Hey guys wow ! i read every single post, amazing ! every post had a little bit of how i felt for soo long. I started smoking in 96' and continued to do so sporatically all the way up to 2001. Now around 01/02 while in college thats when i really began to smoke everyday. But let me tell you something.. 3rd time I really got High I got a panick attack alot like what all of you have shared. I felt like i was dreaming and nothing was real. My heart was racing and kept having all these crazy thots. You'd think i'd learn my lesson but i didnt. I tried it again but this time with a different mindset knowing that whateva happened to just recognize that that was me being high. Thats the best tip my boy Staxx gave me! From the minute you start hitting that blunt until 3 to 4 hrs later, recognize that you are just high and thats how everyone feels when high. If you feel a panick attack coming, just breathe and tell yourself you will feel better as time passes and you come down from being so high. Trust me guys i've had really high high's but i just thot "Man im madd blazed". Dont be afraid to express yourself to your friends if your really high cuz i bet you they will say the same thing right back !! Know your freakin limits when smoking too ! I tried to outsmoke this chic once and hang with her and what a mistake. The first step i took going back into the house i realized i was in for a freakin adventure. The whole night i had to remind myself at several points of my high that i was just very blazed. I sat on the couch and and was tripping hard... I kept thinking that i was the only person that really existed in the whole world, and at points i could predict what people where going to say and do before they did it. I felt like i was in a movie and everything that was happening around me was already scripted to happen. Trust me folks it took alot of talking to Jesus to get me through ! If you find yourself really high and crazy thots overwhelming you, talk to Jesus and think about loved ones (e.g. mom or grandparents).
Well i finally quit smoking for a very long time but i continued to feel in a dreamy state, very antisocial and self concious around ppl. I was nervous wreck !!! I thot i would be like that forever. I felt like i was always thinking soo much. While ppl talked to me i could not concentrate on what they were saying lol. The best advice i have for all of you still feeling this way is to pray and kno that just as when u 1st smoke and ur really high and come down after sum time, same will happen with these feelings as time passes. I take Vitamin B, Omega 3's, Alpha GPC, Phosphytidylserine and all these things have helped along with prayer and trust in God. I realized how alone 1 could feel without believing in God.
Have I gotten High since, I'd be lying if i said no... Although i dont get panic attacks when i smoke or feel any negative symptoms anymore i realized that smoking takes away my motivation. I have come to realize that it is something i do not want to do anymore. My ultimate joy now is helping ppl and bettering myself by doing positive things! Reading these posts have helped me realize that we are all the same in soooo many ways guy. All humans have the same core needs, desires and well now we know, fears. So take these feelings, these situations(panic attacks) that you've gone through and know that because you survived and are alive you are stronger then ppl who have not gone through this. If you could survive a panic attack being high then you could survive anything while your sober and level headed. Just remember that the 1st panic attack was the worst one you will ever have because it was the one that got you by surprise and while you were under the influence of drugs (high). If you start getting panicky think of how you got through the first bad 1 you had and just smile. Just shake off those old fears and I challenge you to take these experiences and use them to get through future up in downs in your life. Know that what you've gone through is built to prepare you to handle future rocky situations with God's help. I could share stories for dayz but this is it for now ! God Bless and i'll be praying for each and every 1 of you because God knows you all by name ! Be Blessed !
Well i finally quit smoking for a very long time but i continued to feel in a dreamy state, very antisocial and self concious around ppl. I was nervous wreck !!! I thot i would be like that forever. I felt like i was always thinking soo much. While ppl talked to me i could not concentrate on what they were saying lol. The best advice i have for all of you still feeling this way is to pray and kno that just as when u 1st smoke and ur really high and come down after sum time, same will happen with these feelings as time passes. I take Vitamin B, Omega 3's, Alpha GPC, Phosphytidylserine and all these things have helped along with prayer and trust in God. I realized how alone 1 could feel without believing in God.
Have I gotten High since, I'd be lying if i said no... Although i dont get panic attacks when i smoke or feel any negative symptoms anymore i realized that smoking takes away my motivation. I have come to realize that it is something i do not want to do anymore. My ultimate joy now is helping ppl and bettering myself by doing positive things! Reading these posts have helped me realize that we are all the same in soooo many ways guy. All humans have the same core needs, desires and well now we know, fears. So take these feelings, these situations(panic attacks) that you've gone through and know that because you survived and are alive you are stronger then ppl who have not gone through this. If you could survive a panic attack being high then you could survive anything while your sober and level headed. Just remember that the 1st panic attack was the worst one you will ever have because it was the one that got you by surprise and while you were under the influence of drugs (high). If you start getting panicky think of how you got through the first bad 1 you had and just smile. Just shake off those old fears and I challenge you to take these experiences and use them to get through future up in downs in your life. Know that what you've gone through is built to prepare you to handle future rocky situations with God's help. I could share stories for dayz but this is it for now ! God Bless and i'll be praying for each and every 1 of you because God knows you all by name ! Be Blessed !
Hey Guest I'm really glad to hear that you were able to recover so well! Thanks for posting your experiences and feel free to come share whatever wisdom you've learned as well. :-)
i have experience those same feelings of anxiety. its like i am physically incapable of forming coherent sentences, clear thoughts, etc because all i can think about how much i am panicking when all i am doing is sitting in a room watching tv with friends (which i have loss touch with recently because of how anti-social i become when smoking). Its frustrating as hell because i dont really know what to do for it except stick with the drinking instead of smoking weed. that sounds worse but it calms me down a lot more, numbs my feelings of paranoia. Smoking weed all i think about is how im being judged by what im saying, or it seems like people can see right through to my soul and see my thoughts which scares the sh*t outta me.... just being extremely self critical to the point i dont know whats happening around me and feel completely alone. ITs a horrible feeling becasue it should be a time to exchange in meaningful converstations or help me feel happy, but in reality i guess reveals more of your insecurities, but thats my personal experience. I guess it depends on what type of person you are, weed is for some people and not for others.
I'm a 30 year old. Smoked and did a lot of drugs as a kid. Stopped for most of my 20s. I don't drink. I smoke, often daily though not all day. I work 60 hours a week. Hard. I am an entrepreneur. I write. I procrastinate. I do most of it stoned.
I found myself crippled with anxiety and insomnia, hating everything about my life one day. I didn't have panic attacks, I had general bitter pissiness. I became rather foul of temperament and I didn't like who I was becoming. I'm not interested in developing parkinsonism or ass cancer, or some other ridiculous side effects, so going to the psychiatrist or doctor was out of the question and I didn't need therapy. I needed time, space, and a break from the whirlwind of events happening to me so that I could start to re-control my destiny.
I was 28, sober for 7 years, and single for the first time in a decade after a decent but ill-fated marriage. I don't say sober for 7 years as if I was keeping track or it was on purpose, I was just busy being an adult and had forgotten what beer was. When I tried pot again it was like shoving peace and quiet down on myself with a huge cuddly blanket. And it was nice. It continues to be nice.
Pot isn't just about how "strong" it is or the "quality". These factors are important - cheap shitty weed has been known to be both cheap and shitty. Side effects include whatever happens when you smoke mexican pesticides.
This is the modern, medical day. Marijuana potency is up, and so is the tailoring of the high. Through rigorous cultivation of certain characteristics, things like marijuana induced anxiety and paranoia can be mitigated so that the beneficial aspects of the drug can help to relieve pain and regulate blood flow amongst a million other benefits. Most anxiety and social issues relating to marijuana use are products of culture and not the drug itself - when you are doing something that is essentially against the word of law in your society, there are many social cues tied to the action which can cause someone discomfort or paranoia.
Essentially - most of you who get anxiety get it because you are socialized to do so. You're SUPPOSED to feel uncomfortable when you break the law, it's why they make such a fuss over it. You are Pavlov's dog. If you'd like I'll stick you in a box with a cat that is both alive and dead at the same time and you can be all scientific.
I would wager that in most of the anecdotal cases presented here that there are underlying psychological or sociological conditions that are creating negative associations.
I'm not saying that pot is the best thing for everyone, but many of my fellow Americans are afflicted with too much right now so fast lets go 21st century digital boy syndrome to the point that they are basically a slew of neurotic ticks with the occasional insightful commentary on the latest facebook game to click.
Have you guys ever thought that the weed use and your personal depression, mirror loathing and self hate are completely unrelated?
You are what you think. I think I'll have another toke.
I found myself crippled with anxiety and insomnia, hating everything about my life one day. I didn't have panic attacks, I had general bitter pissiness. I became rather foul of temperament and I didn't like who I was becoming. I'm not interested in developing parkinsonism or ass cancer, or some other ridiculous side effects, so going to the psychiatrist or doctor was out of the question and I didn't need therapy. I needed time, space, and a break from the whirlwind of events happening to me so that I could start to re-control my destiny.
I was 28, sober for 7 years, and single for the first time in a decade after a decent but ill-fated marriage. I don't say sober for 7 years as if I was keeping track or it was on purpose, I was just busy being an adult and had forgotten what beer was. When I tried pot again it was like shoving peace and quiet down on myself with a huge cuddly blanket. And it was nice. It continues to be nice.
Pot isn't just about how "strong" it is or the "quality". These factors are important - cheap shitty weed has been known to be both cheap and shitty. Side effects include whatever happens when you smoke mexican pesticides.
This is the modern, medical day. Marijuana potency is up, and so is the tailoring of the high. Through rigorous cultivation of certain characteristics, things like marijuana induced anxiety and paranoia can be mitigated so that the beneficial aspects of the drug can help to relieve pain and regulate blood flow amongst a million other benefits. Most anxiety and social issues relating to marijuana use are products of culture and not the drug itself - when you are doing something that is essentially against the word of law in your society, there are many social cues tied to the action which can cause someone discomfort or paranoia.
Essentially - most of you who get anxiety get it because you are socialized to do so. You're SUPPOSED to feel uncomfortable when you break the law, it's why they make such a fuss over it. You are Pavlov's dog. If you'd like I'll stick you in a box with a cat that is both alive and dead at the same time and you can be all scientific.
I would wager that in most of the anecdotal cases presented here that there are underlying psychological or sociological conditions that are creating negative associations.
I'm not saying that pot is the best thing for everyone, but many of my fellow Americans are afflicted with too much right now so fast lets go 21st century digital boy syndrome to the point that they are basically a slew of neurotic ticks with the occasional insightful commentary on the latest facebook game to click.
Have you guys ever thought that the weed use and your personal depression, mirror loathing and self hate are completely unrelated?
You are what you think. I think I'll have another toke.
I definitely know how you feel, the same thing happened to me when I went with my best friend to a concert about a year ago. We were smoking and all of a sudden my vision started slowing, like the way you see frames on a reel, and I sat down so I could calm down. My friend tried to lift me back up but I wasn't getting any better. Then I lost function of my body and my friend told me I wasn't breathing, I was staring through her, and I couldn't move. I can only remember a few things from those moments; I can remember people screaming for help (none of the security people came to help me) and then I was floating, and all of these faces were passing me...that was when my friend was dragging me out of the crowd. As soon as I was out of the crowd I started breathing again, and I was taken to an EMT station where I was given oxygen. Thankfully I didn't have to go to the hospital because I was over 18...but I probably should have. I figured the weed was most likely laced with something, but again my friend said it wasn't. Now I am much more careful about doing research before I smoke. Each strain affects you differently (some are more of a head high, some more of a body high) so most likely every time you smoke weed your experience will be different. But I did have a few more panic attacks after this happened...but they've all but gone away. If it was really good weed and you are a girl, 8 hits was way too many for you.
After that night I woke up the next morning and everything almost seemed magnified in my vision, and it remained that way for about 3 days. I went to the doctor just to make sure everything was ok and he told me that a combination of dehydration (I didn't drink any water or eat anything that day...very stupid) the marijuana, and the amount of people around me all had something to do with my experience. I remember feeling detached but it usually goes away if it was only your first time. Research hasn't been concluded yet but smoking may decrease function in your frontal lobe, which is the part of the brain that allows you to feel connected with others.
Hope this has been helpful
After that night I woke up the next morning and everything almost seemed magnified in my vision, and it remained that way for about 3 days. I went to the doctor just to make sure everything was ok and he told me that a combination of dehydration (I didn't drink any water or eat anything that day...very stupid) the marijuana, and the amount of people around me all had something to do with my experience. I remember feeling detached but it usually goes away if it was only your first time. Research hasn't been concluded yet but smoking may decrease function in your frontal lobe, which is the part of the brain that allows you to feel connected with others.
Hope this has been helpful
before college i only smoked a few times here and there but it wasent really much. then i go to school...... basicly start right up and never stop for over a year. started failing out and didnt care at all cuz i was high pretty much the whole time. then right before finals, complete meltdown. My wold crashed as hard as a world can crash. I started thinking about things... ALOT basicly my whole life i just passed things off like they didnt matter then all the sudden i think everything is my fault and that i am litterally the dumbest person on the planet and all that. since that day i had daily panic attacks. I continued smoking all summer pretending it wasent the problem but then i finally stopped which slowed the panic attacks down but they still kept coming. Even right now i feel like my life isent the same almost like it was permenant but i know its not. thats part of the anxiety. My tip is to stop and never do it again. my problem is that i kept trying after because i liked being high but every time after it sucked it didnt feel good at all. i know i suck at writing and my thoughts are tossed all over this dumb paragraph but i even have some anxiety now so bye good luck
I'm a 17 year old male, graduating from high school 2 years early and planning on becoming a PA. Marijuana for the longest time helped me relax, and just chill out for hours on end. After 3 years of smoking practically 3 grams a day, I found that it was starting to make me depressed, and depersonalize from reality. I felt as though I wasn't living my life the right way, I felt that everyone else was better than me and they knew it. The only thing that helped me was when I quit, and from then I tried marijuana a few more times just to make sure that it WAS smoking that was making me depressed. It was. The longer you stay off the drug the better, all you need to do is find something you believe in and strive for it. I don't believe in God, so praying of course was out of the option. But I have found that my mind is the one thing in this World under my control, it allows me to move and communicate with those around me. Marijuana hinders my mind's ability to function, even the most basic tasks... Marijuana isn't a problem for all, but for those who feel like it might, you should stop using it. You won't overcome the depression or depersonalization with more smoke, you have to utilize your mind and create your identity to overcome it. I don't think that marijuana is necessarily a bad substance, I believe it's the individual. People are doomed from the start, regardless of what drug they use. If someone's going to achieve, a plant won't stop them. Oh, sorry, a "Weed". Honestly, best wishes to those who are afraid that marijuana has changed their life for the worst, and now feel as though they're the only ones who have gone through this. All you can do is overcome it with your mind, your brain is the key to it all. And believe me, it IS overcomable! ^-^
im pretty sure i have depersonalization, but im not sure.. here's my story..
Ok so, i am 15 year old male. about 4 weeks ago i got pretty high with my friends (wasnt my first time). i chilled for a bit, went to bed then the next morning when i woke up i got high again this time i got super ripped, i started freaking out and my heart was racing, i thought like i was going to pass out or die or something.. about 2-3 hours later i took a nap then when i woke up i still felt a high like feeling. i have been feeling like this for about 5 weeks now. it feels like i am getting better but im just not sure. The first week i was getting really bad anxiety or panic attacks, now i am not, the feeling fades in and out through the day, sometimes i feel alright, i feel like the weird feeling is not there anymore, and sometimes it bothers me alot and i start feeling like **** stressing over it and thinking i have a serious mental problem and it's never going to go away, it's like i'm not recognizing things like i used to, and i look at everything diffrently, it's the only thing that has been on my mind and it's hard to ignore. it's always at the back of my mind. it's sort of like the more i am aware of/concerned about/on the watch for these symptoms, the more they happen.
Ok so, i am 15 year old male. about 4 weeks ago i got pretty high with my friends (wasnt my first time). i chilled for a bit, went to bed then the next morning when i woke up i got high again this time i got super ripped, i started freaking out and my heart was racing, i thought like i was going to pass out or die or something.. about 2-3 hours later i took a nap then when i woke up i still felt a high like feeling. i have been feeling like this for about 5 weeks now. it feels like i am getting better but im just not sure. The first week i was getting really bad anxiety or panic attacks, now i am not, the feeling fades in and out through the day, sometimes i feel alright, i feel like the weird feeling is not there anymore, and sometimes it bothers me alot and i start feeling like **** stressing over it and thinking i have a serious mental problem and it's never going to go away, it's like i'm not recognizing things like i used to, and i look at everything diffrently, it's the only thing that has been on my mind and it's hard to ignore. it's always at the back of my mind. it's sort of like the more i am aware of/concerned about/on the watch for these symptoms, the more they happen.
I used to smoke weed. I smoked from age 16 to 18 heavily. I stopped smoking because it made me not care about who I really was. I remember getting high and then voices would enter my head. It felt distubing. It was almost like I had a sixth sense. I could literally tell what a person was thinking without them even saying anything. If you smoke, stop. You never know when you might get a hold of some bad weed. Imagine getting high one day and never coming down. All my friends who use to smoke weed are either in jail or strung out on heavier drugs. Please stop. Seek God through Jesus Christ, the feeling of the holy spirit is better than any high you can imagine. Peace and love.
I am going threw the same thing. I used to smoke weed all the time, and I was perfectly fine. Than I smoked some that was laced w/ PCP now I get horrible anxiety attacks. As one person posted, they are sensite to light. I never realized that probally is part of my anxiety also! Im glad you pointed that out so I can bring that up to my doctor. The clouds hurt my eyes, and any sort of light, the brightness makes me even more paranoid feeling. I tend to feel like things around me, aren`t real. As if someone was to be like "what are you talking about" like I said something foolish it instantly puts me into a panic. And YES this can happen to anyone. Looking at me, you would never guess, That I feel like the world around me is something unreal. GO TO THE DOCTORS. don`t live with it! I dropped out of school. and can hardly even be at work with out feeling like im a nut case!
well my friend, let me just say I know exactly what you are going through. Down to a T, hell all the way down to Z. Especially with the anxiety. Weed and my own actions have made me into a anxious, introvert. I remember times when i would get so stoned that a spot on my brain would feel weird, then I would focus on that spot because I was high, and that would only make it worse. Needless to say I would have horrible trips. But it wasn't always like this. I don't remember when it all went wrong, or if it was ever right in the first place. Let me just give you this piece of advice that was given to me when i needed it most. Hold on! thats it, simple and sweet. Hold on! No matter how hard, and how worse it gets, eventually it will get better. I'm no doctor but what I've learned over my weed smoking career is that everything that made me anxious, nervous, fearful about, was created by me. My so called tumor was a fabrication of my over activated imagination due to weed. I use to hear voices and those shadows you see at the corner of your eye, we use to call them shadow people. What I recommend is to take it slow. Don't smoke to get stoned, smoke to get high. I found that when I smoke two bowls in one sitting, thats when my problems would manifest. But, when i packed a bowl and smoked it thought the day I was more energetic, less anxious and overall happier. You have to realize that its not the weed thats affecting you, its you, and only you can control yourself so get yourself under control and take it slow. Of course people are going to say to stop smoking weed all together, and thats what I did. It has now been three months from my last hit. And let me tell you, life is booorrriiinggg. It dose not help that I'm all alone stuck out in AZ with limited funds, but man... i could really use a smoke right now. So just remember, get yourself under control, quiet your mind and focus on your goals, take a break or stop all together. But most importantly, Hold on! hope this help you or anyone. take care friend.
HELPP!!!!! WEED INVOLVED... Okay about three weeks ago on halloween (23 days ago) i smoked weed for the second time of my life out of a pipe. The weed strain was skunk and i lost track of how many hits i had. But me and 5 people shared one dime and about 25% of another dime. The first week after that i felt like sh*t but now im feeling a little better. I have not been able to think as clearly as i did before that night and i have been geting anxiety attacks out of nowhere. IT WAS ONLY MY 2ND TIME so people who have smoked for years do not tell me how yu feel. In case it matters I'm 14, 175 lb., about 5'6''. Please tell me how long it will take to make a full recovery. I WILL NEVER SMOKE AGAIN!!!!
ive been smoking a lot for the past year and i feel like i havent been the same in that period. i haven't lost any friends, or anything significant like that, but it's definitely changed me. i'm quitting cold turkey because thats the only way i know how to do things; its either all out or dont even bother. reading everyone's posts has really inspired me to strive to become the best person i can be, and that isnt with weed.
dont get me wrong, nothings better than smoking a bowl at the end of a long day, but it cant happen anymore. weed really does have negative side effects; they're definitely real. you're kidding yourself, just like i did, if you dont believe that.
i just want to thank everyone for their stories and their struggles because they do help people overcome issues.
dont get me wrong, nothings better than smoking a bowl at the end of a long day, but it cant happen anymore. weed really does have negative side effects; they're definitely real. you're kidding yourself, just like i did, if you dont believe that.
i just want to thank everyone for their stories and their struggles because they do help people overcome issues.
i feel like i have been depersonlize also . im 14 years old black and bout to be fifthteen. this what happen i had 10 dollars it was a sunny sunday i head to the part to meet my friends and her brother is a weed man. i got 2 dime bags .5 minutes later my mans come o homo come with another bag so it was6 people to 3 blunts.after i smoked we start acting stupid but i got depressed and i was six blocks away from home.i had to walk by myself all the way .when i got home i went straight to bed the to the shower my hard goin 100 miles per hour.im high but i no what im doing after i got out i went to bed ang got on my laptop ..next day i was still high a lil but i quit smoking and lts been 2 to 3 months since but i stay cold and sweaty having panic attack and anxiety attacks and i went to the doctor all my organs are good and all. but the attacks and the deprression the only thing im good at now is math i pray every day... i start eatin health hopin it will go away i have not smoked since :$ i hate to be alone by my self it feel like my inner boddi cold i no its the weed because i did not feel like dis before i smoked pleaseee. if u can leave a number great if you cant koo just help. ummm ook
Hey, guys !! I got amazing news for you all !! I have got the cure !! its things that you could buy today and be back to normal in about a week. Now, b4 i let you all in, i have to say that i did not do this on my own !! I have to thank God, who really helped me find what my body and brain needed to get back to good health. So say bye to anxiety, depression, depersonalization, derealization and all that stuff !! Its been about 4 years since i first had the same symptoms everyone on this post has experienced. I prayed day and night and God slowly started to show the things i needed to get back to 100%. It did take some time for this process to work but eventually it will work. First and foremost, pray and thank God that He has giving you a 2nd chance at being normal !! Okay, take these supplements and adjust dosages specific to you !! 300mg of Phosphytidlserine, 4000mg of Omega 3's, 600 mg of ALA, Once Daily (vitamin multisupplement), 500Mg of Magnesium, 200Mg of Potassium and dont eat to much red meat ! All these supplements can be found on the NSI brand. When you smoke weed, it kills some of these vital nutrients and these are vital to get your mind back into gear !! Dont smoke weed again, thank God and help people !! pass this on. Good luck everyone, i look 4ward to hearing how this has worked for everyone else, please feel free to ask questions.. you can call me ALF =) God Bless