I´m a British man of 25 living in Madrid, Spain.. I came on to this blog cos recently I´ve just been feeling as ugly as ever. It´s true that beauty is in the eye of the beholder but sometimes I just feel like well, in my case, a smile from someone lifts me up soooo high, but i just feel that it´s rare. My friends tell me I´m being silly. I feel like I go in stages. I´m a gay guy who goes out in the spanish capitals gay scene and it can feel wellllll superficial, and some people are just plain mean and offensive if you try and talk to them. But i guess that people aren´t just that way for no reason. I think that every nasty reaction has a driving point. We were all born innocent. In any city it´s ususally similar.
I also have stages where I can´t go wrong, I just can´t go wrong, I meet loads of guys, then stages where months pass and I can´t do anything right!
People who feel ugly may feel that perhaps they have so much to offer someone but nobody will give them a chance cos of their ´looks´, but those who get a lot of attention feel like nobody is really interested in more than their body and since they dress to impress, people may look at them and think, ´that person is only out for 1 thing, bet he/she is a total slag´ and they meet people but nobody stays, probably cos they´re scared that the pretty boy/girl will ´get something better´.
I go thru stages. Sometimes I feel good. I realise that if I drink less and I´m not so tired, and the music is good, and MOST importantly, you are with reeeally good friends, it does amazing things for me when I go out, but sometimes despite all those factors, i just feeeel c**p and ugly. I just feeeel it and maybe it´s just chemical. I guess it just comes and goes. The biggest problem with me now is my horrendous fear of approaching guys. It terrifies me. It never used to scare me so much, I have noooo idea and i always advise people by saying they have nothing to lose but I get terrified! Self-conscious about speaking spanish with a foreign accent, scared they´ll just tell me to go away or just give me a weird look.
Funny thing is, 2.5 years ago when I arrived, I had so much more luck despite the fact that i was practically unable to communicate with anyone.
Also, my holidays are beginning. I hope that I can reflect on some things and find ways to feel good about myself. Much love to everyone!!!!!
I also have stages where I can´t go wrong, I just can´t go wrong, I meet loads of guys, then stages where months pass and I can´t do anything right!
People who feel ugly may feel that perhaps they have so much to offer someone but nobody will give them a chance cos of their ´looks´, but those who get a lot of attention feel like nobody is really interested in more than their body and since they dress to impress, people may look at them and think, ´that person is only out for 1 thing, bet he/she is a total slag´ and they meet people but nobody stays, probably cos they´re scared that the pretty boy/girl will ´get something better´.
I go thru stages. Sometimes I feel good. I realise that if I drink less and I´m not so tired, and the music is good, and MOST importantly, you are with reeeally good friends, it does amazing things for me when I go out, but sometimes despite all those factors, i just feeeel c**p and ugly. I just feeeel it and maybe it´s just chemical. I guess it just comes and goes. The biggest problem with me now is my horrendous fear of approaching guys. It terrifies me. It never used to scare me so much, I have noooo idea and i always advise people by saying they have nothing to lose but I get terrified! Self-conscious about speaking spanish with a foreign accent, scared they´ll just tell me to go away or just give me a weird look.
Funny thing is, 2.5 years ago when I arrived, I had so much more luck despite the fact that i was practically unable to communicate with anyone.
Also, my holidays are beginning. I hope that I can reflect on some things and find ways to feel good about myself. Much love to everyone!!!!!