MOrnin jewls, Thank you for coming here and telling us what is going on with you. You have taken the first step by admitting that you may have a drinking problem. Because you have been givin this s@@t or get off the pot ultimatum from your husband, i think that woke you up. You have gone 4 days with out it, you are on your way for sure. You could very well be going thru dt's or withdrawl when your not drinking, this is good (sort of)
Some times we over induldge and don't know why. Our home life is good, our marraige is good, we are financially ok, nothing is on our minds at all, we just like to drink, period. A litre of wine every other day is a lot but it's enough to make your husband notice. When we are under the influence we obviously feel good, laughing and giddy and happy, but you can feel the same way without the help of booze.
I would hate to see your marraige go down the crapper because you chose alcohol over your husband, that bottle can't keep you warm at night ya know.
Have you thought about looking into AA? It's not to make you embarrased or humiliated in any way, it's there for those who can't do it alone. I think your husband would really appreciate it if you talked about it to him, and he can go with you when you go to these meetings. Don't wreck your marraige because you can't stay away from the bottle. I would hope your relationship with your husband means more to you.
I am the only child in my family and from my great grand parents right down to my parents were all alcoholics. I saw and heard so much when i was quite young and promised myself that i would not allow myself to be like that. I am not a saint and i do drink some but never in excess. If i have a cocktail it's usually a beer or a vodka/orange but with a half shot. I feel it on one, so i quit, then i get hungry, then i'm done for the night. lol boreing huh?
So please take my advice and seek help now before it gets any farther out of control. You have already been warned by your husband and that should be the push that you need.