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Hi everyone! My name is Brian and I am a recovered Alcoholic! I am only 30 years old now, but I new I was an alcoholic at the age of 19. I always blacked out, always forgot what had happened, felt worried and depressed in the morning. I always craved that next drink early in morning! At 24 years old, I went to the hospital, because I was going threw crazy withdrawls, and felt like I was dying! The doctors said I had liver damage, my asphogus was bleeding, and it was eating at my heart! I ended up going to treatment, but after a year of sobriety, I drank again! I ended up fighting alcohol for some years, struggling to stay sober. I now am sober and have been for a good amount of time! F you need help to stop drinking, look me up on Facebook, and I would LOVE to help you, I know exactly how hard it is, so please hit me up! My name on facebook is "Brian Godson Banfield"
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a few weeks ago, 4 to be exact, I went out with one of my friends for dinner and drinks.I had a little too much to drink. I remember up to the point where we had finished our dinner and then going to the bar. after that I remember parts of the night. I remember two guys offering us drinks, I know is not something smart to do , i never actually accept any drinks from strangers, I remember all 4 of us talking, and then after that I don't remember until I came back from the bathroom with my friend and the guys had already left, and even that is blurry. We left soon after and met my sister outside who was waiting for us because a dinner and a few drinks turned out to be till 3 am. The next day and until now I worry so much about what I had done that night, the moments I can't remember.I keep imagining my self doing something wrong with those two guys. I keep asking my friend about it and she assures me that everything was fine and I didn't do anything bad, Apparently I never moved from the bar the whole night until I followed her to the bathroom. I am pretty sure my friend is tired of me asking her about it. so why do I worry so much? how can I put this behind?

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Oh my gosh!! I'm so glad I found this site! All of these posts are me! I have a blast when I'm drinking but the next day (days) I just put myself through hell!!i really feel like it's not even worth it ... My sister tells me I'm so fun to have a drink with but I get on her nerves the next day . Also I feel everytime it gets worse and lasts longer!
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I would certainly limit yourself to one or two drinks only. Your body is telling you something. Drinking too much can result in having anxiety and panic disorders, this happened to me.
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Reading all these posts I can 100% relate. When I was younger, around 22... I would drink and black out and I have in fact kissed someone else besides my boyfriend. I hate that I did this. But now... 8 years later... every time I drink and maybe black out I am so paranoid that I have done the same. Although it's slim chance I would.... I always panic and make up scenarios in my head... I have no trust in myself, I feel riddled with guilt that it depresses me. I obsesss about something that I will never have an answer to. I ask friends and they say I wouldn't do that I am being silly, but maybe they don't know me! Maybe I don't know what I am capable of myself. It's so scary....  I would never cheat sober... but black out drunk? I hope not!

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so i think so you have decide to stop drinking.
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I can literally relate to what everyone is saying on this page. i call it the d.p. (drunken paranoia). It is nothing short of horrendous. I am 30 now and have never been responsible with alcohol. I have always got totally plastered and where i can't remember stuff i start making stuff up and envision myself doing things and then i can't tell the difference between a made up vision and an actual drunken memory. It has got worse as i've got older. I've always had it but i think it stems from when i got pregnant after a drunken night out 10 years ago!!! I always assume i've done something awful and the most common paranoia is that i've cheated on my husband! I would never do this when sober but I get so drunk I convince myself I've done it. It is really really horrible. I got so drunk about 5 years ago I went back to a strangers house and took speed, I was so worried coz i had no intention of doing anything with this guy that i suddenly got up and ran out his house all the way back home! I know nothing happened sexually but the next day I convinced myself I'd slept with him. I fell pregnant by my husband a couple weeks later but i felt anxious for the whole pregnancy cos I convinced myself I'd got pregnant from that night out and the random guy was the father. When my son was born I had to do a DNA test cos I just could not handle it. It came back of course, that my husband was the father. Ever since that my drunken paranoia has been even worse, I literally can't drink without getting it, I even know before hand that I'm gonna get it. God, I know I sound ridiculous and I am sick of myself. I really shouldn't drink but I enjoy it so much at the time.

I am a very stressed and worrisome person, My father and brother suffer from OCD and my mother hung herself from suffering from depression and anxiety. I just wanna tell everyone on this page that I totally get what everyone is saying and it is a MASSIVE problem to me too. I guess we all need to learn to respect booze but it's not that easy.I find life hard and drink to escape but then afterwards everything is even worse with this horrendous post drinking paranoia!!!

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The effects of alcohol drinking and what should be necessary steps to be taken.In starting phase keep a small amount or no alcohol at home. Don't keep temptations around.

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Its great to know im Not the only one who grts in this state, i was out new years day nd keep getting myself worried that i said the wrong thing to people nd dunno if im making stuff up in my head or did i do it, ive been back to the pub i was in to see if out was said nd nowt was and my mam says i would of heard something by now if ive said/done anything (over a week ago) , i cannot shake that god what have i done , said, sick to the pit of my stomach feeling , i call it the boozy blues , its getting worse everytime i drink loads, any one can help itd be great
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I feel the same everytime I don't remember something on Saturday I went out at a club with my two besfriends and i lost and couldn't find my friends and I don't remember much of that I was with this guy from the club that i met but I don't remember much so freaking out that something might had happen if we did something because I don't remember much of that part but I remember leaving the club and eating food afterwards and I went to bed fine. It sucks I'm freaking out and I just feel so stupid and dumb for drinking too much
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I have this same thing happen to me I get drunk and black out and then worry the next day and make up stupid scenarios in my head. In general I am an anxious person and I've been on a Citalopram for a couple years which is an antidepressant but it also helps with anxiety to and I think I read somewhere that says if you are on antidepressants that can even make you're anxiety worse when drinking does anyone know anything about that? But last night I went out without my bf and don't remember how I got home but then the person that went out with me told me and assured me nothing happened but I can't help but assume the worst that something happened but I love my bf very much and would never want to do anything to hurt our relationship ugh I wish this feeling would just go away... I need some advice
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I haven't been on fo a while but am suffering again!went out sat aft and me and my friend didn't get in till 5 am,I remember most of the time out apart from the journey home and the last bit of the bar we were in was blurry,I was out without my fiancé and don't like being out without him n knew I'd get like this!the last bar we were in me and my friends were sat on some sofas and I was talking to a guy I couldn't even point him out of a line up now,n no idea wat I was talking about,my friends said I was fine n just talking but I'm constantly thinking iv done something!!i hate it I feel so down.wen I got dropped home in the taxi I also couldn't get in the house as my fiancé had left his key in the door so I was outside for a bit on my own and no idea wat I was doin in that time which worries me!!i hate this feeling I really do!!!:-(
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If you have to suffer from thesr all provlems after drinking then you must not drink. If it is necessary to have in social events then you can try them just for test. Because once anxiety starts it will be very difficult to come out from it without treatments.

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Having read through this page I can empathise with almost all the stories and comments made about the awfulness of alcohol induced anxiety. I have found myself practically paralysed by the feeling of fear felt after drinking too much alcohol. I can say that the intense anxiety and terrible thoughts you may have do subside day by day and you will feel your 'normal' after a period of time.

I have sought counselling over the last year to tackle some of the thoughts, beliefs and feelings which underlie alcohol induced anxiety bearing in mind there are also physiological reasons alcohol causes anxiety. Working through issues with a councillor has definitely helped alleviate the feelings and speed up the time it takes to recover. I would love to be someone that can have a 'few drinks' and leave it there and I am working towards this. I have managed to stop having blackouts by reducing the speed I drink alcohol. For those of you suffering right now. Hang on in there and remember you are a worthy person and the feelings you have are not representation of who you are. Good luck everyone!
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I went out this Friday sent a lot of stupid texts and left a work college that I relly like he's a good friend a horrible voicemail I'm so depressed right now can't stip thinking about suicide
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