Anxiety and depression for days after binge drinking

Im 34 now and have decided to actually try to curb myself when drinking

I just wanted to check back in with my success story progress... So it's been since mid October (it's an hour before Christmas now) and life is so good. I figured out that not only did I have a drinking problem but it really mixed in with a blood sugar problem (Type II Diabetes or Hyperglycemia or ? ?) - anyway, I had to stay completely off alcohol and completely off any kind of sugars or processed food carbohydrates. I also did a LOT of praying and spiritual work plus a few (not many) AA meetings here n there. I feel better than I have since I can't remember. Parties get boring after 60-90 minutes and even concerts lose their intensity. But I'm ALIVE! I'm finally losing weight and not really even trying. Just eating right and working out. NO BREAD, NO SUGARS, NO ALCOHOL!! I fell like I will get to live a LONG happy healthy life. Oh yea, making MUCH better decisions these days. I wish you all well....See my earlier posts when I was just coming out of ABSOLUTE LIVING HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still have a hospital bill that I'll be paying off for a year. But hey, I'M ALIVE...AND SO ARE YOU!!!!

I've been reading some of these posts and I can totally relate, for me it usually starts out as me craving a beer or a glass of wine and thinking that I can stop after a couple but I just keep drinking and and drinking until I feel like crap have a sleepless night because I'm drunk wake up and be sick all day and start drinking again so that I can "feel better" it's just a vicious cycle and like most of u said, I feel great when I am not drinking but right now I'm exhausted, I'm having really bad palpitations and really wish I had stayed a way from alcohol. Anyway, I wanted to share this link with u... It's about taking a break from alcohol for 30 days... Hope it helps u the way it's helping me! ***edited by moderator*** web addresses not allowed

Right now I'm in bed after a second night of troubled sleep. I keep waking up every 1-4 hours freezing, shivering violently, muscles tense, depressed and anxious/very scared for no reason. I've never been much of a drinker at all but a couple nights ago i blacked out for the first time while drinking vodka and red bull. I had a case of psychosis brought on by a severe(SEVERE) panic attack(the only one I've ever had) about 10 months ago that lasted about 5 months which I ended up requiring professional help to get through, I still occasionally psych myself out and feel the inexplicable psychotic sensations along with momentary anxiety. I went sober for over nine months (including nicotine and caffeine) following the panic attack due to the fact that it was caused by Adderall abuse, and started back up with recreational drug use for the month of December with the intention of going back to sobriety for the New Year. I started off slow with alcohol with no problem and drank 2 or three times since. I also started up an old nasty habit of using marijuana constantly every day once I eased into it. After the night I first blacked out the next morning was awful, depression, anxiety, extreme loss of appetite, mood swings, inexplicable chills, social withdrawal, and (the latter 3 resulted after using marijuana to cure my bad feelings) which went on to last for the next three or four days until now. The strange thing is that it brought back many of the symptoms I remember while burning in psychotic hell, which I expect was very much caused by alcohol's stress inducing after effects interacting with the fact that a former psychotic has no business smoking marijuana. As far as drug use goes, it looks as though at 21 I have nowhere left to hide and its back to the straight and narrow for me for good, hopefully. I was wondering if there are any good ways of speeding up this recovery and whether or not anyone would describe their experiences as even partially psychotic in feeling. Up until my panic attack I haven't had much experience with my brain malfunctioning while sober, so the difference between purebred panic and psychosis is unclear. Thanks.

You are alcoholics. Stop drinking.. it ruins everything in your life

im glad i found this, i promise myself to only drink few beers but end up out all night drinking everything, the fear lasts for days. Its time to stop completely cause i cant cut down

I just don't know... I'm a good girl all week, but when the weekend hits, I lose control. I always want to do better, I always know I need to control myself. I feel anxious about my 1st drink.. Because I have a mostly sh*tty history with alcohol. (I'm 26, 5'2" and 110 lbs so it doesn't take much.) If I want to be better around it, I have to do what I want/need to do and keep it to a minimum. But this passed weekend was another total failure. I couldn't feel much lower, considering my husband who I love more than life itself basically called me an alcoholic for the 1st time. I can't stand the thought of the panic attack that's probably waiting for me. I don't think I'm alcoholic, but I KNOW I'm a binge drinker. How can I want to be better and still fail so miserably? I don't even remember/know how it happened, but it looks like I fell pretty hard on my chin.. it's scratched and tender, and I have a big gash (from my teeth I guess) on my lower lip. It's disgusting. It makes me even more nervous and anxious... I have had panic episodes before where I can only describe the feeling as pre-seizure.. I've never had one but I can only imagine what it's like. I have no one to talk to... So I'm glad I found this forum to just be painfully honest in. I hope I can change for the better... So this doesn't have to be such a painful topic forever. :(

Everybody is talking about the same symptoms that come after binge drinking. It is clear that alcohol precedes the anxiety, depression, fears, panic, suicidal thoughts, shivering, feelings of senselessness and worthlessness - in at least some of us. But it could be a consequence of a deeper problem, such as abuse or abandonment/neglect during childhood that makes us WANT to binge-drink even though we know what follows. I have never been to therapy (I am in my thirties), but I feel like we put ourselves in situations -- with people, or by making poor decisions -- where we feel bad, worthless, undeserving of respect and happiness, which triggers pain from the past. We might actually be very ambitious and successful - total goal getters - which is not unusual for anyone who had a troubled childhood. But, at the end of any episode of success, we allow ourselves to fall into self-destruction. We have a tendency to sabotage our own lives, and binge-drinking is just one of the thinsg we do to "accomplish" that. We can't change our childhoods - they are integrated into our personalities - but we can change how we treat ourselves. We integrated the pain into our souls, now it is time to integrate some other things that are foreign to us, such as discipline that does not expire after a few weeks or months; self-respect - meaning we do the things that we think a person with dignity would do; we say "I can do it," instead of "I can't"; we start thinking more than feeling; we accept sadness, grief, and frustration as part of life, and reject acting upon those feelings; we stop dwelling on our anger; we embrace reality and reduce our expectations about things we can't change - especially from other people. On the one hand, we are self-destructive and our worst enemy because we feel guilty about something (e.g. guilty that someone hurt us when we were kids); on the other hand, we are spoiling ourselves by indulging our laziness, melanchoily and lack of discipline.

Somebody in this blog posted about adrenal burnout. I looked it up and I think this is what I have. Look it up, guys.

Just cold turkey everything and live a life you want and create good memories that you can remember. Be open about what the alcohol and drugs do to you with friends and people and if they pressure you get new friends... My own pep=talk as well.. life sucks when you binge drink each time you go out.

I have been in my bed for the past two days all because I had one awful night of binge drinking and ended up falling down the stairs in my home. I fell backwards and could have hit my head on the marble floor at the bottom, but fortunately I have a dog gate there to prevent my dogs going upstairs, so that protected my head. I'm in bed because my body is badly bruised and swollen and I'm so depressed. I can't remember leaving the club, can't remember getting in a taxi and I also left my keys in the front door. This is not the first time I've binged out like this, but I'm particularly upset and angry with myself because after the last time (3 months ago) I promised myself it would never happen again....and the time before!! This time it's different because I can't remember anything and that is scary. Normally, I can remember things, but it's just blank. I even called my friend to ask if she saw me leave the club and she told me she put me in a taxi, thank god for that. It's my conscience that kills me, and causes me such depression, I hate myself, I'm like Dr Jeckyle & Mr Hyde. I do and say things I shouldn't and would never dream of if I was sober because when I'm sober I''m quite quiet. This time, I don't know what I've said or done which is even worse. I'm hoping that I can be strong and learn a lesson from this, and like you say Guest, either stop drinking completely or have some self control, which I know I'm capable of. Have been very good for past three months if I'm out, I've been drinking only a few and plenty of water in between. Hopefully by writing this, it will be a conscious effort to make a change for good this time. Like you Guest, I want good memories, not things that I'm ashamed of......

Checking back again. Well over the past 6 moths I've been sober except for 2 relapses. I'm on another sober streak and I feel so good. My health is better, my thinking is better (and more peaceful), Work is easier, I work out almost every day now, I don't get sick, I'm in a new relationship with a beautiful super sexy stable best friend awesome person. I'm going to AA once a week and after many LAME meetings (that still helped) I found one that's awesome and inspriational. My life was LIVING HELL on and off for YEARS!! Yes some wonderful party times, but not close good enough to be worth the absolute hell I was putting ME and my body through (and friends and family) I can tell you all this from experience and reading hundreds of posts all over the place and hearing all the stories in AA. IT WILL GET WORSE the OLDER and more ADDICTED you get!!!!!!!! If you have anxiety, depression, insomnia from drinking...If you keep drinking IT WILL GET WORSE and IT WILL STEAL MORE AND MORE OF YOUR LIFE AWAY!!!!!!!! There are so many things waiting for you in sobriety!! I live in an awesome magical world. I still work a job that can be stressful and all the usual things life throws at me. I NEVER have to beg God for my life that I ruined. I never have brutal anxiety and alcohol depression. IT GETS WAAAAAAY BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this made me tear up reading this because it's exactly my situation. I feel like I have a problem. Which to me is so weird to say because i grew up as a strong christian totally against getting drunk and stuff, not from a drinking household... we never had alco in the house when iw as growing up..not even wine! but it was never imposed on me or strict rules or anything -- when i was in high school I would go to house parties and have 1 or 2 drinks or whatever. but never dreamt i'd hit the level ive hit now.i dont have a problem with drinking daily or anything but a problem with binge drinking. i just cant seem to stop it... like i always end up saying things i never ever would want to have said..or doing things i regret or really putting myself in dangerous situations! And despite telling myself not to lose control like that again and despite feeling ashamed and embarrassed, somehow i always end up in the same situation.I can't talk properly, i cry, i talk crap to people, and lately end up going home by myself and not being safe, putting myself in situations where something bad could happen to me...but at the time i never think of it like that and i just want to get home.the last 2 times ive been out i have sevre black outs the nxt day where i cant remember a single thing accept for the start of my night and going home. its gotten to a point where the nxt day i always feel like crawling in a hole and just going M.I.A. for example tonight i want to disable my facebook because i just dont really want to talk to neone or hear anybody telling me what other dumb things i did or said...can anybody relate?? do i have an alcohol problem or is it more a problem with my personality - like i am an emotional person deep down...think about things a lot.... is this just not mixed well with drinking a lot? is that why some people can just have fun and not feel bad about anything they might do? i just always feel ashamed and wish i could run away and hide....

that is completely uncanny ... i am the exact same... i used to be really close to God and at times i really miss it and really miss the person i was...but in saying that i know i have parts of myself that don't fit to that mould either...its like bi polar lol like u jus hav 2 parts of urself.... and when i drink its even worse, i hear things ive done or said and its just so completely out of character. its scary isnt it :( i am definitely of the same thought that its actually a real problem for me now.... my body and my personality just doesn do well with it, and i shouldnt compare or care about others' experiences drinking and what is okay for them..instead i should focus on what is okay for me. and this is not okay!

hi, it is the 21/03/2011 monday and i drank on the 19/03/2011 saturday, i went out with my friends had about 13 pints of budwieser and 2 shots of sambuca... next morning severe axiety and vomiting from the alcohol and has caused my immune system to drop and to catch a flu virus, which is really gettin me down exactly as you have explained! i think you hvae to get your head around the fact that when you drink your poisoning your body with deadly chemicals... alchohol is a drug and effects the body in many ways more dan anyone even thinks, some not and some severely... the key to my recovery from alchohol is to drink at leased 10 litres of water asap to clean your system out, it leaves you pissing like a horse but it helps to rid of the alchohol from your system, take some berocca or multi vitimins help too! And dont forget im searching to find an answer to this problem and the answer to it, Is it all really worth having a drink to leave yourself sick for a week afterwards? Something tells me im not going to put myself through the torture of this "period of sickness".. hope this helps.