Heya everyone, thought I'd leave my experience here. I searched for this page sort of DURING my terrible experience, and reading them all screwed me up. I just want to leave my comment to try and help the people in the same position as I was.
Please read this whilst bearing in mind that I WAS FINE A FEW DAYS LATER. The horrible surreal feeling for the following few days GOES AWAY. For me it took a few days tops.
Another thing, you'll be paranoid right now. You'll be thinking that what i'm saying is fake, not real, 'set up' to trick you or something. Your mind will be doing crazy stuff. You'll be questioning everything I'm saying but bear with me!!!
I had a few puffs of a friend's weed, nobody I was super close with but we were pals. Instantly knew something was up and locked myself in my room. I entered what I can to this day only describe as another dimension and I was terrified. Like, pure terror. I've never felt anything like it. That faded, after what seemed like forever. In hindsight it's very hard to describe what it was I saw, but if you've experienced it too you'll know what I mean. Really strange, warped, fast portals. I can't remember if there were sounds, but if there were they were likely repetitive and eerie-ish?? Idk hahaha it's hard to describe, as you might know!!
After, I was sure I was going to die. Positive it was the end. I was freaking out over what i'd just seen. This was when I came to this thread and started reading and that's when it all kicked off in my head, the paranoia etc. My heartrate was through the roof at this point I ought to add. At one point I started clawing at my shelves - I even picked up a book and started aggressively opening it and shutting it whilst heavily breathing. (I know, weird as f**k. Didn't feel like I was controlling this)
I don't really know how long that went on for, but I slept eventually. I woke up and instantly felt screwed up, surreal, nothing was real etc. (THIS WENT AWAY DO NOT PANIC. My fear, if i recall right, was fear that i had tapped in to some unknown dimension in my trip and that I'd never be able to view our world again. I felt like nothing mattered because of this). It's a horrible horrible feeling, and my advice is to get on with things you enjoy - for me it helped to be away from people for a while except CLOSE friends. I told them how I felt, and googled about 'depersonalisation/derealisation'. It's a known thing and it ISN'T THE END OF THE WORLD. It fades, and for me it faded f*****g quickly considering the level of terror I experienced a few nights prior. I'm a fan of gaming, so i just chilled out, played some league of legends etc.
Another thing which helped me was drinking alcohol or smoking cigarettes. It relaxed me, in the sense that I could still have drugs that genuinely had positive effects on me - sort of like a peace of mind??
Just thought I'd write this because honestly it is an absolutely awful experience and I want to help anyone else who had a similar experience to mine. It does go away, and if you're reading this right now on a paranoid 'trip' - Positive thoughts, we've been through the same thing, and I feel literally 100% normal/'like I used to'. And this was after just a few days. Hang in there pal, you got this!!!
So this used to happen to me every time.
Here’s a few tips or things to do if you ever end up smoking again.
1) Being some place you love ESPECIALLY NATURE will help you feel relaxed and happy
2) smoke less, if someone passes you the joint but you’re already close to your limit just say something like, “I’m good” or “no I’m at my limit” but still take it and pass it to the next person
3) stay hydrated! Dehydration was my problem. (Bring a bag wherever you go and have a LARGE water bottle in there, my friend brings a gallon bottle of water no joke)
4) also with the bag thing have snacks in there. ( it might calm you down or keep you lucid if you’re focusing on eating, this has helped me personally a bunch)
5) if you ever feel yourself losing it focus on your breathing and make sure before you start that you’re comfortable
6) I personally like to smoke at night so then I can sleep and wake up to a new day
7) this is completely optional and possibly risky? Try smoking alone in a comfortable environment just to see what the effects are to you of it. (I did this and found out a bunch about what to expect)
8) surround yourself with people you’re comfortable with so then if you’re tripping bad you’re not afraid to say anything
9) if you have anxiety or depression and start smoking weed with people right off the bat it could cause you to have bad “trips”, so maybe try smoking alone where you can just be yourself and not afraid of judgment. (My best “trips” are when I’m alone)
UM YEAH THATS MOSTLY IT!
Some of that was pretty obvious but if anyone read this far you’re an angel!