Hi, my name is Emma, im 25 and have been abusing alcohol for ten years now. I find it hard to talk to people face to face about my problems but due to me taking 3 overdoses in 4 months i have been reffered to a psycologist and a addictions worker. I have been to my GP and was just told to 'up my excersise' which i find hard to do as i dont like to leave the house unless nesissary,I am not over weight, to be honest with you I avoid eating alot which then gives me the problem of feeling really sick when i am forced to eat infront of my family so as not to cause suspicion. I was abused sexualy by my dads mum who thankfully i dont c anymore and is nearly dead, aside from that i have had a pretty crapy life due to that in my mind and other physical and mental abuse.i feel my psycologist is realy starting to help but im still drinking lots and she knows this, my addictions worker has been off sick for a month and i was just left without warning with no support, i have just recently started seeing her again but feel i have been abandoned by the system and now thinking attempting suicide again to make people relise i need help but hopefully this time im successful, i am starting to feel every1 is against me and i have no where to turn, il continue to cut myself awaiting your reply
hey, im 4 years younger, but i can still relate to what ur going through cause i literally can't see any of my skin on my left arm (i cut it all up)...and to be honest, if u want to get better, u could do it all by urself but some poeple might need help, and thats great that ur doing that...im sorry uve been feeling this qy for years...but u know what, actually write down what is making u feel so depressed and work on solutions...please do that cause ur throughts are so clouded when u think with ur emotions only...u can get thru this and miracles do happen, i am here for you if u ever need