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Ok, I just registered on this site sheerly for this question. Well, some backstory for preface is that I've been on Methadone Maintanence at 80mgs for the past 7 years and after having finally realized that I had in total paid almost 30 friggin GRAND to the god awful place, I decided to c/t. And thats not even including the gas to get there either. I live 40 miles away from the clinic if that can offer some perspective on the severety of the outright sexual assault on my wallet and bank account. I decided to go c/t because I read that 99 percent of people who go c/t by choice, as opposed to by force from having been thrown in jail for extended periods of time, just outright FAIL at it. So given that the majority of my life has revolved around martial arts (Im an instructor), I figured that I needed to prove my own will and strength to myself again as often as petulent rash young men tend to do. I'm now on day 6 and am NECK DEEP in it. Now I know a thing or two about the brains pleasure centers, seratonine, dopamine, and the epinephrine release triggers, so when it gets to a point to where I think I am about to completely LOSE IT, I masturbate as both a dopamine trigger and a distraction from my calf muscles attempting to claw their way out from underneath my skin. My point is this, I'll pick something online as a "stimuli" and literally SECONDS after I start watching it, I begin to feel like I am going to friggin hyperventalate. I start trembling, and my heart begins going absolute APE SH** in its beating rhythm. Now granted all of this instantly ceases after I'm "finished", but all of that borderline panic-attack fuel previous to the moment of climax, no joke intended here, sucks the fun and enjoyment out of it. I literally have to close my eyes, take off my headphones, and take continuous deep breaths in and slowly out. I also stretch like crazy as if I have just woken up from seasonal hibernation having caused my muscles to borderline atrophy if they arent all stretched out. I assume that it is because all of my senses going psycho-bonkers-crazy from being FORCEFULLY rebooted and from no longer being sedated as a whole. Am I correct in this assumption? Now I know that the acute precipitrated w/d that I am drowning in right now will begin to slow down in a few days, but will this "hyper-sensitivty" thing dissapate as well? I'm lucky enough to have kept myself in "fighting shape" over the years with the result of it being that the w/d hits in waves instead of being constant and I dont have to worry about any kind of nausea or diahrrea. And I actually can get a couple hours of sleep if I pound down alarmingly high doses of diphenhydramine (bendryl). But again, why is my sexual errogenous zone sending me into a borderline panic attack?

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Stay far, far away from diphenhydramine if you are withdrawing from any kind of opiate. It may seem to make sense because NORMALLY it induces sleep. However, in an opiate addicted individual, it exacerbates and even causes Restless Legs Syndrome! Trust this recovering heroin addict. Ans ibuprofen? Don't bother. The pain you feel in caused by your brain. It creates false pain to trigger craving. Just have in there. The 4th day is the worst and the day most addicts go back. You can do it. If I can, anyone can.
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This is not my first time kicking heroin cold turkey. Two years ago I was deep into a 6 year habit that had taken not only my soul from me but took all my relationships, finances, and plans for the future. By what I later realized was a blessing in disguise, I was arrested and sentenced to a year in county jail. I went through withdrawals cold turkey in the most uncomfortable setting I could imagine. I had all the symptoms, even vomiting, because of where I was everything seemed to be magnified by ten times. By the second week I just felt icky and feverish, it took a month to feel somewhat normal and get regular sleeping and eating habits. After a year in there getting myself back on track I was released and granted the chance to start over with my family, which was really the best thing I could have ever wished for. I did all the right things once I was home, got healthy, repaired all my relationships, got an amazing job, and was truly grateful for a second chance at life. ........until... About 2 months ago I started hanging around the wrong people and found myself slipping back into an adiction. So here I am now I haven't done anything in 24 hours, my eyes are starting to water and I know what is about to follow. I want to get past the withdrawl and stay clean but I'm honestly dreading it. I feel so alone, ashamed, weak, guilty. It's hard and I don't know how I'll do it on my own. I'm getting flashbacks of lying on a jail cell floor throwing up and trying not to sh*t myself at the same time. I have off work tomorrow but not the next day which I'm assuming will be the worst. Does anyone have any tips to make this easier? My only ammo at the moment is 3 aspirin pills.
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Day 11 and I feel like kryptonite has been draped around my neck.. 2 back surgeries 6 weeks apart because it was botched was taking 90mg ms contin with 10mg straight percs no aceto. For 3 yrs. because of nerve damage.. I finally made a conscious descion that I no longer wanted or needed to be in a bubble. I'm as tough as they come but this is purgatory..I was prescribed Clonidine which helps with the chills but the fatigue and body pain is horrendous. I needed these meds. this I know..and it's time to pay the piper..Its a mental thing..never quit..you are more than you can imagine..as far as the body pain withdrawal..I've felt worse..Pain has been my friend for a long time..my advise..have a plan..take a week off of work..hot showers..hydrate..supplement..talk to a Doc..my pain management Doc is amazing..I think he admires the fact that I'm honest..be honest with yourself..ain't nothin but a thang
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methadone addiction of 18 years. i too have chronic pain and major back problems, i fear going off the drug for that reason and the withdrawls. I'm wondering how you are doing
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This is my experience. Started using at 20 recreationally to cope with school, 72hrs of work and a wife (yeah we got married younge). At 1st it was harmless 1 to 2 Loratabs a day for about a year. Then it went to 4 and 5 Loratabs a day. Fast forward 4 years 2 car accidents later and the monkey on the back becomes a ape. What I thought was harmless now consumes my life 15 to 20 norco 10/325 a day blowing threw a prescription of 120 in less than a week. All along I was keeping up with work, school and her. I became national recognized in my field with many merits. But I got sick of depending on these little slices of heaven to get threw the day. Not to mention 3 yrs ago my father died of scirosis of the liver from them. So I detoxed ct took a week off work and just did it. No otc, no benzos, nothing worst time in my life. About 28 days clean I relapsed. I go on a binge of 8 to 10 a days for 2 weeks. Then I come to a dilemma I don't wanna go threw wds again so I hit the Internet. I have a huge supply of addis at my disposal prescribe but don't take them. So I try them to cope with the symptoms, take one 50mg every 12 hour. I know it's a big risk cause all vitals are heightened during wd and so forth. But it's a chance I was willing to take. I'm 2 days in and I swear to you I could run a marathon. I have no withdraw symptoms except diahrea that I'm using Imodium for. It has taken the wd symptoms and made them nonexistent except mild rls which I get very badly for some reason. But it's nothing like before. Just sharing my experience not saying it works for everyone
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Danm kid, please back off. I might take. 6 roxy 30s a day and when I dont haeve any its aweful . I am 50 and wish I never had my first back surgery. Now working on my 7th and two total hip replacements will the madness ever end not if you dont stop it or die. Please get some help.you wont be able to come off all that by yourself. Good luck,babe
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Did you get the help you needed? Do you have a list to help with withdrawls? I to have the same story as you and need help with stopping.
thanks
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I've known about loperamide for a couple of years now and it absolutely does work for withdrawals. I'm no longer afraid to run out of my tramadol now because I don't have to go through so much misery anymore. It is a God send.
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Curious, arebu still clean
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Ok so I have read some of these stories and I am going through opiate withdrawal right now. Norcos precs anything I could get my hands on. I haven't told anyone this but I pop about 6-10 at a time around every 2-3 hours. I started this addition right after my sister died. She was addicted to these same things and for some weird reason it made me feel closer to her cuz I was popping what she couldn't anymore. My sister didn't die from overdose and for some reason that's really important to me. But I'm getting off the point. The withdrawals r really bad right now. I'm scared I have been in the er the last two nights and tonight I got a script and idk if I wanna fill it. I need something to help this pain. Anything. Please any help would be amazing. I have 4 babies I need to stay alive for and my husband and family. I won't let them loose me like we lost my sister. Thanks for reading Ashley
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Good luck. Been there and its not fun
Yuk
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I feel what you're saying. I've been an addict most of my life and I'm 46. I've been on Suboxone for over 4 years now, and I've started this messed up cycle of taking a "vacation" from them and doing oxy's. The switch back to suboxone used to be easy, now it's terrifying. I've been sent into precipitated withdrawals now 3 times, and it gets worse every time. Now I'm having to wait out the sickness and suffer because I'm scared to death to get the PW'Ds again. That is something I wouldn't wish on my worse enemy. I have a ton of suboxone and can't take it. So here I am sick and crying and can't do anything but wait it out. I feel so stupid for doing this to myself. But, we're addicts. It's what we do. I wonder if it will ever end.

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There's nothing, you just have to stay hydrated, try to eat, take vitamins (double dose) and stay near a bathroom. There's no miracle otc cocktail that'll help. Only thing that helps are prescribed meds.
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Sam,
I know this post is coming car too late. Bc I just came across it. I just wanted to ask how your prices went getting off 150mg of oxy. And
How you are doing now.
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