About a week and a half ago I had rough sex with my boyfriend. It was my 4th time having sex ever, I am 18 and we used a lubricated condom. I lost my virginty about a month ago. This time, it was kinda rushed, so I'm not even sure if I was lubricated enough. I was also rubbing myself really hard with my knuckles (not a good idea, I know) while he was going at it pretty rough. About 10 minutes later I went to the bathroom and it hurt to pee. The next day it felt like I had to pee the entire day and when I did it burned like needles. Then we went to his house in Chicago to visit his parents and the pain and everything stopped for a week. As soon as I got back home, was bored, and started thinking about it, it came back. Not the pain with peeing, but the having to pee a lot and itching and burning like it's trying to heal maybe. I know it's not a UTI because the pain with peeing went away after a day. My friend also said that sometimes it hurts her to pee after sex for a day or two. The first time I had sex, with a condom when I was not ovulating, I freaked out and thought I was pregnant. I researched everything and scared myself to death until I started my period the exact day I was supposed to. I had pregnancy symptoms, swear my breasts changed color, and wouldn't eat. Now the idea of being pregnant is not what I'm scared about, I'm scared about the itching or whatever it is. My boyfriend thinks it is all in my head since when I am busy or with him I don't notice it. He actually talked me out of the pain, which makes me think is is all just in my head. I think I did hurt myself a week ago but ever since then I am just thinking there is itching or something because of what we had done. Unless it is a latex allergy, but I think it would have gone away by now. There is no new discharge, no smell, it's not red, there are no bumps...everything looks normal. I ovulated like normal and everything. My boyfriend is very supportive but I think my anixety is getting on his nerves. I do this a lot though and have created symptoms of everything from cervical cancer to a brain tumor. (my head actually went numb along with my gums and lips because I was sure there was a tumor pressing on my brain.) I have also "had" mouth cancer, breast cancer, a "lump" on my hip that was just a normal lymph node, lymphoma, a lump in my shoulder...you name it. Do you think this is all just anxiety because I did get a little sore from the "roughness" before? Or maybe because I haven't had sex that much and just the emotions and stress and stuff of losing my virginity caused it? Or could it just be that I did get little cuts or some irritation it is trying to heal, so it itches? I guess I could have a little irratation even though everything looks normal down there. As of right now, there is no itching or anything. I also went pee this morning and everything felt normal. I know it's not an std either because we have been together for years and we were each other's firsts. Please help me. I'm driving myself crazy. When I am with him, there is not itching and I don't have to pee often. When I am alone or with my parents, it comes back. Anxiety or a serious problem??? Please help!!!!!!!! And I'm sorry it's so long; I didn't know how to make it any shorter.
You still might wanna get tested. not to discredit your boyfriend, but it may have been his first time...... His first time with you! Either way whatever the reason, you need to go get yourself tested.
I'm sorry, but you really need to calm down and stop self-diagnosing. The stress is going to cause you more problems in the end. Go get tested for reassurance and then just enjoy being healthy :-)