Hi, I would say i recently had an abortion. it was in April 08 so i dont no it that counts. I found out i was pregnant at just 3 weeks and my boyfriend was not at all supportive.. i had 2 scans and both times i saw my baby and its amazing how fast they grow.. he didnt once come with me and i had to go with his mum :-( I had started to talk to ppl on the internet who found out that they were pregnant and they all encouraged me to keep the baby so in my head i started to believe i was goign to be a mummy. i went through with the abortion. about 6 different ppl came and asked me if i was sure about my descion and everytime i said no but i no its for the best.. and now i wish i had listened to that no.
the same night of teh abortion my bf dumped me and i didnt greive i felt liek everything was just too much to cope with at once and i just shut off to it all ... 2 weeks later we got back together and i felt liek i cudnt talk about it to him just incase i ruined the relationship as he was so unhappy at teh fact i was having his baby.
i had the implant put in the june of 08 because i felt like i couldnt trust the pill anymore and i was so set on being a mummy i thought i would make myself pregnant. As i was so desperate to have the implant i told the doctor i was on my period when i wasnt..
now all of a sudden the greif of lossing my baby has hit.. my boyfriends oon holiday and i cnt contact him so it feels liek we have split up all over again and i must relate this to havign the abortion i feel alone and sick and think that i could be pregnant which is stupid as ive got the implant and im having spotting of periods but is it possible that i could be pregnant.
And does the greif go away coz atm i feel so alone and because i came across as coping so well to the abortion because i didnt greive i feel like i cnt go back to my mum or friends and cry abotu it coz they will think well why now?
I dont no what i should feel
the same night of teh abortion my bf dumped me and i didnt greive i felt liek everything was just too much to cope with at once and i just shut off to it all ... 2 weeks later we got back together and i felt liek i cudnt talk about it to him just incase i ruined the relationship as he was so unhappy at teh fact i was having his baby.
i had the implant put in the june of 08 because i felt like i couldnt trust the pill anymore and i was so set on being a mummy i thought i would make myself pregnant. As i was so desperate to have the implant i told the doctor i was on my period when i wasnt..
now all of a sudden the greif of lossing my baby has hit.. my boyfriends oon holiday and i cnt contact him so it feels liek we have split up all over again and i must relate this to havign the abortion i feel alone and sick and think that i could be pregnant which is stupid as ive got the implant and im having spotting of periods but is it possible that i could be pregnant.
And does the greif go away coz atm i feel so alone and because i came across as coping so well to the abortion because i didnt greive i feel like i cnt go back to my mum or friends and cry abotu it coz they will think well why now?
I dont no what i should feel
this post sounds a lot like an experience of mine. It is perfectly fine to grieve because there just can't be a time limit put on things like that. Having an abortion is a big decision and a lot of consequences and emotions come behind it. its a lot to take in especially on top of many other stresses of life. I recently got one 10 months ago and I'm just now starting to feel certain types of ways about it and the pain is there everyday. People tell me to have a positive outlook but its so hard so I know how you feel. This may sound impossible but stay strong. The pain will eventually pass.