All my life i have been bullied and could never seem to do anything right; and that still stands to this day. Ever since i started kindergarten, all i've ever done is be myself, and what do i get? Bullied. BUt it really hit the most when we moved into Ballina and i changed schools to Ballina Public School in year 2. I had my first fight, and made my first bestfriend in year 2 aswell.
I died my hair blue for shave for a cure in year 2 or 3 and i remember really well, that it wasn't only the kids that made fun of me but it was the teachers aswell. One of them actually said to me that if i don't get it out of my hair that i'll be suspended. God, i never liked her. Then in year 4 my eye was going all werid on me and started being lazy and i got picked on for that too. In year 5 i got picked on for being friends with these 2 girls who were a year older than me; they ended up being total bitchez to me and i had a fight with one of them.
In year 6 i picked on for having my anger issues that i haven't been able to control. I also, well my older sister dyed parts of my hair blacked and i got called emo for that. and the guys WOULD NOT leave me alone. I ended up getting so pissed off at one of them that i kicked him in the balls, and they STILL go on about that today. I also had my first actual relationship that lasted for 3 months before he dumped me because he thought i was cheating on him when i wasn't. Most people hated me for the other couple of guys i dated also in year 6.
In year 7 my 'friends' started throwing food at me and sticks and picking on me because of once again my anger issues. In year 8 the same thing happened except there was the b***h that started saying sh*t about us to other people and then i threatened her and that got me a warning suspension. I remember i slapped her too. In year 9 i dated a guy who was a year older than me, and he smoked and drinked. Then for our one month he asked me for sex. (i'm a virgin) I declined and broke up with him. And my relationship with this other guy in year 8, we broke up a couple of months before year 9 and he STILL treats me like a jerk to this very day.
And now in year 10, i have been replaced by this b***h i just want to knock the f**k out of, and hse has stolen everyone from me. so now i've gone back to being loner....woooh not! I just wanna knock the f**k out of everyone who has bullied me. or none the less, i want to kill myself. I can't handle this bullying that goes on anymore. I already cut and sometimes stab myself. so i can't wait till the day i friggin go to far and die.
sorry just needed somewhere to vent.