Im 23 years old, muslim from the uk. I have a big problem. When i used to masturbate, unwanted images keep popping up. It wasnt a big deal first but throught the months i started to do some unusual things. Please bare in mind i was smoking mariujana and had a full blown panic attack, before this my ocd was not there much.
Now when i masturbate i get unwanted thoughts and when the thoughts pop up images of people mostly, while i masturbate, its like i have to masturbate again wihout occuring the images of people. Doing this is extremly hard as the images keep popping up. If i fail in my mission to masturbate normally then its like something bad is going to happen to mesomething bad to the poeple who iv imagined. Afterwards i had to masturbate repeatdly over and over again until i have a successful session without thinking of anyone.
Iv managed to to it but then i start dowting myself ,, i didnt to it right .. i shoudn hav thought of this person, i forgot to look at the carpet and have to do it so much , my d i c k starts hurting.
Pls let me know what is this, is anything really going to happen. Should i just stop. Pls help me your words will account for what i should do next. Am going crazy i have weird thoughts any help appreciated. Many thanx.
However, it could be a much more complicated porblem. I would recommend talking to a doctor about some focus pills. That way you can concentrate on what you want. The panic attack was most likely caused by the mariujana you were smoking.
And no offense, but I'd also recommend talking to a sycologist. They could help you with the whole "mission" thing.
Or, it could be a sign. Possibly a sign from a spirit or something. I don't really now too much on spirits and religous signs. But I'd definitly recommend doing some research on that.
For a boost of focus, look at porn while masturbating. Thats what I do ;-)
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No matter what i do these images come to my head and if its a spirit of some kind id prefer if it just come out with it in english.
Thankfully as the days go on the images are slowly stopping and i guess im my body is getting rid of the panic attack aftermath.
I think it was triggered by the weed.. before, i used to masturbate nothing like this used to happen so the spirit in some sense maybe the weed lol im not sure.
Porno Iv got GIGS of the stuff and it does help .. allowing me to concentrate as well.
i know this is a really old topic, but i totally understand what the original poster was going through. when i was going through my worst spout of anxiety/depression/OCD, unwanted thoughts kept popping into my head when i would masturbate, specifically when i would climax. also sometimes it would happen when doing things with sexual partners. it's been a year or so since i've been on medication, and i am not anxious/depressed anymore, but i still have some OCD traits, and sometimes when i masturbate the unwanted images still pop into my head. i know now not to give these thoughts any power, as in when they flash through my head, i just ignore them as opposed to before, when i would dwell on them and then they wouldn't leave. i've gotten better at controlling it but i still cannot completely NOT think them, you know? even when it's just the thought of thinking of them, the thought is still there. i know that it'll probably take a while for this to go away completely, but is there any advice in the meantime? by the way, i do look at porn when i masturbate and i try my hardest to focus on the porn instead, but these quick flashes of unwanted thoughts still keep coming sometimes. any guidance would be appreciated, thanks!
I totally inderstand you I was diagnosed with emotional contamination OCD years ago , I have the same exact thing and some times I have to do the " ritual" and not only think of the same people but have the Same feeling or same way ejaculate to "nutralize" the first one . Don't give credit to your thoughts ! Think of thoughts as words , if I write on a piece of paper the word mirror it's just a word right ? You cannot Ctually see your self in it can u? It is the same with thoughts no value in them unless you start ruminating on them ! I am still fight with erp cbt and used to take Zoloft Xanax seropram and buspar occasionally but dot worry mAte , if life wAs so easy to manipulate just with thinking u my friend would be the center of the universe ! A magician , but let me inform u on something u are not cause I am the center o mine , and he is the center of his and so on , so don't worry the only thing u change when you are having these thoughts is how u feel not what will happen . Love , stay stronge and always aware of the voice , it is quite frustrating cause it has the same tone with your logic !!!
it doesnt mean you’re attracted to them at all. what so ever. Your brain wants to hirt you and it knows how to do it. it actually means youre a good person