I am a 46 old and had a hysterectomy for which my uterus, cervix and both ovaries were taken in dec 2011. This was due to having endometreosis since I was 22 and having it laproscopically removed 3 times, for which my doctor had advised to just have total hysterectomy etc instead of surgeries. I however wanted to hold on to my ovaries and just kept having it removed. That day did come that I agreed to have all removed, and can I say that I count that as the last day of my life. I have been living in a life just short of a Stephen King novel. I decided after surgery to wing it with no hrt at all and done that for a whole year. In Jan 2012 decided to try Premarin at the suggestion of my doctor. This was because the night and day sweats, intense cold spells,horrific mood swings, insomnia, drastic weight gain, memory loss and forgetfullness, loss of libido to name a few symptoms had at that time gotten to me severly. The hormone worked for 1 month then all symptoms came back, but with a vengence! My doctor wanted to double my dosage of premarin, but my scare of cancer quickly stopped that. I am now holding on day by day. I have lost half of my hair since coming off hrt. Everyday suicidal thoughts are in my mind, I mean it is all so hopeless to me. Just wish I could reverse the surgery, but that is not possible. HELP