Here's a situation for you. I was a stoner for a good decade. Bought an 1/8th bag a day. Then I quit because I got pregnant and haven't touched it since. I have a home, two vehicles, a husband and a steady job with a great income.
My brother on the other hand has been a stoner for decades. It's immobilizes him and takes away every ounce of motivation. He is severely depressed and uses it as treatment. He's broken up his marriage, lost custody of his child and can't hold a steady job. He's a 32 year old man who just spent a year living on his friends couch. My parents have done everything they possibly can to help him get motivated and be a responsible adult. Nothing works.
Do you see the difference?
My brother on the other hand has been a stoner for decades. It's immobilizes him and takes away every ounce of motivation. He is severely depressed and uses it as treatment. He's broken up his marriage, lost custody of his child and can't hold a steady job. He's a 32 year old man who just spent a year living on his friends couch. My parents have done everything they possibly can to help him get motivated and be a responsible adult. Nothing works.
Do you see the difference?
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I think the worse thing about cannabis addiction is the addiction.
I am a forty year old man and have been smoking cannabis since I was nineteen, more or less regularly. I've got far in my professional life (I'm a successful entrepreneur and liked colleague) and in private life (I have a loving wife and wide circle of friends, as well as many trusted ones).
However, I am extremely addicted to cannabis. I don't need to smoke it everyday, but will go to extreme length to smoke. I buy and smoke until its all gone. I even go to work high and have actually learned to do practically everything stoned. The desire to get hight controls part of my life. I plan my days, my travel, choose events to attend to and now even have started risking my marriage for the high that I love.
I appreciate freedom and love over all, and now addiction is putting these at stake.
Firstly, I know I'm not free to do life choices as I know cannabis must be included in that. The idea of my life without cannabis seems empty, and scary for that reason. Cannabis gives my both relaxing comfort and liberation from boredom as my mind takes the turns it does (due my education I know that pure freedom does not exist, so lets not debate that).
Secondly, we're trying to have a child and I still can't give up, even if the medical science says I really should (we're both on our last years so there is no time to loose AND regular cannabis smoking does affect mens sperm count and form). So naturally my wife is not happy at all about what I am doing. I don't want to go into details, but she has all the reasons for doing it.
I don't really know when I became addicted to dope. I certainly wasn't the first ten years of semi regular use, but "quickly" came so. I have stopped for year here and there when I've lived in countries where its not common place.
Now I really don't know what to do. Or I do, I should stop at least for the time when we try and have a child. And all in all, I wish that I could get high and not be commanded by the drug. Forever. But perhaps I need to get a grip and stop once and for all.
How do I know I am addicted? For a number of reasons:
1. I often do things that I would not do since they include dope.
2. I risk my marriage because of dope.
3. I risk my health (weed is very carcinogenic) because of dope.
4. I hangout with bizarre crowds to get high.
5. My life plans involve getting high.
6. I buy dope, smoke some of it and throw the rest away to not be stoned all the time.
7. When I have weed, I smoke it as much as possible until its gone.
8. The idea of a sober life sounds horrifying, since smoking glorifies the best and the most mundane of moments.
9. I would like to smoke a spliff of nice rolled weed with a great filter right now.
10. I fear that I cannot sleep, be creative, have fun and get lifted of everyday stress and boredom without weed.
The list was easy to make and could have continued.
So what do you make of my story? What should I do (outside the obvious of stopping smoking at least until we have the child we so much want). Also very importantly, do you think there's a way to moderation after addiction. Some medical literature points out that for alcoholics its actually easier to become moderate than abstinent. But I have no idea if this is possible with cannabis addiction.
I am a forty year old man and have been smoking cannabis since I was nineteen, more or less regularly. I've got far in my professional life (I'm a successful entrepreneur and liked colleague) and in private life (I have a loving wife and wide circle of friends, as well as many trusted ones).
However, I am extremely addicted to cannabis. I don't need to smoke it everyday, but will go to extreme length to smoke. I buy and smoke until its all gone. I even go to work high and have actually learned to do practically everything stoned. The desire to get hight controls part of my life. I plan my days, my travel, choose events to attend to and now even have started risking my marriage for the high that I love.
I appreciate freedom and love over all, and now addiction is putting these at stake.
Firstly, I know I'm not free to do life choices as I know cannabis must be included in that. The idea of my life without cannabis seems empty, and scary for that reason. Cannabis gives my both relaxing comfort and liberation from boredom as my mind takes the turns it does (due my education I know that pure freedom does not exist, so lets not debate that).
Secondly, we're trying to have a child and I still can't give up, even if the medical science says I really should (we're both on our last years so there is no time to loose AND regular cannabis smoking does affect mens sperm count and form). So naturally my wife is not happy at all about what I am doing. I don't want to go into details, but she has all the reasons for doing it.
I don't really know when I became addicted to dope. I certainly wasn't the first ten years of semi regular use, but "quickly" came so. I have stopped for year here and there when I've lived in countries where its not common place.
Now I really don't know what to do. Or I do, I should stop at least for the time when we try and have a child. And all in all, I wish that I could get high and not be commanded by the drug. Forever. But perhaps I need to get a grip and stop once and for all.
How do I know I am addicted? For a number of reasons:
1. I often do things that I would not do since they include dope.
2. I risk my marriage because of dope.
3. I risk my health (weed is very carcinogenic) because of dope.
4. I hangout with bizarre crowds to get high.
5. My life plans involve getting high.
6. I buy dope, smoke some of it and throw the rest away to not be stoned all the time.
7. When I have weed, I smoke it as much as possible until its gone.
8. The idea of a sober life sounds horrifying, since smoking glorifies the best and the most mundane of moments.
9. I would like to smoke a spliff of nice rolled weed with a great filter right now.
10. I fear that I cannot sleep, be creative, have fun and get lifted of everyday stress and boredom without weed.
The list was easy to make and could have continued.
So what do you make of my story? What should I do (outside the obvious of stopping smoking at least until we have the child we so much want). Also very importantly, do you think there's a way to moderation after addiction. Some medical literature points out that for alcoholics its actually easier to become moderate than abstinent. But I have no idea if this is possible with cannabis addiction.
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