Greetings Fellow Users:
I have been puffing since I was 15, now I am 54...do the math. I am so not proud of that but managed to secure 2 diplomas from 2 different colleges, but much to my dismay I remain unemployed.
My aunts and uncles and mom were hippies in the 60's, I was raised on the Beatles and a very accepting and casual attitude towards puffing. My mom still grows her own and my 3 adult kidz are also users of herb.
Locating and using herb for so long, I became a master of disguise...able to bs my way in and out of a variety of situations. Ideally, I really want to know who I am...it's been many moons and I am not certain about what my likes, needs and wants really are. I remained in a co dependent relationship for 20 years with a crack addict(I never got involved with chemicals, booze or needles) simply because my herb source was guaranteed and free...Really? There is a price to pay for everything, and I paid dearly with my life, body, home and family. I foolishly believed that if it grows out of the ground, then it's probably not bad for you...
Today is only day 5 for me, but withdrawal symptoms are real and success with detox is entirely up to me and my brain. The same brain that I allowed to keep me convinced that puffing was not harmful. BS!!!!! My life is better than half over and I don't know who I am yet...I am proud of me for not craving (yet?)and managing to remain not bitchy to those around me who are still using. My family is very proud and supportive of me...and that's half the battle(they are still puffing, but it's not bothering me...yet)
It's a habit, meant to be broken, by me, the one who is in charge of whether or not I ingest smoke, food or any other substance. The lungs are amazing, they start to heal immediately as soon as you stop smoking. My bark is already gone (which I use to disguise as a dry throat or the onset of a cold). What did my classmates think when they witnessed me eating chocolate bars first thing in the morning, then heading to caf to return to class with more junk food to consume before the 2 hour class was over?
I am not a martyr, but I do want this "monkey" off my back, once and for all...I love listening to rock music very loud and want to be an individual for myself. Tho I have been a functioning addict most of my life, I look forward to being a functioning person for the remainder of my years.
Best of luck to all of you seeking to know yourselves..
Perception is everything. You put these bad ideas into your head and let them fester until you actually believed them.
It's a sad thing that these ignorant statements put so many bad ideas into others' heads. I've seen a few fall into this dark hole. On the contrary, many such as myself, have been smoking for years and have only benefited in life. I now have such an optimistic outlook on life, so many great new ideas, and have done nothing but strive to better myself. I'm about to complete my undergraduates in accountancy, to continue onto achieve my master's. I'm also interning at a small firm, along side working on a website idea and new iPhone app.
The false claim that it ruins life is naive, and ignorant. You did it to yourself. Get a more positive attitude and nothing can bring you down.
It didn´t ruin your life, but have some respect for people who had their lives messed up because of this stuff.
Respect please, the statement is not ignorant. Some people drink alcohol and have no problems, others have. With marijuana the same happens.
18 months ago I agree with my husband (of 14 years) who was suffering horrendous migraines, insomnia and depression that he could smoke some weed. At first it was such a relief. He slept, he was calm, lovely. Proudly sober alcoholic of 18 years, fantastic guy. Now I barely recognize him. I've suddenly become this wife I never expected to be - begging a screaming abusive husband to stop. The moods, the rages, the over the top loving. Fitness fanatic corporate proud neighbourhood hero who now plays video games with 17 year old 'dealers' for crying out loud!
I cannot believe who he has become, and who I have become. I am so relieved to have read all these emails. I've never known anyone who smoked before, and I believed all the stuff about marijuana being harmless. Stoned people I saw seemed harmless. But behind closed doors is just heartbreaking. As for the fools saying "hey man you're ignorant, weed is cool" - you sound exactly like my now id**t stoner husband and his slacker giggling friends."Be cool man, don't stress out man! We're GREAT man, your wife is such a bore, such a prude."Get me the hell away from this nightmare of a man I once so dearly loved!
hey just stumbled upon this. first, good for you for continuing to try to do something that you really feel is for the best. i wish you luck and send out prayers.
i tried quitting(one could argue, in retrospect, how hard i tried--the funny thing about addiction) for about 10 years. I finally have given it up for a few months and I realize that although it has many benefits and can be helpful, it can also be really addictive and can really cause you to feel that its ok that your life is just floating by without accomplishing anything. In short, what you think is just a harmless little peasurable high can really be a numbing agent to life itsefl. It can cause you to simply accept where you are in your life and prohibit you from motivating yourself to take steps toward maturity and success. Again, with anything..be honest with yourself and make the necessary changes. I tried to be a "once a week/ once a month" etc. smoker. Turns out i think i have an addictive personality and i crave things that release good feelings in my brain, etc. So I am best with eating a healthy low sugar diet and exercising to feel good. Then i can have the motivation, and non-delusional perspective to approach life. Also, herb can give you a feeling that you are very spiritually in tune, which is authentic to a degree..but if you cannot accomplish such things and such perceptions without the substance, you must ask yourself how real or stable or sustainable your "in-tune-ness" is.. ya know? blessings
Hey man just read your post and I hope that you've quit and moved on with your life its been 6 years since lol. Just wanted to tell you that your brother in law is not your responsibility obvi I dont mean just ignore the signs but give advice the only person that can change is him and if it's forced it gets worse. Coke and pills are sadly part of growing up if you choose and want to get more screwed up than just a head buzz, kids today have a lot of access and resources out there now than we did growing up in our hayday (I'm 30). As is everything in life - moderation is key, which you've already been doing 2 G's a week is nothing thats like a 30 minute trip a day maybe an hour if it's that good good (I smoke 1/2 Gram everyday). Take this advice it'll help, live within yourself and dont be afraid to smile and tell yourself how good you've got it made. Sounds corny but what I really mean is don't take on the many weights of the world all of the time and make those problems your own. As for staying up late smoking up, munching and then getting up late for work, sorry that not weed brotha that's you and those problems are easily corrected. I sleep 5-6 hrs on average and my body usually feels great besides the bloating from over consumption. Workout once in awhile once or twice a year then ramp up that's how you get the positive endorphin cells going to the brain and you feel less stressed, tired or negative .
I agree that weed CAN ruin lives but only if you smoke constantly and aren't taking care of what you need to in your personal life.
When it starts controlling what you wanna do and how you wanna live your life you have to be moderate and if problems are still consistent then you need to quit.
I've smoked almost everyday for the past 15 years, been with the same sexy woman throughout and have done PLENTY of bad and horrible sh*t to people in my early years that I could easily sit here and torture myself over but will I? Nah, I'm gonna go get high and enjoy my life the way it is, best of luck wish you well.
Peace
Shut up! You are an addict and you don´t know what you are talking about.
I have quit smoking for about a few weeks, now. I got into a major fight with my boys, and I dont talk to them at all. I got two facial scars from the fight, so I stopped drinking by myself, also. If I am at a party I drink and chill out, and watch girls dance. Weed is good but it is better to be sold and smoked with people that don't try to get a rise out of you. Weed made me creative, have a better visual in thinking, and made want to eat fresh foods. But, it makes your bones and body weaker if you don't workout, overtime. Therefore, smoke with people you trust, exercise every other day, and smoke safely.
Damn straight! Finally some real insight not some lame niggas bitchin about they're trivial emotional issues like a 15 year old girl.
Hey man, i feel for you on this topic. I am 24 and have been smoking for 8 years. During that time, I think I quit once for 3 months, and another time for 1 month. The first one was because I studied abroad, and eventually found a source there, anyway. The next time was because I graduated from college and still could not even get entry level work... talk about depression. I had to move back into my parents house, which I absolutely hated. I decided to call a rehabilitation center and lasted almost a month. I left without successfully completing the program. I felt like I was not getting better there because all of the other women had more serious addictions or worse life stories. Now that I am in the working world trying to develop professionally. I wish I was able to stick it out in a professional way. I see that I am not so successful in the workplace due to professionality. As a passionate, socially-conscious progressive, I feel that weed should be legal and accepted. As a public school teacher, I feel that setting the best example, socially will result in success and happiness. I just need to realize for myself how to incorporate a sincere happy professionalism to carry me through my withdrawn stoner attitude / way of life. It is easier said than done. Best of luck to you. One last thing, pot is only a gateway drug if you let it be.
hey,that's my story.I'm praying for you.Please pray for me too.
Yeah. I will, hope everything turns well for you and I, futuristically