Dec the 13th last year i had my first abortion, i was 11 weeks pregnant.
i am 26 years old.. i was single at the time this happened. i just got in from work, and i relized i had put on weight when normally i loose weight at work! so i done a pregnant test and yes it come up positive. i was in shock i didn't know weather to feel excited or scared!! and of course the father of this baby was a backpacker, just a bit of fun at the time.. left me in the hardest decision of my life!! i love kids and cant wait to have one..
i member waking up after the operation and asked " is the baby gone" the nurse replied " yes its all over". straight away i started crying my eyes out and felt like the biggest prick on the planet.
since then it has been in my mind, 3 months later and i still cant get over it. i feel i have done the right thing because i would of been a single parent, money at the time was hard as well... but i cant help but think how could i do that to my own child? did i have a boy or girl?? wat did the child look like? will i ever be able to have kids again?? i still feel hurt and feel like i have made a huge mistake. its soo hard to let something soo beautiful go..
i havent been able to talk to anyone about this, so any comments from anyone would be fantastic...
i just wanna be back happy again, and to know i made the right decision.
thanks
I am sorry for this unfortunate event. Ive been there before and the feeling realllyyyy stinks. All i can say is, its going to get better. Weigh the pros and cons and just BE STRONG. no ones perfect but as life goes on we learn.
Have a blessed day!