Addicted To Marijuana

Hi,

good for you. I can relate some. My husbands swears he is not addicted to weed but I know he is. When we leave the house for more than 30 minutes he makes up excuses to get back home and when we arrive home he is like an addicted, he has to go smoke like he misses it. we dont ever go any where together other than the store to grocery shop or eat. we've been together more than 20 years i love him but hate his addiction.

honestly guys this is all hilarious marijuana is in no way shape or form physically addicting you just think you need it your all stupid and for all those parents thinking your kid needs to quit smoking im sure smoking marijuana is not the root of their screwed up decisions maybe your just a bad parent and need to get to know your child a lil bit better who knows but blaming weed for everything isn't going to do anything but promote ignorance and stupidity to future generations 

I have been smoking weed since I was 14. I have lived in 4 different countries, I am now 32. I believe I have had some underlying mental issues that have never really been addressed. There have been breaks in my usage of weed. Right now I feel as if I'm losing it. I have always been told that some people just cannot handle smoking; apparently I'm one of those folks that just can't.  I have a wife and 2 boys, I have a business that I have started, I am very good at what I do, but everything I do is now in a warped sense of reality. My wife is very conservative, she doesn't like the fact that I get high. She has seen the effects of my marijuana use, and has basically lost trust in me because of the deception, and the utter dis regard of my health, mental well being and the destruction of our marriage. It came to an all new height last night when she packed up and left with our toddler. She knows when I'm high, I lie to cover it up, use visene to "whiten" my eyes. 

I love my family; I need to be here for my sons. I don't want them to grow up like me, I had so much potential as a kid, very athletic, intelligent, and driven. Throughout my years I have never truly addressed my mental health, from a young age my parents thought I was unstable. This instability has progressed. There is a history of mental health issues in my family, I have never been officially diagnosed with anything, but I feel as if something is not quite right. I feel conflicted, when I'm high, the day goes by easy, when I'm not, the world is on my shoulders. I have even resorted to getting high before I go and deliver my services to clients. Unbeknownst  to them, I'm high as a kite doing my thing. I try and get home before my wife does, so I can light up. I hide my weed usage, by using cash I obtain from business, I go and pick up my toddler high from daycare. These things are having a negative effect on my life. 

 

It’s very hard for me to go a day without getting high, when I'm not, I'm anticipating when I can get a "hit" Today I called up our EAP to get help. Finally after 18 years I have finally decided to try and get help. I have been a stoner for half of my life, there has to be some damage that I have done to my brain, not to mention  my body. 

I used to laugh at folks on shows like intervention, because I said to myself "at least I'm not sticking a needle in my arm" or " look at them, that's not me" well it is, I realized that if I don't try and seek help, I am going to lose everything close to me. I feel as if I have let my family down, by constantly "blazing" trying to escape the reality of life. Regardless if I feel as if its normal to me, that's the distortion of my reality. When I try and quit, my nicotine cravings increase, my sexual urges increases, I am also very impulsive, so I make very bad decisions. Trying to seek help has  been something  I thought I needed, just didn't peruse. As I write this, I am feeling the withdrawal  symptoms, I am feeling depressed knowing that I'm "dry" knowing that my irritability is going to increase, and I'm going to take it out on the one closet to me, even though she's trying to help, she needs to help herself first. She doesn't understand why I do what I do, we have a nice home, she has a career, we have a wonderful son. My business is growing and getting established. I also seem to "treat" myself with weed, as well as self-medicate. If I have a good day, I get high, If I have a bad day, I get high. Got a client at 11:00, I get high before, and after. 

 

This is the beginning of my decent into reality, having the ability to function in the realm of reality, and not up in the clouds. Even though being up there is what gets me by. I was always of those guys that said, "weed is not addictive" well, It is, it destroys lives for those that are not able to handle its effects on your mental wellbeing. Its fun, but I never did it in moderation, I'd dread to see a $$ amount that I have spent on getting high, and everything else associated with it, lost income due to the lack of motivation, fines, impulsive spending and the "munchies" 

 

Today is a new day, not to say that I'm never going to take one to the head again, but I need to figure out how to go about moving on from this seemingly harmless plant, take it from me, it ruins lives. Let’s hope I can make the right choices and get the right help before I lose my family, and my mind. Hopefully this will help others in my position; I had to write this for myself, to start the process. 

 

Hello Breal, You are on the right path...when you can recognize that you have a problem you will beable to turn things around. My son is 18 and has been smoking since he was 13. Its a complicated long story but I finally realize there are underlying issues similar to yours. I have started taking him to a place in Ontario called Pinewood and they give free addictive counseling. I am also waiting for a call for an evaluation from a psychiatrist to see what the other problems can be...depression/anger etc. He also has pending charges from 6 months ago. Not good. So I feel we are finally on our way to finding out why in "my opinion" he self medicates with weed. Of course he does not admit this....he says he likes smoking and has the right to put what he wants into his body...all of the stuff he put into his body has affected his family relationships, education and future police records... You should be proud of yourself for getting to the realization that there are very likely underlying reasons why you do this. You can turn it all around...try to go to a rehab for a week....they do this here so wherever you are, they must have a place. There is so much stuff on the internet that helps too...I printed off a document called "getting out of it: how to cut down or quit cannabis" by Helen Mentha. Google Eastern Drug and Alcohol Service. I believe you will need lots of counseling and a good psychologist/psychiatrist. Mainly you need lots of support and hopefully your wife will be there for you if you can prove to her that you are serious about change. Congratulations...you can do it! Good luck with everything.

You are all so very ignorant. Please do something to educate yourselves. A simple google search would prove very helpful for all of you.

This really annoys me when people say that marijuana is addicting bc IT'S NOT! People who say they can't give it up have problems with their personal lives or some kind of mood disorder like being bipolar. IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD. I've been smoking for over 4 years now. When I first started smoking I smoked everyday for over a year mainly bc one of my friends always had it but when I don't have any I'm not freaking out. Tell them to see a psychiatrist bc the problems are deeper then just smoking marijuana.

Are you kidding me? She must be lacking something? What you're lacking are brain cells…

I feel sorry for you.  I myself am going through a similar problem with my son.  I don't know where I went wrong...My son has been addicted to other things before and has gone to rehab.  Now he is smoking pot and I makes me sad because he is having so many ups and downs.  Basically, it is giving me side effects whithout being on any drug at all.  Our latest let down was today when he told us he was having an anxiety attack and wouldn't be coming over for Christmas today because he smoked too much...

Then the blame game started.  He accused us of not loving him and of not being there for him....he says he is drepressed and that pot is the only thing that helps him.

I love him, but I don't know what to do.  He has severe nausea in the morning that goes along with the panic attacks and the runs.  He swears he isn't addicted, but I can't help but think this is not the child that used to live in my house.

I feel so bad and wonder what I did to make it this way.

Sorry to hear that . I can feel how would you feel when it happens on your folks.Particularly it is your family member.As to those people we love, we should put more love on them,pay more attention to them.Let them know we love him.God to be with them.Hopefully they can get out of this soon.

If you replied to my post I just want to say that when someone pushes you aside with anger and refuses to accept the help, or even talk about it, then to so what you are suggesting is impossible. I love him and am finding it hard to know that he has chosen the drug over a life. With this last slap in the face...I cannot believe you are suggesting that I go back for more abuse.

It obviously is bad for you if you type like this id**t

Shut up! You are the ignorant here. You don´t even smoke! So shut up again.
I just red a lot of posts here and yours is the worst.

Once you've seen weed destroy some ones life the way lots of us have you will understand.

Hi I have an older brother too and I am afraid he's addicted to marijuana aswell. I don't really care that he smokes it because it's his own life, but what I do worry about it that he could be addicted to it. He goes out and buys 100's of durries and him and his friend rolls them in his room while they think I'm asleep. They also go out most afternoon's and smoke. I know my brother sometimes takes these long midnight baths and smokes in there too. What im trying to say is he very regularly smokes it so im concerned. Im also worried that he could be doing other drugs because marijuana is a gateway drug and often leads to many other more serious drugs. What do I do? I dont know what I should do! I don't want to tell my parents about it because he will get in trouble. And I also am to scared to confront him about it and say be careful.