Dude, your reply was anything but quick. I thought you were going to write a novel lol
I just smoked too much pot and had a seizure, then took mushrooms a bunch afterwards trying to prolong the ultra awareness that you were talking about. I don't smoke pot or do any drugs anymore but I am not nearly the same person that I was.
What anti psychotic do you take?
Do you feel that you are completely recovered?
Sorry for all the questions and I really appreciate your input. Thanks so much!
Unfortunately hell happens to everyone on this planet. And sometimes our mind is just lookIng to find happiness. That empty feeling is saying
Start looking for things that make you happy. Watch shows like golden girls before going to bed because when you watch good shows it shows you a better possibilities for tomorrow. See happiness in the smallest things. Like gettingup in the morning and watching sunrise, or an old person who finds a reason to laugh no matter what theragree is and the best thing to do is help on person with something like justopening the door for someone, or letting someone go ahead of you, watch notice the joy it brings toethereal face will automatically heal you. Watching other peoples happiness makes you see you are surrounded by it and you are safe. A child's laughter and youwill feel like you are high on
um i get the same thing bro. i read up on derealization.
its caused by excess cannabis use.
stop smoking weed for a week or two, drop that ho girlfriend of yours, and live it up. youll be depressed until u do another chick.
thats like a bandaid. a really good one... if you catch the drift.
listen bro.
im the same way, and im not gonna write you an essay, like the rest. you dont need to hear my story too.
just man up.
thats it.
you can smoke weed again after its all good again.
Hey, I know this thread is quite old but I have to confess similar... emptiness.For as long as I can remember I've never felt anything, but I'm a pretty messed up person, I have a few medical problems and more mental problems than I'd admit to any doctor, I'm schizophrenic and I have synesthesia, I think I'm borderline homicidal almost, I... well, i'm sure you catch my drift before I alarm you.I've read somewhere that if it's from birth it can be caused by a very minor case of autism, not enough to affect your learning or anything but enough to make your emotional centre completely shot, however, I dont know about developed apathy. How are you doing 5 years on?
Hope you're well, all of you.
I myself feel the same way, I started out being depressed due to making a decision to move to another state and reunite with my husband whom I had been seperated from for 3 yrs, I gave up everything, my job I loved, my home, my daughter and grandkids, and walked into a mess, a great thing came out of the mess and that is I found God, and am grateful for that, but the deep sadness remains, I feel my depression has gone through levels, now I am at the state where I have build up walls and don't feel anymore, I function, so what I have to do, but lost all motivation to dream, and get excited about anything, I am so alone most of the time, I try to reach out but nobody seems to care, when you are depressed, you have to put on a front all the time that your so happy, people like you when your happy, but when your down nobody comes around, or calls, it's gotten pretty bad, the feeling of dread lays heavy, I would never consider taking my own life, but sometimes I just wonder what my purpose is, it's been nearly 6 yrs and I am not growing or changing, I am in a rut, the longer you live in this type of depression it seems to have a life of its own, and at this point I just pray for a miracle, something new, something to do, my husband works and I am not working due to alot of health issues and still trying to get that taken care of, I am considering going back to hospital work, it's just getting motivated again, a part of me died when I left and all I can do is hope God helps me to find some happiness before I die of a broken spirit, I am taking up space in this world, I try to go out and do things, and all I want to do is stay home. that is my sad story, I will be praying for the rest of you, tx
hello everyone im 29 years old and i can relate alot with having that no feelings my wife also realizes it though i treat her and other people nice im very numb ,i dont go to the doctor because meds are damaging to your body ,liver, kidneys i started drinking and smoking at 12 and was a full blown pot head at 13 years old but i had to hustle to buy my weed.by hustlin weed,powder,pills by the age of 4 i almost died 3 times,one time in icu,2nd time jumped through a fire in apt and burned a lil and hit by a drunk driver on my bmx with training wheels wich i remember like yesturday,im hisp i got jumped in a alley at the age of 5 by 3 older kids for protecting my indian friend that was getting bullied ,(he ran)i was knocked out then the next day my parents put me in taekwondoe-went to juvenile jail like 10 times and almost died a couple more times but i still wasnt numb after all that. at 15 i met two beautiful girls that asked me to go to church with them they would pick me up while i was on my block hustlin and make me go to church i loved them both very much and one i was positive was my soul mate.either one was fine with me. well after learning about God i fell in love with her more.well no lie God called me supernatrually and i told her .I was 18 she was my best friend until this day no one understood me like her not even my wife. she was 17 i was 18 i wanted out of this sinful life-18 years in the street = bad things .she was turning 18 and was about to be free so she said she didnt have time to go to church with me.I gave it all up for God and for her, her parents moved her away and i never saw her again my best friend.i was deeply depressed for 1000+days straight i knew with her being my wife i was gonna skip my way into heaven so to speak,i loved her like Christ loves the church , i felt doomed i went through so much trouble since i lost her ,i been baptized but sadly the best feeling ive had is when i got away from the cops in a highspeed chase at age 24 then another women came to my life when i was 21 years old got hurt a few days then i met my wife.she was quiet and emotional beacause of something in her childhood i didnt know at first and i love her and she loves me but im numb im not compatable with her like i was with star and gisselle as far as personalities went so that caused alot of problems in my marriage and made me i guess super duper numb .In the bible a hard heart cannot stop sinning ,the crazy part is i can over ride that i go to church and hardly ever slip or fall (sin)but when the elders lay hands on me they say they feel frozin ice cold,thats not good so -i come to a conclusion is that is not your own fault u feel this numb from feelings thats what happens when u love someone so much and dont recieve it back it makes u numb depression hardens your natural feelings i believe God is the only one that can change it but we have to submit 100% to his will and it will take time ,if your single just be patient seek the kingdom of heaven first and everything else shall be added to you.if your not single still seek the kingdom of heaven. may this letter be a blessing to all of u (read acts:2 vrs 38) p:s i wonder all the time if i would of kept doing the right things in Gods eyes even while being depressed if he would of rewarded me exceedingly to the point that i could of been the happiest man or person on earth .think about it do you do the right things when depressed? probably not .think about it
by the way i do have feelings sometimes i see those little children on tv starving i can get watery eyes other than that though i cant cry.God has to break us theres no other way! Jesus glory be to him king of kings
Lasted like 7 days lol i didnt want the gorl i "had crushes on to find out:( i feel bad because i just do.. And so i only wanted like one week to fogure out wat i really wanted so i asked her to be friends for a while and she just whent crazy and im (aries haa..) so i got fucken pissed that she got pissed 1 year ago:(... And i told her to gtfo my life then. And i really do miss her but i see her maybe everyday only Aroud the hallways we have lunch together i look into space when i see her and i cant get over it i just want her forgiveness and i sont knoww how and it was mosly also my jealousy because of how she played videogames with another guy and she never invited me to her house like she invited him it drove me
Nuts even tho
I spent the whole days at her house only need her forgiveness somehow but forgiveness from idk what i just need to tell her sorry for something im missing idk what i know i did something wrong i just didnt trust her like i said last time i really disnt trust anyone like (people say i have money so i really dont trust people because i just dont like they want money and stuff only ) just help me in something i need i want to tell her im sorry but help what to
Say thank you and i just need to express
My feeling here
if you could feel anything you wouldn't be worry take it from the guy that has emotional feelings
HI...
HOW ARE YOU DOING TODAY...SIR??? GREAT, I HOPE THAT YOU CAN MOVE ON AND LEAVE THE NEGATIVE ISSUES ALONE TODAY...SIR. JUST, BECAUSE YOU WERE WITH THE HIGHER POWER OF GOD TODAY...SIR. IT, DOESN'T MEAN TO CORRUPT YOURSELF(HIS TEMPLE) BUT TO RESPECT YOURSELF AS A GOVERNOR STUDENT BODY BUT NOT THE MONSTER CALLED YAHWEH TODAY...SIR. (SMILE)!!! IF, YOU ALONG WITH OTHERS' AND GOD KNEW THAT SHE WASN'T THE ONLY WOMAN THAT YOU NEEDED IN YOUR LIFE BUT TRUE BUT NO.... HONEY, LET GO AND FOCUS ON YOURSELF ALONG WITH OTHERS AND GOD TOO...SIR!!! LEAVE, THE MONSTER ALONE AND LIVE TODAY...SIR!!!
I HOPE THAT THIS WILL IMPROVE YOUR MIND, BODY AND SPIRIT TODAY...SIR!!! HEY, HAVE A GREAT BEAUTIFUL ALL YEAR SEASONS WITHIN YOURSELF ALONG WITH OTHERS' AND GOD TOO!!! TAKE CARE!!!
YOUR PROFESSIONAL HEALTH EDUCATOR,
HARMONY