30 yr old female. I used to masturbate and enjoy it with toys or without and was always able to find that sweet spot. Then I was in a long term relationship where we had amazing sex life. Basically everyday, or more we had sex and he was always able to make me orgasm, because of this I didn't really masturbate as there was no need. After 3yrs due to life circumstances our relationship ended and he had to move back to Ireland. (his work visa expired and he could not get another one) When he first left I missed him terribly, I would think about him and try to ease the tension by masturbating but it didn't work. At first I thought it was just the depression and sadness of being separated from him. Its been over a 2yrs now and although I still miss him I have accepted we are not able to be together anymore and yet I still cannot orgasm from masturbation alone. I tried toys and lubes and porn and it does feel good but I dont orgasm. I was starting to think I was totally ruined and gave up until I met someone a couple months ago, things went fairly fast and we ended up sleeping together after a few weeks. To my great surprise I had an orgasm right away, since then we experimented a bit and I can have sex and orgasm, he can use his hand or a toy and get me to orgasm. But when I go home on my own I cant cum, I just get buildup and then the arousal just goes away. Its frustrating to think that I will always have to have a partner to have an orgasm. I can only think it must be a psychological problem but I have no idea how to overcome it. I have looked allover online and found hundreds of women with opposite issues but none with this one......
its a rfid very chip because they vibrate when active get a radation detector to find out if not.... its cancerous.