At 16 it is normal to be sorting out your feelings. Family pressure, or sometimes just the normal thing that all your relatives do ,was get a girlfriend, get married and have kids. I dated in High school. I never had problems performing. But it was more like a game. You get a girlfriend you go out until you have sex, and then game over. the whole point was to get her to sleep with you. After that it was onto somebody new and pretty much the same thing. When I was 18,I had my own apt.,a woman I worked with came over and we had sex. She was 10 years older than me. That was a little creepy.I got to the point I had figured I really wanted to be with guys. I was at a friends, a guy and a girl she knew were there. My friend wanted to have sex with the guy, so we all went to bed and then changed partners,so I ended up with her girlfriend and she got what she wanted.It was cool, because there was another guy there. Of course then her friend liked it and wanted to see me again. I would mess around with guys that would stayed over,when I was 12 to 14, just a curiosity thing,and nothing ever happened twice.When I double dated ,I was always more curious about what the guy in the front seat was doing, than the girl I was with. I started going to bars about 6 months after I was own my own. Yes, I would have liked to have kids. And some couples are ok with that, I dated a guy who was married, there was an extra bedroom, and when he had a guy over, he slept in that room ,and his wife slept in their regular bedroom. In the morning his kids would come in a wake us up. It was certainly an interesting arrangment. I would use straight porn magazines,but only ones with guys in the picture too. I worked with a guy who knew I was gay, and there was a funny part of a movie, he took it home to watch. He said it got him hard seeing two guys even though he was straight. I have met guys who married had kids then divorced and came out at 60. And a lot of married guys will go to cruising areas, like a park or rest stop to have sex.And yes you could be bi. I have met guys who sleep with both sexes. You have a few more years until you should decide what you feel best doing.I had an uncle who would date, get engaged, then they would call it off. He did this 4 or 5 times. He never got married,and it was a small town, so I don't know if he ever did anything about it,but he's still single. I think back over my younger years and I was always curious, but didn't associate it with sex at the time. But I never saw my Dad or any other adult naked. I would hold the ladder for my uncle when he painted the house,and I could see up his shorts. We were on vacation and rented the first floor of a house and the owners lived upstairs. Their son who was 18 or 19, would cume up from surfing, take a shower outside, It had walls around it,come out with a towel around him and go up the steps to the second floor,I tried to be around when he got through surfing,but I still never connected it with sex.It was an infatuation,nothing else. The only guys I ever saw naked were the guys in gym class. And you didn't want to get caught looking too long. I was really confused when I got my apt,and really had a hard time admitting I was gay. Then everyone at work knew and it was no big deal, I was a chef, but when I got into managment, I went back to not letting anyone at work know, and I'm a masculine guy, So it was always one or two that wondered, but I never did anything with my employees. I can't say one way or the other, and it is a lot easier now than it was then.But I was lucky,it was before Aids started, so the worst thing was an std, and getting a script for pennecilin from your Dr.. And there wasn't the internet at the time. I turned 18 the year they stopped the draft for Vietnam. It wasn't like now when they read the names on a sunday political show, It was 400 casualties this week,and that was every week for years. I know guys who have been together for 35 years,and another couple who met in the service and have been together ever since. Looking back I guess my curiousity ,I never connected with sex. I remember the first time they said hell on tv, and it was a big deal. I had friends ,and we skipped school and got high, but you smoked weed or mesculine or LSD. Did it for about a year, then started working at 15, and stopped all that. And I worked long hours in the restaraunt business, I have had 3- 6 month relationships, a little dating, and have been single most of my life.It is not an easy life, but it is getting better.Everything you see on tv is usually effeminate men, or drag queens. That is such a small part of who gay men really are. We work construction, are engineers, about any profession you can think of, and we are not noticed. The Flambouyant people have the right to do what they do, and that is the only thing most people see. It is a tough thing to work out, but I know I was born this way, I am who I am, and wouldn't have wanted to live my life as a lie because people are narrow minded.Hope this helps.
Thx for the reply, I read it all and its interesting... Thank you for your answer and I think that I just need to wait a couple more years , till 18 and my own apt. ... thanks again :)
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