I think I have some kind of a mental illness and would like to help myself until it is not too late. I have some strange symptoms that have started seriously affecting my personal and professional life. The thing is I'm in constant fear of something terrible and I can not explain of what. I also check several times if I had locked my home door and even when I get assured fro two or three times I still think of it all the day while on work. And it's not all for I also have some terrible images in my head; I keep doing the same thing all over again. I don't know is it all in my head or … I also keep thinking that someone dear to me is going to get killed in the car accident so what else… I even avoid dialing numbers I dislike thinking it might bring me some misfortune. So it looks to me like some serious illness or is it all in my mind? What to do? Thanks!
It is more likely you suffer from OCD-obsession compulsive disorder and that is something that demands a serious and prolonged treatment especially if this condition is from a long period of time. The good thing is you're aware it is something wrong with feeling the way you feel. And the fact is it is probably all in your head but no matter that it needs to be treated. And you have many medical strategies that are about to help solving OCD problems so if you want the best results you go talk it over with your doc. I personally was on prosac and later on zofran OCD treatment and it showed good results but you now how it is with those terrible images in your head…. I don't think this condition could be 100% treatable but at least its symptoms might get released. And as I said all this you were telling of is all in your mind but still it needs to be treated for having such minds is not a pleasant thing to live with.