ABOUT 21 WEEKS.. CANT SEEM TO GET THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS OUT MY HEAD AS HARD AS I TRY. IVE BEEN CRYING FOR A WHOLE MONTH STRAIGHT..(LITERALLY).. I KEEP TRYING TO THINK ABOUT OTHER THINGS EVEN TRIED SINGING A HAPPY SONG WHILE BAD THOUGHTS GO THRU MY HEAD.. THINKING ABOUT THE BABY OR LOOKING AROUND THE ROOM FOR ITEMS TO THINK ABOUT.. THEIR COLOR OR WHAT IT IS OR SPELL IT OUT JUST TO GET IT OUT MY MIND.. BUT IT WONT WORK AND MY DR's APPT. ISNT TIL NEXT WEEK.. I STARTED CUTTING MYSELF AGAIN LAST NIGHT CUZ I JUST CANT TAKE THE PAIN.. DO YOU THINK THIS IS SEVERE DEPRESSION?
I would definitly get it checked out. If the doctor's appointment is next week try looking forward to the appointment. Once you are diagnosed you may feel better about your future. Until then, try talking to someone everytime you have bad thoughts. Tell them what you are thinking andtry to figure out why it makes you feel bad. I had depression due to stress a couple years ago and I had to not only talk my head off to get my brain clear of everything but I also worked with a councilor to find ways to manage my stress. What ever you do though, don't hurt yourself. Every time you hurt yourself, you hurt your baby and the ones around you. Have you tried taking a hot bath? I hope this helps!
ive tried talking.. theres no one to talk to anymore.. i took a hot bath last night.. that didnt work either... but i'm definitely looking forward to my dr.s appt next week! i know its hurting the baby thats why i really want real help this time.
thanks for the feedback! :-)
thanks for the feedback! :-)
well if you ever need anyone to talk to you can e-mail me! i'm usually around all day
I'm hoping that you get this message soon. I know what you are going through, and cutting is a sign of extreme mental health concerns. Mostly bi-polar and borderline personality. I know this because I have dealt with it for years.
In fact, last week I had the same problem, it took everything I had to not start cutting again and turned to my fiancee' and my doctors for help. I'm 20weeks and 4days pregnant. Based on that depression and what I was starting to feel, I've been doing so well for more than a year!, the doctors (my OBGYN) prescribed Celexa. It is a class C medication, but they had to weigh the benefits against the potential risks. It has helped me immensely, and nearly immediately.
I encourage you to see your doctor, make the call, tell them what is going on and show the effort to get better so they are willing to help you and not try to worry about you so much to hospitalize you.
In fact, last week I had the same problem, it took everything I had to not start cutting again and turned to my fiancee' and my doctors for help. I'm 20weeks and 4days pregnant. Based on that depression and what I was starting to feel, I've been doing so well for more than a year!, the doctors (my OBGYN) prescribed Celexa. It is a class C medication, but they had to weigh the benefits against the potential risks. It has helped me immensely, and nearly immediately.
I encourage you to see your doctor, make the call, tell them what is going on and show the effort to get better so they are willing to help you and not try to worry about you so much to hospitalize you.
Listen, im 29 years old and have been through a life of hell growing up. Which later caused me to be depressed and cut. Well after several counselors and internet searching, I was diagnosed with a disease called Borderline Personaity Disorder. There are like 6 main symptoms and cutting is at the top of the list. Look it up on the net, the talk to a professional. I know take a medication called abilify, which is the best thing Ive ever found. Im 5 1/2 months pregnant, I have been on these meds for 2 years. Abilify is category C and my baby is in great health and acutally bigger than he should be. :-)
I'm going to be short and sweet here. I know what its like to be depressed and I know what its like to cut yourself but I don't know what its like to be pregnant(yet). This is my advice to you but you're in a situation I haven't been in yet so excuse me if im not completely understanding you right now.
Get out of the house. Go for a walk. Listen to the birds. Practise smiling(it helps) even if you feel stupid. Put your favourite music on. Dance. Do whatever makes you happy. Keep yourself occupied. It will be the best thing for you if you can just try to stay focused on the big picture. You won't be this unhappy forever. Things will get better aslong as you still have that drive to live and I'm sure you do(or else you wouldnt be seeking help). Just try to remember that things WILL get better... you just have to work hard and not give up. You and your baby are (mostly)healthy and alive. Be thankful for that.
Get out of the house. Go for a walk. Listen to the birds. Practise smiling(it helps) even if you feel stupid. Put your favourite music on. Dance. Do whatever makes you happy. Keep yourself occupied. It will be the best thing for you if you can just try to stay focused on the big picture. You won't be this unhappy forever. Things will get better aslong as you still have that drive to live and I'm sure you do(or else you wouldnt be seeking help). Just try to remember that things WILL get better... you just have to work hard and not give up. You and your baby are (mostly)healthy and alive. Be thankful for that.