My son gets angry for nothing fight with us all the time but when he smoke weed he is not angry
I really like (love) getting high, and I'm quite mellow while I am high. I (was) smoking every evening after work, and pretty much the entire weekend - bong hits and edibles. When I wasn't high, I would notice myself being much more irritated and angry about the littlest of things. I would have rants and tantrums that I never did before I started getting high. The anger would come a feeling of frustration with other people, they were stupid, inconsiderate, or didn't "understand" me. But then I realized the problem was with me - I couldn't understand them, I was confused, and I was impatient. A week ago, I ran out (and my card is now expired), so I decided to quit. I have already noticed a difference, I have more patience, less confusion, and I'm not angry all the time. I think it varies with people.
Hello all, I have read all the comments twice ...it makes me very sad to know this happens actually and we still put up to this behavior . Why because off love ?. I do not want to get anyone bored by repeating same story but I feel that I have to tell someone and maybe someone can read and maybe someone can tell me it will get better one day .
Short story , you meet this wonderful man that is nothing like your last relationship ... very smart ..educated ...sociable , charming and lots of promises in the horizon ...you fell in love and not just fell in love he just flips you upside down that you don't see anything else then him. You let your guard down , dedicate yourself to him totally you start to plan ...dream ...bring him to your family ...they adore him...go meet his parents they love you .
Now let aside is a long distance relationship and you plan to move there for him for you ...for us ...prepare your work hand over for 6 months because you are educated person and responsible and you will always leave a place for "Hello" or after you leave , you have the best references in the world ...and then this happens .
He started to smoke again. after almost 6 months free ...I tried to help him through we went to a get away trip for one week ( was horrible ..from fights to screaming to pushing to verbaly abusing to threatening ) but I said it will go away just a little bit more . He then transformed in this wonderful man ...angry sometimes but we were planning doing sports vacations laughing ...Oh. I miss the laughing ...Not perfect but still a dreamy relationship .
Back to his country same environment same smoking friends same habits .
2 weeks when we fighted every day for the stupidest things were everything is my fault as I am triggering him all the time ...he gets triggered if I pick up ...if I don't pick up ...if I text ..if I don't text ...what I say ..what I don't say and how I say it ...It gets me insane and I just cant ...this is not a life anymore ...He was not answering the calls some nights ...waking meup in the morning that he is sorry and he is an ashole and he just smoked and fainted on the couch ...Should I believe it when I know he Is a chronic liar not just about the smoking but for everything else .
He came to visit me the whole family came was wonderful no smoking the man of my dreams ...I really wanted to break up turned me around that he will change and we will be happy ever after .
Sorry to say but he went back after 2 days he was back ...angry all the time smoking every day and the verbal abuse is very bad ...I have never ever in my life heard or been with a person that can say or be so mean ...I just find it disrespectfull and mean ...Why will you say you want to be with a women if you call her a b***h and f*****g id**t and the most stupid women on the earth ...and go f**k yourself and go hang yourself ...and the threatening ohoooo the he will kill me or himself ...its like a horror movie that never ends ...
I do not say I am perfect ...at all ...but I never treated anyone like this in my life or I will ever be with someone that does this to me . Yes I love him but after all is this what I want for me ...for my kids ?
And you know what hurts the most is that you once believed him and every day that trust is gone ....and what it does to your self confidence ...I feel alone ...I feel worthless ..I feel abandoned ...I feel misunderstood ....I fell nobody just because he made me feel like this. And I should not I am young and not the most beautifull but not ugly and not the most smartest but I work double then everyone else...I have a career my own house ...I am humble ...a lot of defects but if you put them together makes a wonderful thing ...this is how my dad described me since I was little.
Right now we don't talk we had plans for this summer but I am about to cancel them all .
And right now I am lost ...I just want to not cry anymore and wake up when it is not hurting anymore.
Sorry for the long post also English is my second language . Thank you for reading and peace and love to all of you
I can't believe what I just read, our lives are almost identical, we have 2 beautiful children and been together 10 years and weed has taken over our lives.
Last year my husband moved out because he couldn't cope with me not understanding that its ok to smoke weed and give me and the kids sh*t, his expectations of me are just ridiculas, I have to have everything done, so he has nothing to think about when he's home because he works so much harder that everyone else and we are all out to get him, it 's just hell and I thought we got past it, but its reared its ugly head again last week, if I knew life was going to be like this I wouldn't have stuck around.
I hate it and can't believe how selfish he is, I would never put my family through this, why don't they care enough for us to stop, they are only going to be sorry when they are on their own!!
The flipside is its led to me making choices not to take opportunities too and its led to my notorious and unpredictable immature rages. I'm in my 40s have trained regular for 25 years in not a small child so thing get smashed and broken then im all guilty, and ashamed. Its so so worse for my OH, excelty what every other partner has said and she is ultimately my one and I refuse to let weed ruin it. I can clear my body in three weeks and my head its clear in four weeks, I've had a few T-breaks in the past.
This time im going to break until Easter, with a view of never smoking again. I dont smoke tobacco at all so the physical side of abstaining isnt there, i find starting to dream again difficult has it wakes me up a lot at first.
I do find Indica and kush much worse for anger but best for muscle aches and restlessness pls, etc
I mean even most hybred, atm looking back through my notes and logs. Pure Ak has been the most stable for me. Sativa dont really cause me anger as such but sync me out so much and I feel like I'm in speed and talking c**p all the time if i over do it. Also the come down is speedy too.
I am convinced of the medical side and would like to explore micro dosing but not until Easter, the right now I'm over it and when Easter comes id like to switch of my lights for good.
This isn't too bad, i once made a oz last me a year.. I remember that year! Seriously though im at about half oz a week and it's far too much, time to move on.
The clarity of no weed is cool, i can try to learn lucid dreaming again which is by far the best trip ever, just takes a lot of clean structured living which is not a bad thing.
So I'm here to support the idea that weed come down causes a massive dip in my MOA, (MAO's?) This in turn leads to me losing sense of control and turns me into a tantrum throwing evil twisted and very hateful person.
Its not like poisonous alcohol, cannabis contains over 100 cannabinoids each one effects our own physical cannabinod system, everyone is slightly different, every su spieces and even every strain interacts with ones own system differently, top that with smoking far far to much. Lets face it I know i can some a tenth of my standard bowl and still be toasted. I could go hours without another hit, but i just smash it to hell, work is intense and hitting a bowl is loverly, but its not worth the craziness anymore.
Its hard, I'm here to say im throwing my lighter into the ring too. But if id being and I have being confronted with this from another person esp a loved one i may have gone boom.
I don't won't this persona in my life, and I'm sure as hell my amazing fiancee doesn't and there little more she will tolerate and fair play ive being awful exactly the same as the others on here.
My ideal would be a selection that i have maybe smoke occasionally, maybe micro dosing, but right now it's total break, i don't know if I'll make it to Easter with a completely clean sheet bug lets have a go.l eh?
So maybe ill be back at Easter and hopefully clean.
Goodluck, if in doubt give it 35 days and see how you feel, even if you hate the sharp jaggy clear world, you'll have saved lots of stash or cash and that first hit will be like nothing youve smoked before.
See you at Easter
Heres to a bright and clear new year!
Goodluck you all.
So i still think MJ has a place medically, and for me micro dosing is probbably the way ro go. But to be fair maybe im just bored of being stoned..maybe 25 yrs is enough.
At the moment i think .5g every 9 to 14 days is where im going after Easter. Ill be rich and clean, ffs three weeks ago id do a gram with my morning coffee seems obscene now, but then i smoked 20 tobacco roll ups a day until a couple of years ago and now smoking tobacco full stop seems completely ludicrous! Addiction / dependency is a funny old thing.
Here's to a clean, clear and happy 2019.
Update at Easter