so obsessed with everything they do and how "gay" (or not) it is..lol so I guess on the bright side you have good insight into what guys go through. :P
HOCD (well, OCD in general) has a fairly high treatment success rate, so even if you did have enough distress about this to get professional help it's not usually too difficult to treat.
I think it's usually men who suffer from this, and to an extent I think most straight guys do these days because society is so obsessed with everything they do and how "gay" (or not) it is..lol so I guess on the bright side you have good insight into what guys go through. :P