I'm straight but gay porn turns me on

i'm 34 i've dealt with this for a long time. i'm a natural born sex addict. i like sex, i like penetration, it turns me on. i believe internet porn has certainly created this. i do remember this kid in grade school had a kind of bubble butt that made me feel uncomfortable. they say everyone has a moment where they question their sexuality, that was mine. it was a no go and i moved on. i've been attracted to girls since kindergarten and, i used to follow this girl (nicole) around everywhere etc.. i played doctor with neighbor girls, all that sh*t. i never once thought about anything gay until i saw it online in the mid 90's. For whatever reason i seem to like things taboo, not everything but a lot of things. when i was a young teen i tried to penetrate myself with a drum stick, why i have no idea. i guess it was curiosity. i do know that smoking lots of weed and taking diazepam ( V's, K's and Z's) increased this behavior. however, this behavior doesn't correlate with any attraction to guys whatsoever. i do fantasize about gay sex from time to time but it's very limited when compared to hedero sex. it seems like i get bored of the hedero stuff kinda, including variants i enjoy such as (male animal to female human) beastiality porn and seek out my limits. for me its about the penetration, submissiveness and taboo factor.i don't like actual footage (now that there are many options) but prefer gay illustrations, even more specific furry illustrations of gay sex. i don't like actual video or pics because i think men are very unattractive. I hope this helps. i'm very secure in my sexuality. this gay porn fetish is not at all a concern for me. also, at times i still use sex toys, such as a home made dildo on rare occasions. i have had many long term relationships lasting several years and still seek out hedero re;ationships. however, i repeat i am a sex addict.

p.s. upon reflection i'm def bisexual. either everyone is bisexual or there are truly people that are completely open about their sexuality but can't be phased by the intricacies of internet porn. if women thought men kissing men was as sexy and harmless as men think women kissing women are it would be nothing at all, aside from the crazy sh*t religion brings aboard. so what it comes down to is: try and fit in and avoid your more depraved side or let it be. there's no wrong answer. i love nice butterscotch p***y but i'm pretty sure if i were comfortable with a guy who could please me sexually and society was like sure what ever man i don't think it would matter. i like what a woman offers to my sexuality. i like that she shaves her legs and p***y. the inherent submissiveness fits my sexuality. i think the way females are generally weaker than males fits this way of thinking, i'm just shooting off the cuff and think this topic can be explored so much further.

I agree. My eye goes to women...immediately. Guys never stand out to me. I think a lot of it is that those who like dildos up their ass are now able to look at incredible gay high quality pictures of ass that look like woman ass. I myself, it's like looking at my own ass while I f**k myself. But pursuing a man has never been in my galaxy of thought.

its more of a bi-curious then anything most men experience it others will deny even thinking about it. I believe if you experiment with the same sex at least once your fantasy will either disappear or you will realize you mite actually enjoy it. either way you will be happy and not driving yourself mad trying to figure out why you have these thoughts.

It sounds like you are gay, but you can't comprehend that emotionally. No matter what a person's sexuality is, we all know what a "hot" dude or chick looks like. And while you may be emotionally attached to a woman, you're likely sexually attached to dude's penises. No matter how hard you try, you'll probably never be able to shake off your attraction completely, and it will make heterosexual relationships more difficult the closer you become to someone--honesty must surface at some point. Maybe you're bi, and maybe you're gal wouldn't care, but you need to admit to yourself what seems impossible to comprehend.

OMG! SAME THING FOR ME! WHEN I'M NOT HONRY IM TOTALLY STRAIGHT, BUT I GET turned on FOR GAY SEX.

See that wld be perfect

That's how it was for me in high school. I cldnt get girls and this guy started touching me and it felt good. I am 40 now and I realize that I do like the way it feels (I love porn) I can't get the girls and I'm married for 2 yrs, but been with her for 6.5 yrs. I love her to death. We've been through a lot together and I wld give /take a life for her. I've asked God to take away the memories, but he hasn't. I don't want to lose my wife over this. What do I do?

I've been going through this for a long time and have never gotten an answer I'm so glad to see I'm not alone. Growing up as a kid I was straight but at 14 I had a gay kissing experience with a friend from school who came over and this was before I even kissed my first girl and it felt wrong but it turned me on so much , since then I had various girlfriends and had only straight experiences, I only have love and affection for women and do not see men in any romantic way and the thought of it turns me off like you. However over 2 years ago the gay sexual thoughts returned and even after I'd masturbate about gay sex i think " why am I thinking about it ? What's wrong with me ? I'm not gay ?" But I couldn't help myself even when having sex with women id still be turned on for men and eventually had a few gay sexual experiences including blow Jobs etc but no anal and then I felt guilty and stopped completely , I'm 22 now and I know I'm not gay , I have a girlfriend which I love so much and can see my self with her forever and enjoy making love to her however recently my gay sexual thoughts have returned strong and have even been considering wanting to try anal with a man in my thoughts which turns me on so much when I think about , so I think it's getting worse , what does this mean ? What do I do? How should I think of this or approach it ?

Same!! Im 14 (male) and feel this way

Same here I watch gay poem but when I am in school or something and a gay guys comes up to me and I am like please I am not gay but when I get turned on I like them don't no what to do

Ya I'm the exact same I always think about men when watching it but when I ejaculate it disgusts me and I think "wtf am I doin with my life" i watch lesbian and straight too but I have a thing for gay porn

this is spot on. as a straight male i have hooked up with many gay and bi me. no anal, just oral play, body rubbing, basically foreplay. i won't lie, even a straight guy can still get down with some dudes for fun. but would i ever have romantic feelings for another man. absolutely not. the pleasure i get from men is all mechanical, not emotional.

I am straight but get off watching cum shots, jerking off, and some gay porn. I see a hard penis and I get hard, I see cum and I want to jerk off...

I'm exactly the same way. Idk either ot's so weird. I would like to have a girlfriend, not a boyfriend. But i'd like to bang a guy so i dont know. I also got into porn really young. Like when I was 9 or something. I'm 15 now.