If not i cant get up i been on it for 20 years...i have a cough that hurts my ribs. Doctor told me i crystallized my lugns...so now im sick an just want to sleep if i get up to use the restroom i take a hit. ...thinking ill feel bettter but no when im coughing it feels like someone is on my ribs.. .i dont know how to stop useing meth. . i really want to stop but how
I may not be the best to talk , considering I'm struggling with a clear addiction currently , I am only 17 a female and my whole family does drugs too , any kinds my cousins mostly heroin my uncles and aunts meth ,and my perants used to smoke clear , but I recently picked up the habit , and now at 17 I have smoked ciggerettes for 11 years weed for 5 years and meth for about 6 months , every two day or so
But if you want to feel happy again and you want to be with your child and husband best thing you can do is confide in a group of people including your husband , deal with the withdraws , and make the promise to yourself to never let yourself feel that again , and it's the hardest feeling to get through thas why it's been hard for me.
But best thing you can do is ask your husband for help , tell him you want to change .
And make the promise for yourself and for your child to quit , look at your baby's face and make that the modivation , I know what it's like to have perants with drug issues and it's what messed me up early in my life , you don't want that for your kid trust me go out with your family be clean and experience your life again , get to be yourself again
I know ecxactly what you mean. I was saying to myself ice is the worse drug. I had been sick addicted for 5 years. Kicked it for one year. And i been relapsing. I reasoned for 5 secs of happines. That thought "5secs of happiness" hit me hard made me reflect why would i say that and seek happiness from the worst thing. So i realized if im seeking happiness then i must be sad. So the reasons why you USE are the opposite feelings bugging you leading to stay addicted. So if you can figure out what your looking to escape from. Then you can target those areas and fix them healthier. Wish you the best. You deserve it. Thanks for your post. It helped me see some things
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I was clean for 10 years, "WAS" then when my life spiraled out of control I started using again..it seems like the methods in making it have changed, its way more powerful , i started noticing annd was able to identify other people that were on the more powerful batches that are going around town, they are going crazy ..a few days ago i saw the news that a dear friend of mine had been in a police standoff..he was a humble, kind , warm hearted guy that was like a brother to me..yet someone tried to rob him and he shot the kid several times in a meth rage ..he then fled the scene and baracaded himself under his house with a duffle bag of what they call the superlab ice..the police sent a k-9unit to try to flush him out but he beat the dog up..then they deployed a tear gas bomb ..that didnt work neither.the police said they witnessed clouds of thick white smoke billowing from under the house..my bro was amped out to the max and hit after hit his heart finally exploded. When they finally got him out he was gone..now im in a comatose type of state..while im trying to make sense of all of this i feel so bad that I'm ever going to smoke meth again. Rest in peace bro.