Hi Dyllan! I wonder how old are you? it's very normal that boys fall in love of feel a lot of attraction for an older girl. And is so cute that you've been drawing her and thinking about her! What is stopping you to show her your feelings for her? You have nothing to lose. if she's really much older than you she will find it very cute. And if you keep this just for yourself you will be suffering in silence. I would just contact her, through email (you know her just at YouTube right?) and send her some of your drawings. And if she is really beautiful as you say she must be used to get some love declarations. Go! Open your heart! But do it just to get free of this secret admiration and not expecting her to fall in love. I think you will feel beter after it.
I know that this is a subject I ask alot but I really love this YouTuber named minx, she is The most beautiful girl I've ever seen. And she's way older than me, but I love drawing her and thinking about her. Please help???
Minx,<3<3