I started using all and everything at 13(i am 24 today) heroin, crack ,coke my choice in the main was heroin. I used on and off for years.. not by choice nut going to jail.
I went on the methadone in October 2002. i found out i was pregnant April 2003 and had my daughter shortly after..... on i think 40 or 60 mls.
with one slip up about a year later i went back up into the 100s. and have not used H since.
Since March 2004 I have been decreasing.....until Friday of feb 12 2009 i took my last drink of 10 mls. not a lot considering i was up in the 100s.
I just woke up on Sat morning grabbed my juice and went to take it and i just stopped and said I don't need this.... I DON'T NEED METHADONE. It was like a light that turned on after being in the dark for 6 years. I really didn't feel much until 7pm..I was becoming restless and moved my legs and feet and so on. then i went to bed at 9-10pm and tossed and turned with a rapit rapid heart beat all night. i guess i fell asleep cause morning came, all today (day2) i feel a bit light headed no physical symptoms yet.
My question is what more shall i expect. 10 mls! I believe more or the mental addiction and emotional issues. I am on effexor and it is helping with my anxiety.
I am also looking for more info for life after being a 6 year slave to drinking a bitter tangy liquid that made me feel "normal" every day!
NA in my thought thinks very low of juice drinkers(shame) and that support is not an option. books? web sites? groups?
It is hard to break a routine of everyday for 6 years i have been on juice longer then i battled my bad drug addiction. ANY SUGGESTIONS WOULD HELP.
THANK YOU