Uncontrollable emotions

I cant beathe. When I eat I choke...maybeas I have to breathe out my mouth.

So tired, 2hrs sleep last night. Not too bad, but really ,in the nornings, feel so sick..not because of drink ( not at the moment) ..okay last few days but just as I feel exhausted. Really bad bad very bad moods, As though I might do something I may regret later. This is not me.

Iam finding it really hard to cope. i really want to be myself, I want to be there for othersm help others, like Iused to, but its all about me as I am so tired..Maybe that the problem,,,but panicing and feel sick and coking and gagging time after time. i couldnt eat that well tosday.Scared I was going to throw up all day.

I got reallly nervous about making an appointment to ee my doctor, as I have been up there somuch lately and although probably allready is in my notes ( I dont know) I am scared theyll have oh here comes the "frequent flyer" which would be true, but Ive had reason.

I am going with the aim to ask for that sickness pill- the one that makes you really ill if you drink, so that its not an option for me. Would anyone whose experienced what I am going through and doing to myself agree its a good idea?...I am thinking its my only solutin as I fear being sick so much. being sick is one of my fears , so maybe that would work.

Though I am scared to tell the rest..and anyway...thankfully want have time.

Hope everyone else is managing, take care everyone.

I know exactly how you feel-- I get the same lump and don't know what triggers it. I can go 2 weeks and be totally normal and then bam! Back to crying for no reason... I told my mother it's like I feel lost, I wish sometimes to live at home with her and my dad with my son and husband-- maybe that would make me feel better, who knows.

And yes I am the same way... Mornings are the worst, I have no appetite usually and always am afraid I'm going to get sick and make my family sick. I know this was from years ago but I am also 32

I am 32 and lately and even when I was younger I would get emotional for no reason. Mornings are the worst. I wake up some mornings just feeling like I want to cry with a lump in my throat. It happens when I get nostalgic about stuff. I lose my appetite and don't want to eat usually until later in the day. Sometimes it happens when I don't feel well and usually when I get like that in the mornings i feel nauseous.

I also tend to miss my family a lot so when I start thinking about that I get very emotional... Sometimes I wish that my husband, son and I could live with my parents. It's like very comforting to be around them. It's not like I want to be there so they can do everything for me, I would do stuff around the house like it was my own and give money,etc.. Am I crazy for getting this way? I think a lot of it is hormonal