I am a 15 year old Male, I defiantly have hit puberty, as i have pubic hair, a deepened voice, hair on other places etc. and have had for a long time.
For those reasons i find my issues confusing and worrying.
1.I am very lonely, have never had any love, so I long for sexual pleasure through masturbation, but no matter what i do, over the times i have had no luck achieving any pleasure from it. This does confuse me as I get erections frequently and i have a strong desire for sexual pleasure and masturbation
2. Until maybe a few months ago, I could never get the foreskin to pull back, but im guessing after some stretching and practise, I can come back fairly easily, but, when erect and the foreskin back past the glans, there is significant pain. It does feel tight and after a relatively short period of time the glans does become slightly purple and some pain occurs (not very serious), especially from an attempt at masturbation
3. The two issues above only confuse me more due to the following. I have had ejaculations during sleep, wet dreams, and in some way i do remember the pleasure of the ejaculation, wake up with semen present. For this reason i desire concious ejaculation upon desire.
Please help me, I am really angry with my body, I cannot reach pleasure in my lonely situation.
For those reasons i find my issues confusing and worrying.
1.I am very lonely, have never had any love, so I long for sexual pleasure through masturbation, but no matter what i do, over the times i have had no luck achieving any pleasure from it. This does confuse me as I get erections frequently and i have a strong desire for sexual pleasure and masturbation
2. Until maybe a few months ago, I could never get the foreskin to pull back, but im guessing after some stretching and practise, I can come back fairly easily, but, when erect and the foreskin back past the glans, there is significant pain. It does feel tight and after a relatively short period of time the glans does become slightly purple and some pain occurs (not very serious), especially from an attempt at masturbation
3. The two issues above only confuse me more due to the following. I have had ejaculations during sleep, wet dreams, and in some way i do remember the pleasure of the ejaculation, wake up with semen present. For this reason i desire concious ejaculation upon desire.
Please help me, I am really angry with my body, I cannot reach pleasure in my lonely situation.
You sound like a thoughtful young man who is trying to figure out what this sex thing is all about.
If you have been attempting to stretch your foreskin, or retract it more and more, keep at it.
I understand that continual practice will see results in a matter of weeks.
However, you're saying you're not getting pleasure from masturbation. And though you wake after a wet dream, you desire the waking experience through masturbation.
Most guys will discover through experimentation what feels good to them, and if something is not or is painful, they'll avoid it.
Many guys discover that direct stimulation of the glans or head of the penis will strike someplace between pain and pleasure, due to the intensity. Some find that the sensation builds to near pain, just as ejaculation occurs, and sensitivity becomes extreme.
I'd continue with your stretching attempts, and try to gain some MORE room, so that when erect and the foreskin is retracted, it is no longer painful, and that you have complete access to the glans.
The next step, if you cannot eliminate the pain through stretching, is to send you to your family doctor.
But don't worry about not experiencing love yet. at age 15, there's plenty of time ahead. Don't rush it.
If you have been attempting to stretch your foreskin, or retract it more and more, keep at it.
I understand that continual practice will see results in a matter of weeks.
However, you're saying you're not getting pleasure from masturbation. And though you wake after a wet dream, you desire the waking experience through masturbation.
Most guys will discover through experimentation what feels good to them, and if something is not or is painful, they'll avoid it.
Many guys discover that direct stimulation of the glans or head of the penis will strike someplace between pain and pleasure, due to the intensity. Some find that the sensation builds to near pain, just as ejaculation occurs, and sensitivity becomes extreme.
I'd continue with your stretching attempts, and try to gain some MORE room, so that when erect and the foreskin is retracted, it is no longer painful, and that you have complete access to the glans.
The next step, if you cannot eliminate the pain through stretching, is to send you to your family doctor.
But don't worry about not experiencing love yet. at age 15, there's plenty of time ahead. Don't rush it.