Hello,
I am not nor have I ever been the type of person thobo to a website and post my personnel issues, but this past year and all I have been thru I think I am just letting it all out. I am going to make this quick, I may fill in or tell more about certain things later, it's 4 in the morning and I got to go to work so I need to try to sleep. I was a stay at home dad for over a year with my beautiful daughter, in a new state and no family or friends, my GF was working and her son from a previous relationship was in my care as well. Well she started not coming home, getting drugs from her ex, I told her I needed a break and went home for a month, upon my return she had moved her ex-bf in our house. There were drugs in the house, I stayed one night and woke up next morning and tries to take my daughter with me, she called the cops and the ex followed me, I returned to the house, told cops why I did what I did (drugs, GF moved in a felon,) they did nothing, I drove home alone, fought for my daughter, lost bunch of my money, all my stuff was still in house and now my ex-GF's ex is the only one living in other house and will not give my stuff back, I lost my daughter, I get to see her 4 days a month in another state and I pay 600 a ok th in child support, I barley make enough to live, moved back in with parents, I have turned back to drugs, my DOC is morphine, oxycodone, or any opiate, I have begun doing meth, or whatever I can get, I ignore all my feelings, I have turned off I guess, alone I breakdown, I miss my daughter and I feel bad, I don't want to let her down but I am so angry, lost and I don't know what to do, I am a good guy, I love my daughter very much I just feel there is no hope.