So, Back when I was around 8 (so I think Cant quit remember) my older bro introduced me to porn I remember always watching normal porn, I can't remember when but I for some reason then switched mostly to anal Always straight with woman and never had a problem getting off on it. Then something happened that I vaguely remember It's almost all the way at the bad of my mind, I had never told anyone this so I think but I used to have play dates at a friends it would be I think 3 or 4 of us, I remember me and one of the other kids whom I cant remember wen't into the washroom and I remember use both on are knees and it had something to do with anal but again it is so vague and dull of a memory I can't remember, But till this day its always been in the back of my mind and bugging me. Anyway I remember always having strange thoughts back in those days I should ad my brother also introduced me to some weird porn back then I.E Horse sex, Anal, Dog sex and just random stuff. Back to the weird thoughts, as far back as I could remember I always had these weird thoughts sometimes about sexually doing anything with a guy and it would always somehow revert back to that bathroom in the back of my head, By the way other then jerking off to porn as a kid that was the only sexual thing I had ever done, I may have watched some anal porn that day and ask my friend to do something but I'm not sure at all. Anyway I moved on to middle school and had no problem having a crush on this girl (grade 5) then in grade 7 I got a girlfriend for the first time, We only kissed 4 times but it felt great. By the way in grade 6-8 I was in a behavioral class room because I was depressed, that was after my parents divorced. We never Had sex or any sexual things happen other then kisses. I should note I have many Self esteem issues and have a small myoclonic tremor that adds to it. That was the last girl I was ever with, since then I have felt worthless and hopeless so I the only action I had was with my hand. I have been strictly interest in anal porn for about 4 years now not to say no vaginal porn turns me on, but I also ways tend to go with anal. Now anal porn is starting to where off and not turn me on as much. I just recently wanted to try something new, My friend is into Furry porn ( like anime wolf chicks) so I went to check it out. I went through allot of photos and most female photos where vaginal which where hot but didn't get me hard, then I went down and saw a pic of to anime male wolfs and I started to get a little hard, I have see tumbnails of gay porn but it was never my things at all, And It still isn't, When ever I see a gay thumb nail I want to click on it but then when I start watching I immediately lose interest. I wondering why I get hard sometimes from male pics but never in my life have I wacked off to one it has always been female/lesbian. I am wonder because my first sexual thing done as a child was anal and with a guy it is all I know? I to like everyone else with a similar topic am in no way into men emotionally barely socially (no i dont hang out with girls) And always fantasize about a girl who with like me for who I am with all my insecurity's. The main thing I getting at is I'm a virgin at 17 who never had any sexual experience with another human other then as an 9/10 year old with a guy friend in the bathroom, I started off with Vaginal and ended with anal after trying ALLOT of fetish's. Could it be I'm out of the circle all together and am sick of jerking off to something I've never done or can relate to? I in no way feel or act feminine infact I can judge and have the same thoughts over a girl the same if not better then my best friend whos done everthing but f**k. I've always be confused every since I can remember that happening (washroom thing) and had no experiance with a real girl, so everytime I look at p***y I try and imagine what it feels like but am not aroused because visual it does not stimulate me the same way as anal and now those pictures I saw earlier. I will add sometimes I will do something anal to myself out of curiosity it never feels good emotionally or physically for some reason I just feel the need to do it, Of course once i'm done I feel and look towards myself like an id**t and go play some xbox or shoot my pellet rifles. I Am tired of this BS I really don't care what I am as long as i'm something lol, but as of now i'm in the null area, well on the female side of things as far as relationship. But as for what turns me on I'm not quit sure anymore
Try some new things. Experiment.
Dear Tyler
You are suffering from the effects of porn! You need to stop watching porn altogether. Porn is age restricted because it is dangerous, as you have proved.
You will have to try to forget the sexual images that have been impressed upon you. They always lead to dissatisfaction eventually.
Start looking at girls as people, not sex objects. Try and find friends, not sex partners. Get to know them as people - their hopes and fears, desires, needs, hobbies, general interests, spiritual interests.
If you can find a good counsellor, try that, Where do you live?
Hope this helps as a start
Your problem is that you were exposed to bestiality and sodomy through porn. Porn is especially harmful to young minds. Seeing these images can be very damaging, even to adult minds. Viewing porn can take you down a road you don't want to do on. The reply by Shepherd999 was right on. Try making friends with girls, appreciate them as people first. Women want to be appreciated for the people they are, and not as sex objects. In a committed relationship, love and lust go together, as it should. It sounds like you have been learning about the wrong kind of sex. Sex is a beautiful thing that takes place between two people who love each other. In that way, it is a very healthy, upbuilding kind of thing. I know, because I've had it for almost 30 years with the same person. More money is spent on porn in this country than sports! That goes to show what it's all about-----money. Don't let yourself be polluted by it. As a young person, it will just make you confused and messed up. If you have access to a good counselor, this would be a good idea also. Just remember---sex is a beautiful thing under the right circumstances. God created us to enjoy it, but there are boundaries to consider. I hope I have been of help. I know my advice sounds old fashioned, because we live in a world where anything goes, but that doesn't mean it's healthy. Healthy sex adds alot to our feeling of well being and happiness.
Hey,
I kind of get you; as in I also had early sexual experiences in life. These things affect us most at this time where our sexuality is at the forefront of our mental musings! Being Virgins and all doesn't make it easier: moving forward needs experience :s
To me you seem confused about your sexual awareness? and feel a bit guilty too. My advice is be selfish! do things that make you feel good and follow that. Your arousal triggers seem to be anally derived, I get that too sometimes!
Also, take it slow and accept your arousal feelings! they'll lead you to somewhere!Don't be hard on yourself :) It's hard to enjoy sex/ arousal when its torturing you like that... Good luck!
hello dear
use FRENCH kiss
it s so great interesting
lovely and make her WET all over
i can use lips to suck all over
i start with lower lip to suck her both lips in my tongue
then slowly i put my tongue in her mouth
then afetr that, i use my finger in her p***y and caress her a little
this way it makes her all WET