I don't know much about the actual syndrom or its medical diagnosis. I had an abortion on Nov. 9 2011 and while I still feel I would have hated the kid and never accepted it or even wanted to hold it, I do feel like I made a HORRIBLE decision and I cannot seem to get it out of my mind. My mind feels like it just is constantly running in circles around all of the emotions that come along with having an abortion. I would NEVER recommend anyone getting one now that I have gone through it myself.
I had an abortion five months ago. I already have three children. I also have and autoimmune disease called Celiac that prevents me from absorbing nutrients properly.Also I am in college full time first generation, and working. I really did want to have the baby, but felt that it would be selfish, I can hardly manage what I already have on my plate.So I made the choice. I was so scared. I kept telling myself the whole time why I was doing it. After it happened I just layed on the table and cried. The assistent gave me a hug and held me for a moment. Then she looked me in the face and said cry now cry tommorow and then move on. You will be alright. I remember everything about that day.Do I regret it. I don't know. There are times when I can not stop crying. The feeling of abandonment. Like I ended a life that was connected to me.I just didn't want my children to suffer. I was afraid for my health.Now I am having complications, after the abortion I had a cyst that ruptured in my overis and has been causing a lot of discomfort. I told the doctor at the health clinc I have been going to what I did and he seems to be very judging of what I did. Almost like he doesn't want to have me as a patient. I feel like I am not getting the proper care that I need.
I understand. I know how that feels. Sometimes I feel as if I am drowning in regret, pain and depression. I have even felt the need to end my own life. I would not do that, but it has come to my mind. Hormones are so strong right now too. That might be a big contributor to the emotions. But you are not alone girl. I am right there with you. I feel that if I could go back knowing what I know now that I would have not made the choice. I would still be preganent ready to have the baby in May. I had my abortion on October 30.After the abortion I had a cyst that ruptured in my ovaris. The doctor thinks it is because of the abortion. I don't know. Im glad that I found this blog I need to talk to others. I haven't told anyone besides my husband,and doctors.
I would still be pregnant as well, due in mid june. A friend of mine just had her third child, finally a girl after two boys. I was having horrible pain and about 3 weeks late for my period when i found out i was pregnant. I was literally praying that it was an ectopic. when i had the internal ultrasound i started crying when i saw the sac in my uterus. I decided to have the abortion bc first of all i didnt want a kid, i was terrified of what people would think, i didnt have anyone to really go to about it, and i wasnt sure if i wanted to stay with my boyfriend or not we had only been dating a few months. He was supportive about it but I felt so disgusted and gross with myself i felt like everyone knew i was pregnant. I still have dreams about being pregnant or having kids. I even had a dream about having the baby i aborted, it was a girl and i even named her and everything but i wouldnt even look at her or hold her for at least a week or two after giving birth. i was so disgusted with the whole thing. The pain i was having was from a cyst on my ovary, its bigger then my ovary, i think when my uterus started expanding it pissed it off so it became painful. Why did you decide to abort yours? I dont feel as if I should ever be allowed to have kids now, i had my chance and i decided to not take it. its my own fault. I also was worried about work, I work on an ambulance its not exactly accepted to do that while pregnant and i wish it wasnt true but people in this field are extremely judgemental. everytime someone even tries to joke about being pregnant or anything i feel as if i want to throw up or that i have to tell them what i did. I recently caught up with a friend from college and felt like i was lieing to her by not telling her i had had an abortion or even that i was pregnant. she would not have approved about what i did but probably would have been there for me....i go from completely hating myself to feeling completely numb about it.
i had an abortion today! I have one child already am a single Parent and am not in a strong stable relationship. I have returned to university to complete Teaching training and to better the life of both me and my child. Another child at this stage would leave all 3 of us struggling with Full-time work and on some kind of benefits for additional support. Even though my abortion only happened today, I already feel relieved. to me that is the best decision I have made.
People are coming on to this site to discuss their experiences with like minded people. You coming on here adding your 2 cents is not appropriate and highly disrespectful. The "Free Choice" you speak of think about it here!
Many people are forced into having abortions, so much so I was asked by at least 5 different healthcare professionals if that was the case today and asked if I had changed my mind right up until I was taken into theatre.
I agree a child is a gift to the world, but, in my case, what life would the child I already have and the child I would of had, have. We would be more of a drain on society living off benefits, in funded housing and with much financial difficulty. Where as now me and my child live in private housing and I have saved enough to put myself back through university, to, in the future have a good career and be stronger financially for the both of us. to give us a better life. Maybe in a year or 2 times when i have a successful job i wil have another child, but right now is not that time.
Don't judge people on their "Free choice" when you have no idea of the circumstances people have in their lives
People are coming on to this site to discuss their experiences with like minded people. You coming on here adding your 2 cents is not appropriate and highly disrespectful. The "Free Choice" you speak of think about it here!
Many people are forced into having abortions, so much so I was asked by at least 5 different healthcare professionals if that was the case today and asked if I had changed my mind right up until I was taken into theatre.
I agree a child is a gift to the world, but, in my case, what life would the child I already have and the child I would of had, have. We would be more of a drain on society living off benefits, in funded housing and with much financial difficulty. Where as now me and my child live in private housing and I have saved enough to put myself back through university, to, in the future have a good career and be stronger financially for the both of us. to give us a better life. Maybe in a year or 2 times when i have a successful job i wil have another child, but right now is not that time.
Don't judge people on their "Free choice" when you have no idea of the circumstances people have in their lives
3 abortions? Really? 3? One I can understand. 2 is stretching it, but THREE??? And you boast about it. You seem proud. You sound like a sick, twisted serial killer. There is is something wrong with you. Do not boast, do not be proud of yourself. You're mentally ill and I fear for those around you.
I had an abortion a few years ago, it's something I think about everyday. The more time goes on the more anxious I get. I truly think I made the right decision but it doesn't make it any easier.
Then have your tubes tied. Stop killing babies as a choice of birth control. God, forgive you. You are a foolish women.
In a place where birth control is free and offered just about anywhere, there is no reason for anyone to have an abortion. You are teaching in more ways than one with your attitude concerning taking a babies life. Birth Control, Birth Control. I worry about what you are teaching. I heard a quote once that said.
You can teach what you know, but you produce what you are.
God, forgives murder, but it has to be confessed and repented of.
You can teach what you know, but you produce what you are.
God, forgives murder, but it has to be confessed and repented of.
God, forgives and will give you peace when you confess and repent. Your baby is safe with him and waiting for you. Do the work that it takes for healing and never do this again. Use birth control, either by mouth or have your tubes tied. As you now know, abortion is neither the answer or an easy one. Prayers for you.
You took time to go to the grocery store for the herbs, I wonder why you didn't take time to pick up birth control. It amazes me!!!!!!