Well I slept most of yesterday, and guess what my toe is looking much much better!
Its my birthday-but I cant feel happy , in fact the more people talk to me the more I want to tell them where to go....I dont know why but ive been like this for the past few years/not enjoying it. Must be an age thing ( oh haha!)
I think it will be a chocolate cake ( lots of it day) as I feell like everyone is trying to make me happy -the more they try the more frustrated I get-then that makes me feel like sh*t because Iknow they are trying to make me happy-argh! Right , okay now ive written it-im just going to enjoy it-stop with the wallowing woman.
Cancelling docs appointment/dont want to worry about making appointments even if it hurts.
AQnyway, kids are llooking forward to pony riding, so that should be fun!
Take care everyone and thanks for listening!
Its my birthday-but I cant feel happy , in fact the more people talk to me the more I want to tell them where to go....I dont know why but ive been like this for the past few years/not enjoying it. Must be an age thing ( oh haha!)
I think it will be a chocolate cake ( lots of it day) as I feell like everyone is trying to make me happy -the more they try the more frustrated I get-then that makes me feel like sh*t because Iknow they are trying to make me happy-argh! Right , okay now ive written it-im just going to enjoy it-stop with the wallowing woman.
Cancelling docs appointment/dont want to worry about making appointments even if it hurts.
AQnyway, kids are llooking forward to pony riding, so that should be fun!
Take care everyone and thanks for listening!
Happy Birthday TOO You! Happy Birthday TOO you!!!! IF you cancel your doc appointments, I'll KICK you in the BOO!!!
Do NOT cancel the doc appointment! Since it's your birthday I wont berate you too much, BUT if you cancel this or just go and say NOTHING I will be VERY upset Katy! STOP With being childish OK? I mean it!!! IT's Childish to not want to go to the doctors! So be a child for your birthday NOT the rest of the time OK? BIG HUGS
Do NOT cancel the doc appointment! Since it's your birthday I wont berate you too much, BUT if you cancel this or just go and say NOTHING I will be VERY upset Katy! STOP With being childish OK? I mean it!!! IT's Childish to not want to go to the doctors! So be a child for your birthday NOT the rest of the time OK? BIG HUGS
awww....Happy Birthday!!! Nice riddle bambi XD so your a Gemini eh!? totally fits you! I hope you enjoyed your day with the kids!! :-D
get well rested so you can wake up and go to your doctors appointment!! be selfish and do things for you to help you! :-D
get well rested so you can wake up and go to your doctors appointment!! be selfish and do things for you to help you! :-D
Omw-you guys- I was bad last night-oh went out with best frined, and she started to get chatted up an dwe were having a great time-then I had 1 too mnay decided i was bored went outside for a quick smoke -I dont know what happened-met some guy in a suit and we -well if I cant say it here -( och we only kissed, but it was goof) then went back and sat down felt like I was listneing to old people chat and couldnt stop thinking about what Id done-then my friend decided I was so drunk it was ime to go- she must have been right because I didnt even close my curtains. But it was so good just to et out, I spoke with her as well and she is an amazing friend. The only description of anxiety today is FURBALL as my Becca calls it" mummy has furball" I think thats a brilliant description!. In away I feel rotten and bad for what I did etc- but in another way its total closure- I guess a relationship is about making one another feel good etc, not the other( being of course"do you feel bad enough yet? or am i to take it its not bad enough yet?" as I have an addictive personality thats not healthy- I cant believe how much money I sent last night- thatnk god I never go out
Okay so I had some fun, and i did. Even was alaughjing this morning with someone about it-but had bath, had huge panic attack in bath, huge pabnic after bath-feel really fat, and I have put on tons of weight and now howling aboutit-what was I doind,what am i doing/ O now I dont mean anything to him and my worth is death to him /but what have I been doing? and now Im scared he will find out/what if someone saw me. he will kil me-what am I going to do?I cant do this, I cant retreat into another mans arms and do it all again-i am neurotic/crazy damaged fat ugly goodsThank good ness the kids are at my mums.
Just how could my mum do what she did if this is how I feel about it> How could she come home atnight and carry on, and how could anyone?
Oh I forgot to mention my age .the funfair yesterday, almost eveyrhting spinning round my head, and the demands of the children and all this noise and me freaking out, I thought if I have any brains, they were going to split out of my head and bang onto the ground. i had head cramps, and had to go sit in the car
Please someone talk to me, Ive only got 2 choices noe, what if he finds out and just kicks me out?
Just how could my mum do what she did if this is how I feel about it> How could she come home atnight and carry on, and how could anyone?
Oh I forgot to mention my age .the funfair yesterday, almost eveyrhting spinning round my head, and the demands of the children and all this noise and me freaking out, I thought if I have any brains, they were going to split out of my head and bang onto the ground. i had head cramps, and had to go sit in the car
Please someone talk to me, Ive only got 2 choices noe, what if he finds out and just kicks me out?
sh*t sh*t sh*t-I dont know what im going to do- I cant ace the kids like this
I feel horrible! I never want to drink again! I feel like ive ripped me in 2
Okay calmed down-just wondering where my self respect has gone.
Kids are home and cooking a sausage casserole-im so surprise ive not thrown up everywhere,
Throats sore, sinuses blocked and my toe throbs, other than that im fine.
I got a really lovely handbag for my birthday-its gorgeous, but still having palipitations about last night/I keep getting the anxious knots in my stomach and feel loaded with guilt-its not like ive killed anyone.
Kids are home and cooking a sausage casserole-im so surprise ive not thrown up everywhere,
Throats sore, sinuses blocked and my toe throbs, other than that im fine.
I got a really lovely handbag for my birthday-its gorgeous, but still having palipitations about last night/I keep getting the anxious knots in my stomach and feel loaded with guilt-its not like ive killed anyone.
well I couldnt breathe-thought nothing of it, started to choke on my tongue and then threw up everywhere-Totally unexpected!
Im surprised you didn't do more than just kiss him! You are a WOMAN! and he has treated you like an animal instead! He has abused you neglected you, cheated on you, lied to you, made you a jelly like mess! Don't let 1 piece of happiness and feeling attractive and getting slammed drunk FOR a reason, instead of just because! You are letting yourself be overwhelmed with guilt, when you have NOTHING to be guilty about! There is NO pact or vowes between you both, in fact there is nothing! I am serious about you going to the doctors Katy! You HAVE to mentione about this "fur ball" and the throwing up and choking, AND your toe! Who give a flying s**t what they think, you NEED to get these checked out! And also get some help! As I've told you before, he is pushing ahead with this signiung thing, and you NEED to get on the right course of medications and treatment, to show that you are actually getting help for your problems! So now your birthday is over I'm back to kick you into reality! NO MORE excuses Katy! write it down! And DON'T leave there without you telling them what is REALLY going on with you AND getting help! Don't start talking about other stuff that isn't relevant for you mission - to get help for TODAY (your choking, your panic, your toe) OK?
Hi Dawn-its me-the only if I had done that -woman! Tut tut! Now im being really rude-well i even told my mum what ive been up to-she did this 8-| followed by a lecture on how I am supposed to live my life....but then laughed about it afterwars , seeing the irony.
Anyway, my eyes are watering really badly now-I think its hayfever or something like that, nose is sore etc but the doctor didnt seem to think i had an infection. And lets not talk about feet-it want help my balance one little bit!
I was glad I chucked my dinner up anyway, as it was a yuck casserole-but now my stomach matches everest!
Owwe Ive been enjoying being a little mental these last few days-attitude of who cares -lets just laugh about itargh-eyes are really itchy.
I started to get cahtting to a guy i was atshcool with on my facebook and we got really bad, but we had a laugh-i hope no one can read there. got to watch these computers-they seem to do a lot behind our backs without our awareness like robbing us etc, so trtying to distract my daughter from ebay.
I told the doc about furball though didnt use those words-it is , maybe iam allergoc to my cat-though im sure hes diabetic.
Im bored bored bored stupid with the world cup!
Hope your good and thank you for encouraging me to go and see my gP-I got reallly wound up before going-thinking theres nothing wrong with me- but even just being reassured helps sometimes.
Kids are at brownies so i have to go now and collect them! They are both sweet mad and a pure handful all at the same time!
Worried about exam results-there due around the time ive to see my dad-ill keep that quiet!
Anyway, my eyes are watering really badly now-I think its hayfever or something like that, nose is sore etc but the doctor didnt seem to think i had an infection. And lets not talk about feet-it want help my balance one little bit!
I was glad I chucked my dinner up anyway, as it was a yuck casserole-but now my stomach matches everest!
Owwe Ive been enjoying being a little mental these last few days-attitude of who cares -lets just laugh about itargh-eyes are really itchy.
I started to get cahtting to a guy i was atshcool with on my facebook and we got really bad, but we had a laugh-i hope no one can read there. got to watch these computers-they seem to do a lot behind our backs without our awareness like robbing us etc, so trtying to distract my daughter from ebay.
I told the doc about furball though didnt use those words-it is , maybe iam allergoc to my cat-though im sure hes diabetic.
Im bored bored bored stupid with the world cup!
Hope your good and thank you for encouraging me to go and see my gP-I got reallly wound up before going-thinking theres nothing wrong with me- but even just being reassured helps sometimes.
Kids are at brownies so i have to go now and collect them! They are both sweet mad and a pure handful all at the same time!
Worried about exam results-there due around the time ive to see my dad-ill keep that quiet!
Nightmare-daughters sick and been chucking up since 430. Shes so pale. Its weird as well itsnot like proper sickness/clear/yellow slime.
I went ape at him for not helping and only thinking about him. He knows how to knowck you down for sure, He just doesnt get it-but he does, I mean and this is just an example-theres been NO affection from me in years, locked in my room like a prison inmate ony to come out to do the dishes - he doesnt give a sh*t, doesnt even comfort alex, and shes scared...im pissed off, i really want to do something horrible to him, locked myself in the lou and cried- I cant take muchj more-Ive a really sore side too. now im panicing as im going to loose my job-theres just been so many sickies- all have been genuine though. i was screaming at him, because he doesnt really help out. Hes never washed the kids bed clothes etc or tidied their room for them or anything like it....I dont know what to do -got to go clean Im worried about her...this isnt good!
I went ape at him for not helping and only thinking about him. He knows how to knowck you down for sure, He just doesnt get it-but he does, I mean and this is just an example-theres been NO affection from me in years, locked in my room like a prison inmate ony to come out to do the dishes - he doesnt give a sh*t, doesnt even comfort alex, and shes scared...im pissed off, i really want to do something horrible to him, locked myself in the lou and cried- I cant take muchj more-Ive a really sore side too. now im panicing as im going to loose my job-theres just been so many sickies- all have been genuine though. i was screaming at him, because he doesnt really help out. Hes never washed the kids bed clothes etc or tidied their room for them or anything like it....I dont know what to do -got to go clean Im worried about her...this isnt good!
I dont know-alex is ill and im now feeling really weird! is this just some sort of bug?
Okay, theres something in the water . My head is going - sore and im feeling nauseated.And get this I heard the neighbour downstairs chuck up as the walls are thin here-its gross.
Alex is having her first slice of toast. i dont get this though-she had a big meal last night-so i dont get how her stomach ould be empty to through up watery stuff, then bile!
Alex is having her first slice of toast. i dont get this though-she had a big meal last night-so i dont get how her stomach ould be empty to through up watery stuff, then bile!
Here where I live Mono is rampant! My nephew is sicker than a dog and has been diagnosed with Mono and strep throat! What does he say when you are yelling at him that he is useless?