suboxone withdrawal: how long is this going to last...I'm mi

I'm sorry you're not feeling good today. PAWS will come and go from day to day and vary in degrees. One thing that worked for me on days like that is chamomile tea. It seemed to calm my nerves and mind and calm me down enough to get into a TV show or anything to occupy my mind. Once my mind started focusing on something else, the symptoms would subside a bit. Maybe worth trying. Just keep reminding yourself, the hard part is over. You've gone through hell already and you're on the down slope. Try to stay positive and think about ANYTHING but subs and how you're feeling.

Went and bought sleepytime tea. Hoping it will help some. The cravings r driving me crazy. I was busy all day with my daughters and I still can't shake the crappy feeling! This is the worst I have felt since stopping subs. Thanx 4 the advice and support.

UPDATE: it's day 18 off, and when i thought i was over, i had a sleepless night, couldn't even stay in bed, i've been driving all night long like crazy just to keep my mind occupied, at sunrise, an overwhelming vague of anxiety and panic hit me in the middle of nowhere, i was profoundly depressed and desperate, i didn't have the choice but to run to the pharmacy for Klonopin, i took 2mg, and i felt fine . Please tell me this horror has and end, i feel like i'm drawning with nobody to help me or stand beside me, cause nobdy knows about what  i'm going through, except for my parents, i'm physically and mentaly exhausted. I only have you for support, thank you so much for your precious help.

It does have an end. Some days will be better than others. But don't succumb to the desire to take away all of the wd symptoms. U've made it this far. Today is Day 31 for me. I feel better than I did yesterday. I slept really well, which makes a world of difference. Klonopin isn't the answer. Hang in there. U can do this.

This is my story ....I'm a successful sales Profesional with a fiancé and a child and the stress of life and the obsession that I had about being high got me here (sometimes I feel it isn't that big of a deal) I always have an endless supply of money for the drugs that wasn't the problem I have houses cars the best jewelry everything....so how'd I end up here on a withdrawal forum. I started when I was 16 I took my first Vicodin and fell in love instantly since then I've alway been able to take them on and off with 0 withdrawal. I never thought I would get hooked until ....until I discovered opana 5mg from there I worked up to 15 and there to 20 then from there to 40 and f**k it I took the extra 40 because ...just because hah. No one ever saw it coming me hooked on prescription medication no one ever assumed, I never nodded off acted ridiculous nothing. I just sat back and enjoyed that high. It wasn't until 3 years later (keep in mind I'm now 24 at this point in my life) the supply became harder and harder to come by so bulk was the only way to go. Well when every malpractice as****e doctor decided to get pinched by the powers that be my supply soon ran out and I tried to find every low life ruthless drug dealer I could to get my hands on it spending 12x the amount of money on a handful of pills. This again didn't bother me but what did was focusing more on what ruthless drug dealer who saw someone in need taking advantage of people like me or you and texting them more than paying attention to my own child or my fiancé. That aaaand when I told my doctor what I was doing he thought I was lying and then he informed me "I cannot believe you are still here, you heart must not have known to shut down from this"...apparently most people shouldn't be able to take this much Opana and live to talk about it....she is such a ruthless b***h! Grrr!! But this bothered me I decided I was done. Days on and two were okay but then day three came. My skin crawled as if there was something inside that was begging to escape and feed. My legs moved as if it knew something was coming that I couldn't see. My mind completely left reality and paranoia and anxiety stepped in and my heart jumped on the band wagon playing the fastest and loudest bass drum like it was apart of a punk band. Now know I cried....at this point I gave up something that was always there for me when I was down to make me feel better (so I thought) it was my first love and I couldn't live without her. In desperation I researched something to help me "missing" Opana. That's when I found suboxone the b***h relative to Opana...the first day I took it I took 4mg of the NON GENERIC PILL and felt better as if this weight lifted off of me. I was able to do things I thougt I'd never do again....LIKE SLEEP. The next day in fear of my withdrawls I took 2 mg and felt fine then I threw the rest I had away....the next two days after I had withdrawals again and I went and bought more working my way down to barely .25 mg of suboxone a day. Doing good WASNT I? Wrong. I slowly but surely worked my way up to 8 mg a day as months passed but that's human nature we want we have and then want it more. Again suboxone in this area became getting cracked down on and began getting harder and harder to find to the point that an 8 mg film of suboxone would cost me $110...then without will or want I couldn't get it anymore, no amount of money could get me a piece. So here I am day 3 insomnia, paranoia, restless leg syndrome, body aches, anxiety are all back....I want to know it gets better at the end of this "tunnel" I hear about but I don't see it and I want to...I take a half of Vicodin 750 or some BS to help during the day but it's hard...not as hard as my first love Opana but it seems like it will be longer and a more uphill battle. A close personal friend and president at a well known bank was on Opana like me...not as much but a decent amount and he had his withdraws for 6 days and after that everything started getting better I wish I never stopped my withdrawls and substituted it with this...Im tired of trying to find my next high and letting people take advantage of my love for opiates...I want to be clean and I will get through this and I will get my soul back from these bit***s and when I do...when I do I know I'll be a better worker, friend, fiancé husband, and father because of it.... Anyone that is going through this I'm with you and know you are not alone and know this is possible. And for the record don't be afraid to take something to substitute your withdrawals just do a small amount every couple days to help you WILL NOT SET YOURSELF BACK DOING SO...I've seen too many people kick this stuff doing just that just remember it's only here to help me get through this not to substitute it. Know don't take your help to get high but to help. It will get better and when I'm done with my withdrawal I'll be back here in a couple days to let you know. I'm sorry about the rant but damn it felt good to get that off of my chest. Some people by now know most of my story but not that far in detail about my drug life and it feels good to let it out. I wish you all the best.

I'm here for you. What you are doing most "civilized people" wouldn't underatand and may look down up it and think "why or how could you get hooked on drugs" well it's real f*****g easy. Just know there are plenty of people just like you and what you are doing is very courageous and strong willed of you....and to be honest I'm on day 3and you may not know it but you give me hope.

I don't know where to begin...Day 3 was horrendous for me. I don't even want to think about it. As I've said, I couldn't get out of bed for 9 days. It took every ounce of willpower to get up to feed my dog. I couldn't sleep. I had a doc who was working with me and gave me every kind of sleeping pill known to man and I still couldn't sleep. Suboxone has a long half-life. It stays around for a long time. And u jumped off on a pretty high dose. My last dose on Nov. 30 was 1 mg. It wasn't low enough. To lessen my wd's I should have tapered much slower. I knew that, but I wanted off and out of the addictive behavior I was exhibiting even on subs. I can't and won't tell u how to run your recovery. I only can tell u wat I've been thru. Days 1-14 were pretty brutal. It then started to get better. Each day the wd sx seemed to lessen. And u can see the light at the end of the tunnel. My daughters and ex husband know wat I'm going thru but no one else. This site has helped tremendously. If I can do this so can u. I was terrified of the wd's. Had never made it past Day 9 and here I am on Day 31. Life IS significantly better OFF of opiates. I can feel emotions, I can taste things, I can smell, I have an appetite. I am NOT exhibiting drug seeking behaviors. I am so happy that I have come this far. U have taken the first step and that is huge. Keep going.

UPDATE: it's day 19 off Sub, yesterday i had a full time sleep without sleeping aids. Now i woke up feeling almost normal, although i'm still aware of possible bouts of insomnia and anxiety, but i believe the worst is behinde me. I'm still prepared for anything now, but i'm gratefull  and proud that i could get it so far in spite of the horrors i went through. Thank you all people for sharing your stories cause it really helps in climbing the mountain of withdrawal.

I'm glad to hear you're doing well and turning the corner. It gets easier and easier with each day. You will have some up and down days ahead of you but just keep in mind, a bad day now will be better than your best day just a couple of weeks ago. The psychological addiction takes longer to heal than the physical so from this point it's really a mental game and staying positive is the most important thing that you can do.

I am on Day 32. I never thought I would get here. But I am thrilled. You r so right about it being a mental game. It really pays to stay busy so ur not fixating on wat u don't have. Most negative effects r gone. But I am still having severe cravings. I am exhausted by 4 pm. I think it has to do with the fact that I took my 2nd dose at that time. Instead of getting wired, I am now exhausted. It is a small price to pay for the fact that I am drug free for the first time in years. It feels great. Best of luck to everyone.

Hi Allikat, I'm glad you're staying positive about everything! It was the same way with me in the evenings. I usually took my 2nd dose at 8pm and for the longest time I would feel so drained by 8:30-9. I would get home from work around that time and end up drinking a whole pot of coffee trying to recreate my nightly energy. I used to like staying up late because I could only get things done at home after my wife and kids were in bed. I've just recently starting getting my evening motivation back to where it used to be, but now it's natural energy and feels so much better. I think that's part of the psychological addiction making you think you want something for that extra get up and go. It's definitely frustrating.Soon that should all start returning to normal for you also. Congrats on 31 days! That's a huge accomplishment!

Livingit-The cravings and lack of energy/motivation are killing me. I'm usually always on the run and now I can't do anything past
4 pm. it's killing me. Patience is a virtue and I am sorely lacking in that dept. I am hoping you are right since you are DAYS AHEAD of me. Thank you for the encouragement and support. It helps so much! Happy to hear u r doing so well.

UPDATE: i'm on my 20th day off Sub, even if, thank god, most of the physical withdrawal are behinde me now, i still experience like you "alikat", some lack of energy and lethargy, but today i could make it to work, it was my best day so far, i'm almost feeling normal. except for severe insomnia, yesterday i had no choice but to take a sleeping pill Zolpidem (Ambien), it's just gonna be a quick fix for a week or so. Good luck to you all.

Happy to hear ur doing better. Just think about one day at a time. I'm on Day 33 and I'm sleeping like a baby. Slept for 8 hrs. last
nite and didn't wake up once. The lethargy and exhaustion still sets in every day at 4. And I'm not running again, yet. But I'm hoping that I will soon feel more "normal". Not sure I was ever norman nor do I want to be, just want to return to my old life without drugs! I'm sure it can be done. Take care.

UPDATE: it's day 21 (3 weeks) off Sub. I feel really great, almost normal again. And for a revenge, yesterday i went to nightclub and danced like crazy (i lost any interest of going out for almost a year on drugs), then got laid with 2 different persons, lol, (my libido is resuscitated after such a long time when drugs killed my sex drive), then at least but not last, i decided to break up with this as****e that kept taking advantage of me for all this time (i was so blinded by drugs to see reality). Thank you dear god for giving me my life back. (i'll keep update until day 30).